New year Eve

Today was raining non-stop. I wondered why the sudden and continous rain. Maybe the angels from Heaven was pouring tears down the Earth. I read the news today to keep update on the Tsunami disaster.PM Lee calls on organisers to tone down Ne year celebration so that to amrk the festivities appropriately and sensitively. Even the live telecast from Siloso Beach on national tv was replaced with some primetime movie.

Hence, if a party became a thanksgiving party of which we celebrate life, remember the victims who are suffering and wish for a tranquil year ahead, then one think it becomes a very meaningful event.Therefore, it would be nice to use the opportunity to do some good work and raise some donation for disaster at the events. Truly. I even spent whole afternoon research on internet regarding the tsunami and the religion. Something like Seven Bowls of God's Wrath in bible and The signs of Doomsday: Qiayamat in Islam. I felt trembled when I read beyond the Message of God.

When the earth is shaken with a mighty shaking,and the earth brings forth its burdens, and man says, “What ails it?” Upon that day it shall tell its tidings for that your Lord has inspired it. (al-Zilzal, 99.1-8),

It states explicitly that the earth moves and quakes at a command, on receiving inspiration. Sometimes it trembles.

If This happened in Singapore, almost half of the Singapore Island would be gone. Hence we are blessed

Then I started to sms everyone about their plan later to celebrate the coming year. Lincoln and David would not mind to go out and celebrate New Year. I dressed in pink giodarno long sleeve tee and pink cap and went out to meet David when i receive a message from Lincoln that he might not be going because his other half was very angry. I was not that surpised if he did not want to go out because I was already expected the outcome. He tresure his loved one than his friend. I was a bit disappointed but do I have to endure the anger at the hands of our friends and fellows.Doubtless, the feeling sometimes could be very distressing and also rip me apart so much so that I feel awfully weak. The more I think, the more I got depressed. It compel me to resort to despicable ways to heal our wounded ego; to react and inflict through sms. Since he prioritize his loved one who might noot even last longer than our friendship, I would re-consider to lend my shoulder to cry on or even help when he is in need of help from me because I was not that important in his life compared to that beau of his. Thank God, I did not do that. I promised to be a better person. I let it go and composed myself in such circumstances was equally imperative.I must a believer who would not let go of their relations with other humans. I was trying to improve my relation with someone who apparently did not return my sms but my friend

I met David by coincidence on the train at Lakeside. I told him that I could not get someone's reply when he asked me about him. He went to sms him and yes, he managed to get the reply from him in quite long time. However, only David and I went out to celebrate the coming New Year. We went to Cineleisure but the place was really super crowded plus it was drizzling.We decided to go to Latitude cafe but was closed early. Hence We went to TCC cafe beside Centerpoint. However we were told that we need to wait for the seat hence it would be wise to give them my contact number. After that, we went to foodcourt at Orchard Emerald to eat but I was not in the mood to eat but to wait for awhile for the call. we were bitchinga bout the ads on IS magazines regarding the male masseusses. It seemed that the ads about massage by Male therapists were covered on two apge and their advertisemenst were damn sleazy and cheesy. We just could help but amazed by the numbers of male masseuses in Singapore. Funny still, as young as 16 year old male. Fishy!

I received a call from TCC and that was quite fast. This handsome guy led us the way and recommended us the set meal cost about $28.80+++. After he left, we both were trying to calculate the single order and compared with the set meal. The set meal was cheap by one price of coffee. Anyway the soup and the desert contained alcohol. Hence, I passed them to David to indulge while I ahd my dory fillet with speacial oriental sauce. The waitresses were damn pretty and even the customers there were good looking people. We had fun inside the TCC . Been a long time, we had fun together. Anyway he ordered this lovely layered latte named raspberry latte which looked stunning but tasted like pink cough medicine and it was horrible. Imagine a coffee added with raspberry syrup = disaster. Anyway, I did got some attention from the people at TCC. Maybe, they thought we were some tourist and quite super cheerful. Then after that, we walked to Heeren since David did not like to go clubbing or pubbing because he felt tense whenever he went to club/pub. He just hated the crowd in small area. Then we walked towards Takashimaya S.C and the place was super crowded with people and bangladesh people. It was quite fun walking along the S.C. It was like snowing out of sudden because many people sprayed this snow flares( those bubbly foams being sprayed out of the can) in the air and at the people. I wanted to join fun hence I bought 5 can cost me $10. David and I shared and started spraying at those who attcked us or anyone especially kids. I did not get much attention here but David got so many people attracted to him and spray those snow flares directly on his ear/face and neck and also indirectly. He was so lucky. I just terrorised anyone anyhow. We was like been walking to and from from Cineleisure to Orchard MRT station and back. Apparently, we bought 6 can cost $10 and started spraying on New Year Countdown. It was very beautiful sight: It was like whole Orchard was snowing, thanks to the strong wind who blew the foams high and hard.

It was a good start for New Year, despite there were few who could not like the sabotage made by these bangladesh people. They did not mean any harm but to had fun actually. Some people just had foul attitude. It was cheap and interesting way to celebrate new year. We both just let our hair down and be childlike, just like 10 year olds kid enjoying every bit of excitement and fun that time. I felt young and energetic. The feeling was magical. Our clothes were dirtied with ribbon confettis and wet due to the condesnation of the foams.We went back by last train at 1am. We talked about the bangkok trip and I was so wanted to go there again. And again I managed to get last bus EW27 at Boon Lay interchange. I spent less tonight but the celebration was priceless.Too abd, I did not had digital camera to show the moments.

IPPT

Today I woke up late, around 11am. I surfed some online diaries, with the reason to pacify my raging heartbeat. I was so nervous because I would be going to take IPPT this afternoon. My body system was in total haywire. I felt nauseauted and panicked. Too much butterflies in my stomach. I really hated this kind of feeling. I would go and clear my bowel like five times to make sure I felt lighter and clearer.

I took mrt there at 4pm , and reached at Maju camp around 4.30pm. It was my virgin trip to Maju camp. I just followed this horizontallly and vertically challenged guy there. Unfortunately, I was the one who led the way, following my instinct. I went to change after taking a tag. Yes, I still felt nauseated and kang chiong. I kept drinking water and breathed slow. I did not wear singlet because I did not like to be show-off when i was not confident of passing my static station.

While waiting, I was approached by this guy, asking me about my level of confidence. he was married and had one son and was not even confident to clear his pull-up. His birthday was on 6th January. I guessed most of the people who took IPPT today are january kids. We were like we knew each other long. I was lucky to get someone to talk to to reduce the tension which was being built in my body system.Around me, few of them were in my age range, mostly I could guessed were fathers or quite older guys. Imagine I was going to reservist training with guys who had potbelly and or age tremendously. It could be very weird for me, I was still 18 years old ( literally). First static station is sit-up, I helped this fair guy first then when it is my turn, i only did 35times. My goal is just to get C in every station. I did not push myself hard to score better because I need a lot of energy for 2.4km run. The second station was standing broad jump. My first trial I got 215cm which was very disappointing and I did for second time and got 229 cm. My third and most fearful station is pull-up. I was surpised to get 7 pull-up even though I could do more. On my 7th pull, I looked behind to see the C score ( 7-8) board and I just dismounted, making the PTI amused and other people bewildered. lastly, it was shuttle run. It was just plain lucky that I score 9.7s for that station,

After finishing, that new friend decided not to take 2.4km since he failed his pull-up station and wished me luck. I bid him goodbye. I was super nervous to maximum level . The weather on the other hand can be disadvantagous or advantagous . It was raining , not heavily. Hence the ground could be slippery but then the weather is quite cool, hence very conducive.

In Maju camp, it need three round to complte 2.4km. It was not bad during first two round until the third round, I made two stop near training sheath. Yes, I was quite regretful for that stop.The people in front of me stopped, prompted me to stop too. Running through the slope, quite low for three time could be tiring. On the last downslope, I dashed like nobody business.I could feel my heart out of my body. Then we waited for the result to be tallied and got de-briefing by chief PTI regarding the RT. It sounded tough. Luckily my number tag is 49, therefore, faster to get the result.

