I went for a jog at 7am, staying motivated and focussed on the achieving of success after setting my goals yesterday.It was full of people, doing all sorts of activities.

That's it. Nothing. Lazing around in my own sanctuary again, thinking about nothing in particular. Listening to Anita Baker 's songlists over and over, and not bothering about time keep ticking away.It's not easy to do nothing when my mind is occupied with something.It was begining of my recess.I ought to do something fruitful than wasting time , enjoying life.I might regret later.Eventually I went back to sleep.

I called Terence to ask him fo study session, perhaps at McDonald at Katong since I was driving.I was quite handicapped without having a laptop by myside.I just did some readng up.I met up with Joe, Alex, Keith as well as Kelvin later.I rebuilt the friendship on a pile of desperation and outright despair This isn't about rekindling freindship, it's about resolving friendship. Yes, I was taking the chance of getting back friendship by opening myself to them again. But I was certain to miss out on the kind of friendship I deserve after a long ego trip and somehow it's clearly bothering me when We did some catching up.I was happy though when they welcomed sincerely.At least I give friendship a chance. And that's a beautiful thing.

I am made

I watched the show called Made on MTV channel HBO.On every new episode of MADE one willing candidate desperately wants to transform his or her life, and is willing to do just about anything to achieve that transformation. Our subjects may not always make their goals, but they just might realize they had what they wanted all along.They'll never know...unless they get MADE.It totally inspired me.Hope, dream, success.

My list of transformations for March

1. Have a summer body
2. Be like Jonathan Pang
3. Have a good presentation skill
4. Be a hairstylist/barber
5. Saving money
6. To speak multi-language
7. Be a personal trainer
8. To do well in my exam
9. Finish my projects.

I went to Funan to meet up with Terence to buy Laptop.Yeah! I got myself ibook 12inch plus wireless card and camera at total price of $2387.At last I managed to get HP digicam at $ 99.They came in bundle.Be prepared to see more pictures in my blog.But the ibokk would only came next week.Out-of-stock!DAmn!We had brunch at KFC restn nearby before I decided to go home.

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
Would you sing to me over and over again

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours I pray
To be only yours I know now
Your my only hope

I met up with Hung Yong to discuss the M438 CA project but eventually he just introduced me to other project mates. When I received a sms from him, asking to join him for CA.I was more than happy to accept it.It is our first, maybe last time to do project together.

A devoted student and friend. A guy who opened his heart and door to hundreds -- even strangers -- at any hour of need. A community angel, I must say.Hung yong is the kindest, most helpful, selfless person.He was the one person there who were a real friend to us and me and helped us and me through a hard time even tho you were also having a hard time.I am blessed.

Although I often have petty fights and quarrels with my close friends I would start any lame excuse for myself and my behaviour for my own good cause but that is deemed non-trivial and selfish by many that can provoke me further.Hence,friendships often break up due to childish behavior and then people get angry. Under the anger was hurt and sadness.Everyone is in touch with own emotions. Maybe it is time for me to look at my childishness so that you can learn from this and grow some.

Some relationships do not last forever. Best friends do change.People are changing and growing at different rates. Different interests and values pull you apart and anger is the emotion that people use to move apart.A friend of mine had shown a petty behaviour and made a revengeful score with today.I learnt from that friendship and what did not work, he come out ahead however, painful the loss of me.

He probably can’t get past his hurt and can’t hear my apology. I might try one more time saying I was a bit apologetic for the exact thing he objected to.Since he doesn’t respond the way I want, I just have to let it go. Look around for new friends.I lost or gained nothing at all.

Worse,wanting to hurt someone when you are angry is revenge hurting others, as you have been hurt.By creating negative comments under anonymous name on my blog ( I can just deleted and ban the person).Anyway this might be a defense mechanism the mind goes into to try to avoid the pain.

Of course,those minor rows are worth patching up as soon as possible, especially if the conflict is making both of us uncomfortable.But I may think twice about making the effort if a friend who has really crossed the line, perhaps by spreading malicious gossip, telling lies,being a fake.

This kind of behaviour could ruin the original friendship completely, but I may want to partially make things up or give them an another chance.I am not a pushover who will let them get away with the same thing again and again

Angry flower

I am going to make sweet and sour chicken and chilli fried vegetables.After my tutorials, I headed to Prime Supermarket to buy necessary grocery.Browsing through a supermarket can help me discover the wonderful variety of vegetable that were grouped and stacked up in beautiful , systematic way.

I love to cook. Part of the pleasure of cooking is a final products themselves.No salt, No sugar, Canola oil, Vegetables, more vegetables .... healthy delicacies.While I was having lunch, my mum struck the conversation regarding finding life partner.My distant uncle is getting engaged, my childhood playmate ( whoever?) got engaged recently.Bleah!Worse still, My auntie insultied him saying how could there possible girl who wanted him with that kind of appearance.He is skinny, not good looking, kinda of weird package but what the hell, he earns about $4K every month.I was told that they liked with each other instatanouesly during first meeting session.I was amused.

Or Just as love is a many-splendoured thing, it changes its meaning, mere lofty emotions, but how practical are they? Are they rock-solid enough to hold the edifice of a relationship or marriage on its shoulders? In a changing world of changing values, love no more seems to be the mere prerequisite for marriage.Financial security and status, materialistic ambitions and fancy lifestyles are values as important as any, maybe to her.I had no comments.

I may be at the age where questions of marriage tends to dominate family visits during any speacial festivals.But societal presure aside,there are more optimistic view on being single to this day and age than any those old people realise.Being single gives us the opportunity to achieve things which may not have been possible in situations where one's attention,time,energy and financial resources may haved toe shared with other half.

I'm better able to concentrate and focus on trying to achieve something beyond love.It is not a shameful statement to admit the fact that i am still single.Of course, I could not deny the obvious setbacks of singlehood like unfulfilled need for companionship and resulting loneliness.Anyway I told my mum that I am not going to seek out or rush into a relationship because of the factors.I still had dreams yet to accomplish.

I had friends seems to be together and then breaking up soon after, with lots of crying and screaming thrown in.I 'm more than happy to go home alone for some peace and quiet.Feeling jaded and cynical?Perhaps?I am an old fashioned kinda guyl. I believe that relationships or marriages are formed on the basis of compatibility. You are with someone because you enjoy that person and genuinely like them.I am easily bored with people sometimes.Wait till I earned a million.

I met