I was quite disappointed with my result. I goot 12.20s for my 2.4km. It was neither here or there. Why? It is because at 12.00s, I got get silver but at <12.40s , I failed my IPPT. I should be blessed to get $100 incentive though. Disappointed again. I should not stop. Maybe I took IPPT again next week.Then I went to YCK to swim or rather to de-stress myself. It was quite cold. Then I had my dinner at KFC at Ang Mo Kio. Then I went back home.

TWO MORE DAYS TO NEW YEARS YET I kept watching Channel Newsasia for latest update on Asian Tsunamis . Very Disturbing for me.Let's pray together that Singapore would be same from any disaster. We never know the hidden message behind the occurence of Tsunami and maybe it was a warning sign from God to show His Mighty and how tiny we are to Him. Peace.

New Day wil come

The Death toll from Tsunami disaster reached 70, 000 and maybe up to 100, 000. My mum was already packed some old clothes and money for donation. Maybe It is my turn to do some tidy up in my wardrobe and pack some old clothes for Sri lankans. For monetary aid, I guessed I would not lavish much on my birthday celebration.

I crushed on my cat

Anyway, lameness aside. I went to Yio Chu Kang Stadium to do my 2.4km trial run. I managed to run non-stop with my mp3 player on. I encountered chest pain and difficulty in breathing. I just did slow walk for three rounds and enjoyed watching other joggers and the beautiful, cloudy sky.Then I went for a swim at YCK pool for awhile because the water was super cold. I shrinked like a prune.

Today I let the good opportunity of making good friends slip away again and leave me frustrated. I, just some others, do have interpersonal problem : Fear of appraoching poeple, making people thinking that I was aloof and proud. I was a little uncomfortable meeting new people. Yes, I was lonely but still I did not reach out. There were others who were lonely too but I didn't approach them. Or if I do reach out, why did I take out what Bach and Deutsch (1970) call "rejection insurance?" I sound desperate for new friends but who did not need friends, good ones especially.Sighs. i should understand that fear of rejection is normal hence I should indulge myself in self-doubts or self-criticism when being rejected. Enough said.

My calendar

See how much I changed ( Guess not ) for 2004. Ever-changing hairstyle with super infectious smile I had. I just loving it and proud of myself but more timeline for 2004 later. Enjoy in 2 days time. I was just worried about IPPT tommorow

My birthday plan

I always watched Debbie Travis facelift at 12pm everyday before I left home. It was about the certain of the house underwent make over to have a better look. I just loved the show. I stayed at home whole afternoon to wrap the late christmas gift, book my IPPT schedule, print the ideal timetable and read some bodybuilding magazine before going to Orchard to meet Lily. I was quite lazy to go out because the weather was cold and drizzling.

I took a bus to town which I was very regretful. The journey was long and slow because of the rain.I managed to meet Lily to pass the gift but I did not go to the gym because I was kinda of fatigue plus today was my last day. I was so going to miss my California gym . My mum did not want to give or lend me money for the membership. I hated this. I went back home taking a bus home and started thinking about my birthday celebration on 2nd january 2005. I might consider to celebrate twice: one one 1st January and one on 8th January when Bee Lan came back from Beijing.If I could get money tommorow , then I would celebrate twice or else just on 8th january. I was thinking of the theme: Black and Silver, Place:Gallery Hotel or the hotel beside Zouk.It would not as grand as I wanted it to be because Hung Yong would be around to celebrate together. I just could not wait to start to decorate my invitation cards.I told my mum that I want a digital camera for my birthday because my sister was going to have her back.My blog was so boring without camera.

FInal Trip to Cali

I woke up very early, always with headache accompanied me. I had my breakfast while watching stepford wives; Interesting movie. I cleared my cat's pee and then took bus 198 because the weather was quite and I thought of going for tan but then I missed the bus top because I over-dozed. Hence I stopped at Buona Vista and took bus 111. I had my lunch at YMCA McDonald before I went to Taka to buy over-due christmas gift for Lily. I bought myself Pink long-sleeved tee at Giordano. IT was only $11.20. But then no enough money to buy more tee but of different colours.

I walked towards California gym but I saw Peter at the counter , hence I just turned back and took bus 162 to Yio Chu Kang for a jog or maybe swim.Not only I realised I did not bring my towel, but the weather seemed to be super cloudy. Once I reached there, it started to pour heavily. Hence I took mrt to Somerset to go to Cali gym again. YEs, I was such a fickle-minded and one day it would ruin my near future. I reached there early around 5.30pm. I did some cardio before proceed to bodycombat. I was not feeling well actually. I felt quite weak and tired. I did some long pause in-between during bodycombat.

Karen: God. My hips are huge!
Gretchen: Oh please. I hate my calves.
Regina: At least you guys can where halters. I've got man shoulders.
Cady: [voiceover] I used to think there was just fat and skinny. But apparently there's lots of things that can be wrong on your body.
Gretchen: My hairline is so weird.
Regina: My pores are huge.
Karen: My nail beds suck.
[pause. All look at Cady]
Cady: I have really bad breath in the morning.
Karen: Ew!

Apparently, one never know how vain can men be in changing room. I went to pee inside cubicle because I was certain ( or just being paranoid)that there were perverts lurking around those small urinal area. I could not pee when there was just someone beside trying to peek over. Scary!Anyway. These men were not just satisfied with their chest, arms, abds, shoulder and back but no comments on their legs.When I looked at their body, they were just resembled those Greek Gods and heroes I read in Greek Mythology. I was so ashamed whenever I stood beside them. I knew I was very conscious about myself but then I said to myself that I too could get that kind of bod if I had really a determination to have one.Nothing is impossible.Yes.I would not bother about people around me but to focus on myself to improve better. I hoped these men should be satisfied with present outlook and started focusing on their tiny weeny legs.

I did not go to steam/sauna room because I was not feeling well .Hence I left early today and took mrt back. I had my dinner and checked some email.I called lincoln and chatted for a while and heard his story about him catching some guys who bashed some other kids up. He was lucky to do some criminal-chase. Now he was bored and asked me to go out for supper. Apparently, my sis and hubby were still not back yet. Hence, we postponed the supper thingy. Morever, I was not feeling well.

I was wondering what cause headaches every morning. I guessed it was time to clean my room.

Tsunami Asia

Today I had nothing much to do. I felt quite bored, seriously bored again. Morever, I had severe headache today. I was only able to wake up around 3 pm. I had two pills of tablet and went back to sleep. I woke up at 5pm when i received sms from Douglas. I went to visit his condo :Parc Vista. It was very beautiful condominium, quite spacious though. How I wished to stay in such condominium.

We went to Jurong Point to chill out at Coffee Bean cafe before I decided not to go gym since it was 7.30pm. It was kinda of late to travel to Orchard for gym. I went back home , eat my dinner and watched the news. A tradegy had occured in Asia:An earthquake, Tsunami measuring 8.9 on the richter scale hit the coast off northern sumatra, some 40 kilometers from the seabed, causing massive tidal waves to hit costal areas off the indian ocean. already as it is, places in india,penang, sri lanka & phuket, amongst others, have reported many deaths and countless people feared missing. to date, there have been 23,000 deaths reported, and the death toll is still expected to climb.It was the largest earthquake of century. It really reminded me of the show : Deep impact. However this is considered as mini compared to those at Deep Impact.

This incident only set me thinking about fragile and unpredictable life is. One could be relaxing on the beach one moment, and then be swept out to sea, never to return to shore again. And no one could stop such natural catastrophe. Is this a present from God on boxing day or a hidden message from God to inform that the world is not a heaven: I clear about the signs of the doomsday despite being not so religious but tonight, I said a silent prayer for those who perished in this disaster. may their souls rest in peace as well as having blessing for God for the safety of others and also those in Singapore.

I was blessed for not going to Phuket on christmas day which I had planned last minute for short getaway. Truly blessed.

Imagine what would have happened if singapore had been hit by the tidal waves? Especially those in the west coast where so many family and others went for picnic on weekened. This would certainly a wake up call for everyone in Singapore.However Sinagpore was situated strategically in Asia.Hence unlikely, we would face such natural disasters and we should be thankful.

Tragic. Just tragic before 2005.Let's pray for the best.Amen.

Merry Xmas

In the morning, I prepared to help my mum and family in the kitchen as we would be holding some thanksgiving feast dedicated to my sis post-wedding as well as my auntie birthday. It commenced in whole afternoon and dragged until at night. I could not even go to Cali gym to work out instead, I had so much food to eat : From satay to Chicken rice to deserts.
Something to learn and reflect during the feast when my uncle advised everyone that the world is just a temporary sanctuary hence always remember God and hold your faith, I felt so ashamed of myself for not being religious at this age and did not even contribut much to society,A week more to reflect what I ahd done for thie year.

LIncoln called me whether I was going to club.I was not sure yet because my sister and her hubby would be using the car to attend some wedding dinner. It might take time to reach here. Yes, they only reached at 1am and lincoln was on the midst of sleep. There was gone to my clubbing trip. What a boring christmas!

Merry Xmas

I went to take a bus to King Albert Park to have my lunch when Lincoln called me. He and Razi were supposed to watch Ocean 12 but did not manage to get the tickets because the queue was so crowded. Hence I went to meet them at Plaza Singapura and had lunch there together. I just had some Peach Ice-cream only because I was quite full actually. Then we walked to centrepoint to look for Harvey Norman because they wanted to buy digital camera for christmas gift. I was quite tempted to buy one casio x100 cost only $499 .It was super slim and small plus got 3X optical zoom.

Lincoln wanted to go harvey Norma because of the installment plan. However one need to have credit card to get the camera by installment or provide income statement to pay the camera by installment including 15% interest. I guessed he had to skip buying the camera then, Then we walked at Heeren. I managed to but two tanktop at RE- shop cost only $9.90 each. Good catch. Around 5pm, i went to gym while they went to walk around

Once, I reached there, there was no class being commenced at all. Hence I just went to do my cardio for a while before I went off for shower. I called lincoln to ask whereabout. They were at Borders hence I asked them what their plan even though I knew there would no celbration tonight with them. They were quite tired and I was quite tired too. After that, I just went back home and celebrate my day at home, It was the most boring festive celebration this year.

I smsed Edmund to greet him happy birthday and merry chrsitmas. I guessed he had much fun than me because it was double celebration for him.

raffles

The first time to go Central Business District aka CBD at raffles place during lunch hours from Kallang. It was very crowded and people were just donning executive wear, making me stand out among the crowd because I was wearing singlet I bought at Patpong ( Thailand ). I bought BK chicken sandwich and walked to teh Republic Plaza. I was stopped by the counter guy who asked me about my card. Oh-Oh. I realised that my card was not entitled to Raffles branch. My card plus my Identification card was put on hold while I was allowed to use the gym. Raffles Branch was a little quiet and less crowded but the class was quite few. Hence I would rather choose Orchard to Raffles

Regina: So you've actually never been to a real school before? Shut up! Shut up!
Cady: I didn't say anything.

After that, I went to steam room. the temparature in the steam room was liek super hot that it can really burn baby skin. The steam was put until maximum. There was two of us inside the steam room. It would be nice just to tolerate the hot steam but covering yourself with towel. This guy chatted with me, complaining how hot the steam here that it was nearly burnt anyone's skin. What's new? He asked whether the steam room was always like this in afternoon. I told him it was my first time coming to Raffles Gym as well as to steam room. He was quirked his eyes in disbelief and say Oh really!? Wow!?First Time!?. I just smiled and say give me a break with hoo haa hoo haa thingy. He left.I left the steam room shortly after him. My eyes were red.

I left the gym and took a bus to Orchard. I thought of going to Orchard Cali for second round but soemhow I was not feeling well. I guessed It must be a long stay at steam room. I felt quite heaty.I took bus 174 to go home. I went to take a nap on the bus until it was disturb by sms from Ridz,asking me where I was. Somehow, i felt quite hungry and asked him to wait for me in town while I alighted the bus at King Albert park and took bus 174 back to town. Luckily it was 15minutes journey. lincoln called , asking me where I was. I told him that I was at Orchard, meeting my ex-roomate , therefore I could not meet him for supper later. I told him to meet me tommorow then. I met up with Ridz at HMV and then walked together to Orchard Emerald to recommend this restaurant named Esteller77. But it was closed then. We walked to the Cinelesiure Food court to ahve my usual dosage of Kyros Kebab. It was closed then but proceeded to Esteller77 restaurant beside it. I was not even aware of it. I order fried prawns set meal and green tea cost me $7 while Ridz order mee soto ( i think ). It was quite delicious although the price was quite steep for just big three prawns.

I was having dinner with ridz when Alex came to sms me where I was. I was quite surpised suddenly I felt so wanted. It always occured when I was desperately need company, I could not find any but when i found accompany, everyone started looking for me. But of course, I should follow who come first, serve first application. Then we went back home by MRT. I was like yak and yak and yak and yak all the way during the journey.I guessed it made RIdz felt bored listening to me. It was really theraupatic for me though, We took bus 179 , I alighted after City Harvest Church and walked home. After I hit the sacks. I was jsut too tired.

Bad Day

YEs, Today I supposed to register my subject AGAIN and I was really pissed off when my ibook and laptop could not open the studentlink website and kept giving me errors. I had only 1/2 hours to go school to do the registration. I knew I could not make it. I check the schedule and there was another schedule for all MPE students at 1pm. I reached school library at 12.30pm and was crowded with MPE students. Today was MPE registration day. The library turned into stock market exchange area. People called up their friends to check out the schedule, hopefully they could get the same timeslot and people were discussing regarding the timetables. I almost could get the computer terminal to do the registration.

Guessed what, I was not allowed to register my subject at all. I had to do it during add/drop period starting at 3rd january 2005. I was so pissed off with my incompatibility of the ibook. Hence I chatted a while with Phoebe through MSN. I told her about me failing subjects and need to do another semester again. The conversation was quite harmless until she started to compare me with other angels: Hunky and Hottie. I was the laziest one compared to them. I was like what. I was really pissed off. I was laziest? Damn Damn Damn pissed off but then I realised that she did not know other well than me. Plus I was always the one who almost in contact with her. She contradicted herself saying that everyone is unique and special in own ways but yet I was being compared with. The most peeve was that I was being compared with other person. But then, I was trying to calm down and comfort myself because I was not lazy person. Being sweet is much better than being hunky or hot because being sweet is a personality whereas hunky or hot is just physical, everyone can become one . But being sweet person, it needs time and patience to have such noble trait.

later, Phoebe smsed me for apology for saying harsh words. I was not that petty at that times and Iw as surpised with the new changes in me, to be easily forgiving and forget about it. Maybe Life is was too short to hate other person and cause more misery in my life.

Third encounter

I went to Orchard @ Lucky Plaza to have my lunch before I walked to Cali Fitness Center to get my card replaced. I was told by Peter that Cali Fitness Center would be opened at Kuala Lumpur at KLCC. It was formerly sweatclub, yeah the mega-gym at KLCC petronas twin tower. I would be the one who anticipated the opening of CFC at Kuala Lumpur as well as a surpise visit to CFC at Patpong@Bangkok. After I got my card, I decided to look for the tanktop, cheap one at centrepoint. I ended up, eating Mee Goreng at former Cuppage Food court which was now called at foodfirst foodcourt ( I thought ). I walked back to Cali again. I was feeling bloated and the thought of doing yoga with full stomach can be very hellish. I decided not to exploit my body , therefor I went to crosstrainer to do some cardio for 15 minutes. This time was a slow one because I just had my meal.

Now I had another 15 minutes for the next class : Bodycombat. I realised that the Hatha yoga WAS a Yoga sun , and I was lucky not to attend that made-in-hell class. Or else, those food from my stomach would be ended up as vomitus. I walked around like some idiot. Yes, feeling a bit uncomfortable to bump into people who I would rather avoid hard. No matter what, the world ( Singapore ) was so small. Now, there were so many people queueing at the door. I also joined the queue.

Expected, there were crowds at 6.30pm ( peak hour ) to attend the bodycombat. While waiting, the ratio of man is to woman was 1: 5 . But then, the gym was not a definite place to fiund love despite ahving large number of women. There were so many types of women who made me tickled actually - their attires, their hair and -censored- body. I was not mean, but I felt like I was a member of wives' club. So many women in 30s to 40s around me but the younger ones prefer to stand in front of the instructor to give good impression. Oh, give me a break. As usual, I felt good after the 1hr of bodycombat, in spite I did some lag due to my lower stamina.

Once the class ended, the people just rushed in to get the place in the studio. I was so pissed off. What is so interesting about steps class? Lily waited for me at door and we walked up to the third floor to attend spinning class, my virgin class. There were people who was apparently tried hard to look at me if I was the person they knew. What else but I just looked down on the way to toilet and on the way to class. No time for PR session. The class was conducted by Elizabeth, who was pregnant at the moment. Women who were pregnant were exceptionally beautiful, I observed. Nothing much in the class except my butt was damn hurt because it was like 1hr of cycling. At least, no worse than those I had in Pulau Ubin. It was class to reflect what I did past few months or years and being focus . I was not that happy to do reflection while cycling hence, i just enjoy the fat-burning session.

After that, We rest a while and did some bitching session. I saw two dragon boaters from NTU, at least one of them I recognized. He was from CEE. While we was watching the steps dance, we were approached by fitness professional, lynn.

Kevin Gnapoor: [seeing the "Jingle Bell Rock" dancers] Damn!
Janis: What?
Kevin Gnapoor: I'd rather see you out there shakin that thang.

She asked me why I did not join the class. I was very slow and bad in co-ordination with my arms and leg. It was like people did 360 degrees turn while I did only 180 degrees turn, late by other 180 degrees turn. I thought Step class were for sissies. I was not that graceful enough to do those magnificient moulin-rouge styled chereography. Anyway, Lynn had very beautiful eyes, bound to say hi to her more when I met her in gym next time. Lily went back home while I did another 15 minutes cardio with cross-trainer. I skipped my abs exercise as i tried to avoid certain people AGAIN. Now, i started to think whether I should apply for membership.

I went to sauna and this time, the middle-aged man was not around. It meant that the sauna room was meant for me now. I could just do my hola hola in nude.* joking* Then people started to come in and getting crowded, there fore I went to the steam room for first time. Staying in the steam room was not that theraupatic at all. I was keeping sucking in my stomach, in fear my love handles were just spilled out and became the hideous sight for people. In front of me stood two guys with buff bod with no so good looking face. Oops. In himbotic world, It is ok to own good look but not so good bod, hence if one has no so good face, better get so damn good body. And if one did not posses both such bod and look, charm with own personality and had many good looking friends to comfort oneself. In man's world, who cares, just get a drinking buddy.

I left, feeling lighter. But got ehvaier when my sister bought me a Fong Seng Nasi Lemak. ARGH! Worse, it contained one chicken wing, 5 fish balls, otah otah, fish fillet and fried archovies. Big spread, right ! I went to sleep after popping three hydroxycut capsule and two chitosan pills.

SAD

Today, Ridz told me that today was the day to find out the result since his roommate from MPE had his result and did well.I felt a little bit worried because I was not that confident about my result because it took a miracle to pass modules which I only studied before the day of examination. Much anticpated by people who loved me dear and those who hated me so much till they just waited for an opportunity to bring me down.I went to to check my result........ before that

In afternoon, I supposed to go cali fitness center at raffles place but I could find my temp card. I was so pissed off because I wasted so much time travelling. I cooled myself by having my favourite Yong Tau Foo at Banquet foodcourt at China Square. I headed back home to pluck my courage to check my result.

EXPECTED, I did not do every well.I had to retain another semester and I surrender to the fate I was born loser compared to my sister. I failed three subjects but the only consolation was I got B for my final year project which I did not put any effort on it. I was quite disappointed actually. Now I was not sure what year 2005 would be held for me. I guessed, I could never be like Jimmy.I was so un-excited. Such failure always made fell, but I tried so hard to stand up again. I knew my mum was going to be disappointed despite not showing in front of me. I need to find job.

Why am I such a loser in everything?

Second day in himbo's world

I did not manage to wake early to attend the class. My body felt so tired.Anyway, I had Nasi Lemak and Mee Rebus as my brunch which my body suddenly just could not accept them. I felt like vomitting. Good sign, maybe. I upload some music into my MP3 player before I told bus 174 to Orchard from Boon Lay Interchange. The journey was quite fast until it reached Tanglin Road. The traffic was slow due to overwhelming human traffic and highest numbers of vehicles entering Orchard. I managed to reach there at 4pm when lily called to ask about my whereabout. I just waited for lily outside since she wanted to go Cold Storage to buy milk.Again. I really hated california gym,it uglified me again and again.Sorry, I was just mumbling to myself while waiting for lily. I loved myself, do not worry.

We walked through the heavy human traffic to go to centrepoint. Lily could not manage to get the sweetener but get her milk while I managed to buy HL milk and energy natural bar ( banana and wheatbran ) cost about $2.35. While shopping, I kept bumping into these two guys, which apparently I was trying to avoid crossing each other path. Lily noticed me actually. I was fine with brotherhood, sisterhood or lovers but two men showing affection in the public and then looked at me. It happened twice and I felt damn awkward. I did zipped my fly. I did not have any turtle sign pasted on my back or soever embarassing situation I encounter. It was just no so right.

Karen: You know who's looking fine tonight? Seth Mosakowski.
Gretchen: Okay, you did not just say that.
Karen: What? He's a good kisser.
Gretchen: He's your cousin.
Karen: Yeah, but he's my first cousin.
Karen: Right.
Karen: So, you have your cousins, and then you have your first cousins, and then you have your second cousins...
Gretchen: No, honey, uh-uh.
Karen: That's not right, is it?
Gretchen: That is so not right.

It's right ogling at other people but is SO not right to ogle at other people when you are with your beau.Anyway, We rushed back to california gym to attend the BodyCombat class again. I was so love with Bodycombat, a very machoic session to trash virtual idiot in the class. But this time, it was this young guy who did the session. It was fun actually because I roughly knew the sequences but not perfect yet. At least I was better than the guy beside who apparently did not know the step at ALL, even the instructor came to him and show him, yet he still could not master. SO retarded.But then we left early because lily wanted to attended Yoga by Mazie.

Yogasun , a new level of Yoga which made me curious whether it would be an easy feat for me. While waiting, I went up to go and pee but the place was damn crowded, hence I just might endure throughout the session. I hated wet underwears due to the vigourous perspiration and because of that, the sweat wet my frontal part of short as if I was peed inside my shorts and that was super embarrasing moment. Those Hunky Dories and High-class beauties might be laughing their heads off when they saw that. While waiting, I managed to acknowledged a lot of familiar people attend the gym but it was fake gesture though. I did not want to do anything related with them. In himbo's world, we had to stay plastic in sincere manners despite how terrible they were and then had a bitching session with our pals during coffee break. But in guy's world, we just act dumb and did my own things. Mazie did not recognized me already. Yogasun was the toughest session I had ever attended. With my inflexibility of joint and stiff mucles, I could not do most of the yoga poses. I just looked and admired at mazie's yoga poise. Very stunning and beautiful. At least they were people who could not do and some who tried hard to do the pose. ended up looking like defective dumpling or ketupat. I just stared at them with the most ridiculously astonishment more than wow expression. After yoga, lily went back early while I continue doing my cardio on crosstrainer machine for 15 minutes.

I bumped into Steed, a hairstylist who did the back pull-up. he was surpised to see me here.

Then After that, I went to sauna again for a while to do my normal routine. My skin was getting dull and grey. There was one young guy and other middle-aged man. OK, the gross part was this middle-aged man apparently had no shame of ...... wait proud of his body as he loosely tied his towel, exposing his balls. Gosh, no matter where I sat, I just could not escape my eyes from those ugly sight unless I kept facing to the wall, which occasionally did to spite him. But people who entered the room were more afraid of my weirdness than that ...... undescribeablly sight. I went to steam room but those steam irritae my eyes, hence I just went back and enjoy my sauna session and this time he was gone. Guessed it were the balls of fire by the heat inside.

I left but I was being appraoched by the nipple-pincher, Jerry. Luckily, I had sling bag to cover my chest but was not escaped from his perverted hand who touched my waist.

My conversation with him
Me: Hi.. how long you been here? 6?7?8?
Jerry: Na lah, only then about 8.
Me( looking at my handphone time show 8.10pm: Wah! Just only ah. Anyway your house so near ( wild guess )
Jerry nodded.
Jerry: How have you been? Been long time do not see you in the gym?
Jerry: And why you looked so nervous?
Me: This was my second time here and felt weird comiong here again. Therefore feel a litlle bit uptight. I was on trial now, so you might see me around. Been two years I ended my membership.
Jerry: Why come back?
Me: Just try out again and see how?
Jerry touched my waist forcefully despite trying to avoid his damn perverted hands and said : Yeah I think you need to join back
Me: Oh, thanks. see you.*Roll Eyes*

I went to the Cineleisure to buy two chicken Pao before taking bus 106 to clementi and took bus 99 back home. I felt tired but managed to catch Swan pageant. Time to plan my timetable tomorrow.

Re-Hi CFC

I met Lily outside Topshop at 3pm, apparently I was late again. We went there to give tyhe donation in form of food, usually dry to Boys Brigade booth. I should thank Lily for buying the stuff for me. Then we went to cold storage as lily wanted to buy some milk to regain energy. Then we walked to California Fitness Center. It was drizzling then. I was quite nervous and a little paranoid about becoming a member. My sentiment was true. When I entered, I was welcomed by somebody who hated my presence, worse he accompanied by my friends who did waved at me. But somehow I felt weird instantanouesly like it was an awkward hi and there was a strangerly acknowlegment.Maybe I thought too much but I could feel it. Why I always play a bad guy in everyone's life? I'm an angel, you know. Guessed they just did a courtesy to acknowledge me . I felt so 'extra' .

Peter told me to go ahead with training first, and see him later. I had a mixed feeling about the fitness center. I had never stooped my head up in gym. There were so many gorgeous people with beautiful bods around. but I did get my pie of attention , somehow. I was not boasting ( I got witnesses ). I met some people like Edwin ( who looked so bulky but had no time to catcch up with him since he was still training the client ) , Dennis ... who else..oh yeah..chris...

The conversation between us
Me: Hullo, how are you? Been a long time ,since I last met you
Chris ( smiled ): I'm good. How about you?
Me: Well, You may see me around here in few days later
Chris : Why ?
Me: I might be joining back to california gym. Now I was on trial for two week.
Chris: So you must miss all the attention on you, right? U just love the attention here, right?
Me: No lah. Anyway why are you perspiring? See me, you got sweat?
Chris: Yeah loh, Seeing you back here and you are damn hot
Me: Dun talk nonsense, you are hotter than me. Look at your arm...so toooooooooooone.
Me :Anyway I need to attend the class now, maybe we catch up again here? wait you always been to raffles
Chris: I do switch to Raffles and orchard. Depends on my work schedule.
Me: Oh. Then hope we bump again. Tata
Chris Tata

The most himbotic conversation at THE moment. Welcome back to himbotic world.More drama starring me in CAlifornia Fitness center. Anyway, I attended Bodycombat and saw jack there.

The conversation between us before bodycombat
Me: Hey hi. You look very big
Jack: I am fat.I know
Me: Oh ok. What class you attending?
Jack: Bodypump
Me: Oh ok but why you did go in , the class already continued.
Jack: I was going to attend two class in the row, ok.
Me: Ok [ DUH ]

Lily was sweet enough to attend 20 minutes of bodycombat with me. The one who commenced the class was Azrino. It usually crowded during Bodycombat. I felt so retarded during the class. My arms and legs coordination were totally off. i did made a lot of blunders. Gosh! I guessed people must be laughing at my retarding movement. I used to laugh at those nerd and idiots who always co-ordinate their arms and leg wrongly and yet still did not realised throughout the class. At least I made an effort to follow people in front of me to minimize embarrassment. Yes, in the end of class. I was totally bathed with perspiration. I guessed my Hydroxycut worked this time. I felt good actually. Then I met lily after class which she also neded her exotic class. I wished to stay longer but Lily needed to go back first as she needed to meet her mum at 7pm at Ang Mo Kio.

I went to crosstrainer to do cardio for at least 15 minutes. It was seriously serious and enduring workout. Then I was going to attend BodyBalance Class which was my virgin time to attend. I wondered what it was and It was by Collin, someone I was quite familiar with. While waiting,everyone was taking off the shoes. Die! I knew my sock smell could kill everyone literally. I quickly took off and hid behind the steps bench and cover my leg with my towel. Anyway, Body balance was a combo of Tai Ji, pilates and yoga. It was relaxing yet tense work out. I was very stiff and infelxible when I did the yoga segment. I guessed I managed to sweat off some calorie. I did some crunch before going back. I went to sauna for a while to make myself warmer and perspired more forcefully to get rid of cellulite and dirts.

I hated about the changing room was I was very conscious how I look. I was not that confident with my bod which went ballooning for past one year. And I wore cheap briefs. Do not get me wrong. When I was walking towards the showerroom, these men were just exhibiting themselves in the most fashionable and colourful briefs which any one would not help but noticing it. In Himbo's world, people are generally dressing up even in their inner wear like briefs. and In himbo's world. They are proud to show my bod to the damn world. In guy's world, we just wore briefs which came in three per box. I said to myself, be proud of yourself even you look like d ugliest man alive. If you thought you were good, you felt good. And I felt good after leaving the changing room. Plus I was a saint to return bunch of keys I found in my locker to the towel section.

I wnet to meet peter to get the temporary pass while I was trying to make enquiries again regarding the price. I was not sure to join the gym then especially when I saw some bad eggs which I really hated to bump into. It would be an awkward situation to be in sight in the gym.I went back home by bus , enjoying the music during the journey. In the end, It was like a reunion then.

Welcome, me

I SERIOUSLY had no discipline at all. I skipped the schedule this morning because I favored sleeping more than looking good. What am I doing? Or What Am I thinking? I need MOTIVATION.I cut my fringe in zig-zag manner since having a fringe made my hair flat.

I went to IKEA to buy some light bulb and spotlight.It was crowded there, but a trip to IKEA was always a fun excursion for me. The layout of the decor was very creative and somehow could be achieved at reasonable price. I could get what I wanted from there and always met familiar faces in every trip there. I bought the lightings with total cost of $20.40. I took bus 195 and took bus 111 to town. While waiting, I bought almond drink cost $2, which i thought was soya bean drink. Virgin tasting.Weird.

i went to Lucky Plaza for Dunch but It was super-crowded, hence i walked to Cineleisure to have kebab meal cost at $4.50 at KYROS KEBAB. Well, it was healthy meal. I bumped into Adrian Tan there. I went to HMV to check out the CDs and still bumped into him again. *roll eyes* Nothing much to listen hence I decided to go to Library to borrow some books before meeting lily at 7pm. I managed to get 4 cookbooks.I walked back to somerset to meet Lily but iw as early. But when I was about to cross the road to go to centerpoint, Lily smsed me that she was early. And I was early too.

We met up and went to the California Gym. We met the sale consultant, Peter , Lily's friend to answer my enquiries. The offer that I can only usethe gym at peak hour although I only pay $68 per month.He recommended me the offer that I paid $1250++ for a year and got 6 month free. I would consider first because I really not sure what the future store for me. I was more than happy to use two week pass for the gym, there fore I would not be going to school gym to train liao. I was so happy. Now, I could go town everyday early morning to attend those cardio class. YES, Motivation. The only minus point was to meet those hunky dories again. Trust me, they were not my source of motivation, rather an ugly sight of males in tights and super mini sized tanktop. Hullo, california Gym. I am back.

We went to cineleisure for a dinner. I bumped into the Hall 14 ex-cheerleaders, sarita, yvonne, eileen and ming ming ( always gorgoues ) at KFC Rst. I love the foodcourt at cineleisure - the atmosphere, the people and the TV screen.I managed tow atch Happy Fish while Lily wnet to buy her dinner. She even bought me a Christmas gift which I found it too tabooish to accept gift earlier. Anyway, how sweet to give the gift to me .After that, we went to HMV as she wanted to check out Linday lohan and U2. Now, nothing for me to listen except jazz.

Then we walked to Takashimaya S.C . I bought my favourite brownies ( cost $2.80 ) at Brownie factory at Basement level. then we went to Watson's to buy toothbrush. After that, we did some window-shopping at Giodarno, U2, topman before we wnet back home. I took bus to go back. I was so excited to amke a comeback to california. I must buy some new clothes and gym attire for this saturday visit.

Waste of time

I kept sleeping and sleeping. MAybe my body need to recuperate the still mucle sore on my arms. I felt so RETARDED when I motor movement was minimized. I went to YCK for weight-training - running - swimming session but was halted by heavy rain. Gosh! Why it must be raining in evening. It made me feel like hedgehog - dry, lazy and fat.

I went to King Albert APrk McDonald to have my dinner. I tried the new meal - the new grilled chicken foldover meal that cost me about $7.55 .Yes, one of the most expensive meal I had in McDonalds.Well, It worth the money and I'm loving it. it was healthy and appertizing.Hence, move over KFC and Taco Bell, GCF is here.

I had two more weeks left to New Year 2005 and also my anniversary of my blog. I felt worried and just could not help thinking about the future which I thought would make me more depressed how sad my life was. I browsed through the Kuala Lumpur and Bangkok brochures . Should I be celebrating my new year overseas since Bee lan and Hung Yong were not in town to celebrate with me. Anyway, I was not even celebrate my new year with them last year. Hummph! news about terrorist attack by Pattani Organization on Bangkok after New year made me think twice to visit there plus I did not have any company to go with.DOES anyone interested to go New eyar holiday with me? I hated to celebrate new year at Singapore - too expensive and crowded. It would be nice to celebrate my birthday overseas, right? Let me work out my budget. Hopefully, I managed to graduate so I could ask for monetary reward from my parents.

I went back home on friday. I had no life at all on Friday. I managed to watch Variety show on TCS 8 which poke fun of the star awards recently, which ticked me non-stop especially the segments about Fann and Christopher. They were damn good. I felt so tired, yes tired again. Therefore, I went to sleep. Life for me is about sleepinga nd I wasted my time sleeping. What's wrong with me? Could someone slap me hard?

Back to Basic

Happy Birthday, Halizah. May your dreams, love, ambition and soever come true. Yes, she was my ex-classmate in JJC. She and other girls had been very close friends of mine since then. Anyway, she did not wish to have any celebration today because she did not want to disturb anyone who was working today. I just say OK.

Again, my body woke up at 6am but this time, i went back to sleep again. I woke up at 11am and my whole body ache like hell, especially my triceps. I really ahted it when I got this sore mucle thingy after a long vacation to the gym.I could hardly comb my hair. I felt so terrible and sore to lift my arm up.I was kind of regret for not doing any stretching after the work out session. I must have work out damn hard. Yes, I ate Mee Siam as a brunch and Rice with something hot as my lunch. Then I went to take bus 174 to go gym but I forget to bring my singlet. Hence, I wnet to town to look for cheap singlet.

I stopped at Isetan to go to briefs department to look for BODS singlet but could not find any, except the green RENOMA briefs which I had been looking for: Nice cutting and colour.Anyway, I went to Wisma and still could find any. I went to Lucky Plaza to have Chicken Rice for my Dunch before I walked back to Orchard MRT. I bumped into Eugene, ever good-looking guy. Then, I was constantly stopped by so many missionaries or volunteers asking for donation. I was like, rolls eyes. Gosh! I glad that there are people who volunteer their time and effort to help those in need but too much volunteers in too many organization ( all around Orchard ) pestered my peaceful moment pissed me off at times. Seriously, donating 10c did not make me feel any better.

I went for a swim at YCK pool, skipped my jogging and gymming because I needed to fully-stretch my arm so that i would not feel sore after proper stretching. Hence, swimming with breast- stroke could be a good option. Then , the weather was not that good, therefore I went back home. I skipped my cardio session later since the ground was very slippery.Lame!

Start Training

I woke up at 6 am automatically. I freshened up and told my mum that I was going for run when she was surpised and questioned about my sudden early wake-up call. I told her that I was fat and I need to do something about it. My mum rolled eyes. I rolled eyes too. I took three capsules of Hydroxycut and started to follow the schedule. It was really tough to sprint and jog simultanously. I did not even had any stopwatch. I felt sharp pain on my chest, hence I just stopped the sprinting phase and just jogged around till I did four more sprint and went back home. I felt fulfilled despite gasping for breath.

I went to Gek Poh to get myself a reward: $1.20 packet of Nasi lemak. I shopped for can of Tuna (
Ayam Brand ), wholemeal bread, yakult and Yogurt plus a Straitstime paper. I did some extreme facial wash before I enjoyed my breakfast.

I went back to school after a long decision for weight-training. The weather was nice and that tempted me to go for a tan but I had the image of UTT: Being fair and lean look in my mind for this dec. I just had to endure being look like steamed chicken instead of roasted chicken. The gym was crowded as usual with hunks from dragonboat teams. Bleah! Gosh I looked like some white pao. Die! Die! I did chest and tricep weight-training before i went back home. I did some cardio for 15 minutes. On the way home, I bought a two pieces of chicken from KFC to get some protein in cheap way. Eventually I had dinner while watching Happy Fish. I felt so fulfilled today. I did not eat anything except yogurt after 9pm.

Anyway, My uncle came to my house because my mum wanted to use his van to return a big pot at Toh Guan Road. I was not in the mood to strike any conversation with him and I felt a little bit bad for staying silent. Anyway I felt good when I looked myself in the lift's window. So vain!

Tonight, my sis and her hubby plus my auntie and her hubby would be going for second honeymoon at Kuala Lumpur together, by her car. So lucky for them as four of them had driving license so they could take turns to drive to KL.Best things that they were going to stay at 5 star hotel at RM180++ . So good! and bad for me because I did not have any mode of transport at all.

chase the dream

I read the article : Lose Fat Fast from Physical Magazine. I knew that I was OFFICIALLY fat after several comments made by my friends who had not meet me for a long time. Hence , I went to buy Hydroxycut at Takashimaya S.C and managed to get free Chitosan tablets cost about $55 and one Physical magazine. Yes, I also got a green mug and Myoplex protein bar. Seriously, going to Orchard at night was really a bad decision , especially one was alone. Everywhere, so many human traffic. It made me sick and irritated. I went to Tangs CK which was already renovated. But shopping alone was not that fine at all on festive season. But it is ok to shop on normal period.

HENCE, I need to shed those ugly pounds fast with 21day,fat burning program.

The THREE WEEK FAT-LOSS PROGRAM

First of all, always begin work out with warm-uo, conssting of light jogging or walking, followed by stretching of muscles to be used during exercise. Also, perform the a.m workout fist thing in the morning on an empty stomach, as this sets the fat-burning stimulus even higher.

THE AM WORKOUT

MON 10 second of sprinting, 2 minutes of walking/jogging, Repeat for a total of 10 cycles.
TUES 10 second of sprinting, 2 minutes of walking/jogging, Repeat for a total of 10 cycles.
WED OFF
THURS 10 second of sprinting, 2 minutes of walking/jogging, Repeat for a total of 10 cycles.
FRI 10 second of sprinting, 2 minutes of walking/jogging, Repeat for a total of 10 cycles.
SAT 10 second of sprinting, 2 minutes of walking/jogging, Repeat for a total of 10 cycles.
SUN OFF

THE PM WORKOUT

MON Weight training followed by cardio (running,biking, ellitical trainer,etc) for 15 minues at 85% of max heart [MHR]
TUES Cardio for 25 minutes at 85% of MHR
WED Weight training followed by cardio (running,biking, ellitical trainer,etc) for 15 minues at 85% of max heart [MHR]
THURS Cardio for 25 minutes at 85% of MHR
FRI Weight training followed by cardio (running,biking, ellitical trainer,etc) for 15 minues at 85% of max heart [MHR]
SAT Cardio for 25 minutes at 85% of MHR
SUN Off

For week two, simple repeat the am workout but add 5 second to each sprint interval and reduce the walk/jof interval by 10 seconds. Perform the PM weight training workout as listed but added 5 minutes to each cardio workout

For week three, simple repeat the am workout but add 5 second to each sprint interval and reduce the walk/jof interval by 15 seconds. Added 5 minutes to each cardio workout

The sample weight-training workout
CHEST / Bench Presses / 10 to 15 reps
BACK / bent-over rows / 10 to 15 reps
DELT / Side laterals Dumbell presses / 12 to 15 reps to failure
TRICEPS / Lying trieps extensions / 10 to 15 reps
BICEP / Dumbells Curls / 10 to 15 reps
QUADS / Squats / 12 to 15 reps
HAMSTRINGS / Lying Leg Curls / 10 to 15 reps
CALVES / Standing calf raises / 15 to 20 reps
ABS / Crunches / 25 reps

THE DIET

To truly get shredded, you first need to determine exactly how many calories you'll need a day.I hate to calculate calories

50 tips to enjoy life

50 tips on how to enjoy life

1.say something positive as early as possible
2.believe in miracles but don't depend on them
3.never allow anyone to intimidate
4.dont work for recognition but do work worthy of recognition
5.remember the credo of walt disney:think.believe.dream.dare
6.never comment on someone's weight unless you knowits what they want to hear
7.seek respect rather popularity
8.seek quality rather than luxury
9.start a "read again" file for articles you might want to enjoy a second time
10.look for opportunity that's hidden in every adversity
11.remember that when your mom says "you'll regret it" you probably will
12.on your birthday send your mom a thank you card
13.never let the odds stop you from pursuing what you know in your heart you were meant to do
14.be happy with what you have while working on what you want
15.celebrate even small victories
16.dont forget that a couple of words of praise or encouragement can make someone's day
17.whenever you hear an ambulance siren say a prayer for the person inside
18.when in doubt smile
19.if its not a beautiful morning let your cheerfulness make it beautiful
20.marry someone your equal or a little bit better
21.remember that a minute of anger denies you 60 seconds of happiness
22.never give up on a dream just because of the length of time it will take to accomplish it
23.dont write something you dont want others to read
24.when taking a true-false test, remember that any statement that includes the word any,all,always,never or ever is usually
false
25.never tell anybody they can't sing
26.become the world's most thoughtful friend
27.remember that anything worth doing is going to take longer than you think
28.remember that bad luck as well as good luck seldom lasts long
29.root for your team to win not for the other team to lose
30.accept triumph and defeat with equal grace
31.learn your great-grandparent's name and what they did
32.savor everyday
33.share the remote control
34.remember it's not your job to get people to like you,its your job to like people
35.never miss a chance to shake hands with Santa
36.remember that the only dumb question is the one you wanted to ask but did not
37.spend time with lucky people
38.stand up for your right principles even if you have to stand alone
39.remember that everyone has bad days
40.marry someone who loves music
41.if you know you are going to lose do it with style
42.remember that not all right are popular and not all popular are right
43.work diligently
44.live simply
45.think quickly
46.fight fairly
47.give generously
48.laugh loudly
49.pray faithfully
50.love deeply

I watched Star Award today just to catch up with Fashion masquerade by female artists.So happy that Chen Li Ping managed to get the Top 10 popular actress award.Yes, She went to disturb Fann Wong and Christopher Lee.I guessed Fann Wong must be pissed off by Li Ping. At last, Li ping got her revenge on fann wong.

Anyway, Bee Lan must be at airport to embark her journey at Beijing later at 11.30pm. Just smsed her to have a safe journey and bon voyage. If opportunity strikes,take it.Since we are still young and not have any responsibility yet.

Alternative

Today, I slept whole day until my mum woke me up to get prepared to attend my cousin's second wedding ( this time with widow) I did not feel like elaborate the cousin's crazy choice and his decision to leave the first wife but just to give a blessing that the marriage would last. I hated to drive to Hougang because I kept losing my way. My father suggested to use PIE then CTE but I prefer my way to go BKE then SLE. I ended up miss SLE and had to go my father was. I almost made a lot of blunder on the road which might cause hit accident. I just hated it when my parents especially my mum were the passengers. It was like the mistakes were bad and they were rushing me to reach destination. I just hated nagging in the car.

Everyone was asking about the newly-wed couple, which of course they were honeymoon. I kept stealing glance at my cousin's new wife. *smile*. I was just curious why my cousin was so infatuated with her. Luckily I had my other cousins to entertain with. They kept teasing me with my inability to speak properly and shyness.One of them asked me to join the Singapore Idol because I have looks. I was like, huuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhh. I could not act, could not dance, could not sing, could not speak properly and my look was like so average. I was just talentless and they expect me to join the Singapore idol. i would be ended up in the first two episode where all the idiots performs for the Singapore 's laugh.

I sent them back home before I drove to Choa Chu Kang. I went up to Lincoln' private apartment. I was bewildered at his collection of hamster and of course showing his bitch, princess. It was quite a cute small dog, same size as my cat. I loved his apartment and the view outside was beautiful.How I wished to stay in my own apartment.

Anyway, I was not in the mood to go Chang Village to have supper there. My eyes were giving me trouble.So I recommeded Lincoln and Razi to Boon Lay market Nasi Lemak. The queue was like endless when we reached there. Luckily, Lincoln treated me the meal. He said that Nasi Lemak at Adam Road was still the best, which i beg to differ.After that, we go clubbing at alternative club. I was not that eager to go there. I met so many familiar face which I did not wish to meet. I alway felt ugly whenever I went there. I met few friends who apparently did not recongized me at all. I was wearing a trucker cap because I had bad hairday. and regarding having a good-looking friends is always at disadvantage. They were hungry for glamour, attention and good-looking crowd. Hence they would filter off some who they thought might not at use, literally. Life!

Threesome

Today, I woke up slightly to cook a meal for my parents : Java Curry Chicken and spicy chilli tempeh. I like cooking because I always learnt new things from the mistake I made during the process. For example, always do the gravy before you put the main ingredient like chicken. It was my first time to pound the spice using mortar and pestle. I did a good job actually despite several major hiccup. Luckily, my mum said it was a good effort and tasted good. Yes, I succeeded.

My mum and I went to Bugis to return the rented wedding stuff. However,wehn we reached there, the shop was closed. My mum was so pissed off as she already had appointment with her friend at 4pm ( now the watch showed 3.40pm ). I called my auntie to hurry back to the shop.

I drove to Parkway Parade to meet Bee Lan and Hui Hui.The signage for carpark was terrible. I always made a wrong entry to public carpark. I even had to make 3 pointer which I really afraid of. Worse, finding the empty lot at the multi-storey carpark at Parkway Parade was ot going to make my day. I met them at Watson's until Bee Lan told us that she was very hungry and suggested to have dinner at Sakae Sushi. The good thing, it was her treat. Actually, this meet -up would be the last meeting as she was going overseas ( Beijing ) to work for three. it meant that she would not attend Hui Hui's and my birthday. Why everyone kept going overseas. The place was not that great compared to the one at Heeren. It was more family-oriented.

Then I drove to the west to look for this place named Wine Company at Holland Road , uinder recommendation of Bee Lan. According to her, the place was very inaccesible hence It would be better to have vehicle to go there. With Hui Hui's expertise in reading street directory map, we managed to enter the small lane ( Dempsey Road ). It was dark and deserted place until we came across the place which look like a Tanglin Army Camp. I thought we could not entered the place since there was a No Entry sign but Bee Lan gestured me to just enter. Once I entered tha place, it transformed into a very happening place. It was quite dim, rustic , kampung-felt environment. It was like Pulau Ubin at Night. I parked the car someweher since there WERE so many cars around. We stopped at Wine Company and we could not even get a place to chill out because It was so crowded with executives, expatriates and those who appreciate wine.Morever, it was going to pour soon.We decided to go to Riverside@ Clarke Quay to chill out.

I parked at Riverside Point Carpark, took a lift and went to Brewerkz. Another nice place to enjoy one another's company. the girls ordered 7 samplers and I ordered Cinderella Mocktails. I could not drink wine or beer or any forms of alcohol . I am a driver. I remembered Gad cheated me into drinking milo containing some vodka. I turned damn high and felt nausea although it contained little alcohol and I felt quite relax. They got high a little. Hui Hui was not into beer actually but more into wine , like red wine. Gosh, they had such classy taste now. We talked about finding love and ideal partner.

I learnt that, when one was young and full of objective, one tends to be choosy his/her partner physical appearance, more than the character . this may even lead to showing off the partner to the world, which described them as trophy boyfriend/girlfriend. But when one grows mature and wiser, to stay together and ever, one choose character over looks and someone who accept other as what she/he is. Looks did not last but love.

Too bad , I did not have digital camera with me because my sis brought it for honeymoon. I felt like I was in the some teenage drama or Friends Episode. It was just great. The crowds were good too. Then, I sent them off because they felt tired after drinking beer plus, they always kept like pissing every minute. Why not, they kept drinking plain water to counter the alcohol content so that they would not get super-high.

A good start of enjoyable weekend

Serious Update

I knew. I knew. I needed a serious update for my blog. It had been a week I lost touch with blogging due to busy schedule last week. I would try to update once I had time. Which I was trying to look for.

Freedom

I woke up early because I needed to send my sister and her hubby off to airport. They were going to Mauritius, not Maldives for their honeymoon.I ate Mee Goreng as breakfast before setting off. Luckily, my sis's hubby drove to Changi Airport so I had a good time enjoying the scenery on the way there.Lame excuse, rather but because I hated morning traffic.

We reached airport at 10.30am when we heard the announcement that their flight are alreadly opened for boarding. Yet, she still ahd not changed her currency. Despite, my mum and I bid a good bye and greet safe journey for newly-wed

Mauritius

I drove back using AYE which of course took a longer time to reach home.We went back home for awhile before we set off to Choa Chu Kang. Before that, we went to Jurong point to deposit money, a lot of money. Once we reached there, I managed to get one empty parking lot just in front of the entrance or else I would be driving around to look for it. After deposit, we went to the Pet's Shop to buy cat food. My mum was surpised to see the dogs, cats and hamster were on sale there.

I droved to Choa Chu kang to visit my grandauntie( my favourite auntie and my mum's best friend during younger days) who lived near Limbang plaza. We had mee soto which I had a second helping because it was damn delicious. She owned several stalls selling food.I just there as a chaffeur and a listening ear ( or rather being busybody )for their conversation, especially my sister's wedding.

The few topics which i found interesting :
1) My sister's wedding was still a talk of the town due to the grandness : Total Price was cleverly kept a secret by my sister even my parents and I did not know even till now.
2) Comparison of my mum's friend (whose daughter who is the actress ) in terms of decor and claimed the spending was much higher in spite the decor was much simpler than my sister's
3) My grandpa's confession about the basketball court was very dirty and he could sense the strong aura when he did the cleansing of area.
4) Relatives dispute
5) My marriage future and appropriate age to start family.

I was not stressed regarding whether I would not get hitched.Ever since after my sister's wedding, I received more than 5 matchmade proposal from my mum's friends and auntie who claimed they are few of the best in terms of family background, behaviour, ethic and culture. I just smiled all the way. They thought I was rich, well-mannered and a teacher just like my sister, do not talk about me being good looking among the others. Gosh! They should wake up their ideas.Career is my focus not love. I did not mind getting married late. They die die wanted me to get married at 30. I was like ....bleah!

We went back home after that. I was bored to death at home even though I had car for a spin. I just stay at home and clean my room.

Re- Lax

I woke up later but could not wait to go out and enjoyed my life. At Boon Lay MRT station, I bumped into my best friend, Aziz who did some shopping for his son - baby wipers. We chatted as per normal like we did in JC. I told him that he could be himself whenever with me around because I knew he had to converse with other in more mature and serious tone. Yes, He asked me the magic three questions which I was really too tired to answer them despite being being questioned on different day. He commented my dressing who look like some bangladesh worker and what's up with pink trucker cap. Had he lose his fashion sense. I told him that my top was from Zara and cost $99.00 and Pink is in-thing.

I reached Orchard and walked up to Kinokuniya Bookstrore to browse th magazine before I start to make a selection and bought the item. It was my first time to buy Men's Health:Singapore Edition.I broke my vow not to buy anything local ( magazine I meant). Anyway, it was cheap and saw a few familiar faces inside. What a damn fucking small world!

I went to the library but was not in the mood to borrow books, hence I walked to the Heeren for window shopping and perhaps got my luck to purchase that necklace.Nothing much interested me when I did not have much cash , Hence I went to HMV to do some research on music but ended up buying Thai movie entitled My Girl. I did not why I was so into Thai language and culture. They were so amazing. Then I took a bus to YMCA McDonald to do some reading and planning before I started to go home around 7pm.

My sister and hubby had not finished their photoshoot yet. I just went back and slept.

post-Wedding

Still, I slept at the hall while my grandparents slept in my room. I was still sleeping till 12am while they ( my grandparents, my parents and sis and her hubby ) were counting the money.Nothing much I did today but to catch up with sleep which I missed last three days

Shutter

I went back to school to do the submission online through iGems. Luckily ,there was no error when I did the submission. I went to canteen B to have lunch before I went to Jurong point to check out the movie screening – Shutter. Lincoln was only free around evening as he needed to go the animal farm to settle the hamster thingy.

i went back home to sleep because my contact lenses were giving trouble again so I needed to sleep. I woke up at 7pm and watched the Happy Fish show - Jiaxi and Dodo got their dessert pie.It was very heartbreaking episode.I quickly went to Jurong Point to book the tickets. I was being halted for long while waiting for this autie showing the some kind of documents to get the tickets free.My God, It was only $6.50 and that autie with her hubby of same kiasu character was showing the documents to get free show. I walked around the Jurong Point to but the box for the gift, Then I walked around the pasar malam nearby.So many tee I wished to buy but afraid I did not have any size for me.

Lincoln called too meet him now at Coffee Bean. He always shocked me with his weird dressing sense. Now he sported this old-fashioned thick and black-rimmed spectacles. He wanted to go to Pets Shop to buy leash for his bitch.Not available hence we hurried up to the level four to watch Shutter. Apparently, the ghost had somehow had uncanny resemblance to those in japanese horror flick except the nice cinematography and good story plot. I told lincoln to watch the show instead of covering his eyes and his ears occasionally. He told me that there were scenes that needed to be filtered off by fingers. It was not that 100% scary though except one scence when the couple was travelling to the nadre 's town at night and the ghost just suddenly popped in front of the car. The girl beside also did filtering but complete one. She apparently closed her eyes when those scary scene started to appear.

1) I thought twice to drive during night with someone who might have dark secret.
2) To take polaroid photo at night

Then lincoln and I went to my block to get my car, fetched Alex at Bukit Timah Road. Seriuosly, i hated waiting for him because it took about more than 15 minutes to come down from his condomonium , as if he stay at 44th level storey.I called him , and what pissed me off was he did not what to wear for supper. Bleah! We had supper at Clementi Road. Lincoln said that Nasi lemak was very expensive and was not nice , unlike those at Adam Road. We had fun, bitching each other while cutting through the King Edwards Hall. Then I droved them to the halls that look like condominum. Then we drove up to Kent Ridge hill Park.

How we measure love ?

The question was being posed by someone ( Alex) who did not believe in love and a true betrayer of love. I told him that we measure love by time. He told me that it was wrong and I was not wrong ironically as almost everyone always measure love by quantity. However Love should be measured by QUALITY. For example, spending time together for three but there was no romance, loving moments and forever arguments support the argument that love should be measured by quality. I was dumb-founded when this himbotic friend of mine explained the rational but logical explanation. HE asked us again what was the most romantic setting we made for our partner. We both thought for so long about what kind of romance we had done for our partner. I was so blank and search for the answer and realised I did not have any.So did lincoln, No wonder , Singaporean guy were generally un-romantic. Well, romance meant money-wasting. Please do not bash me.

Guess what answer did Alex give for romantic setting: To be inside the secret Garden. I was like YAWNS and DUH! at him.
I sent them back home since bothe of them needed to work later. At least I knew where lincoln's apartment was.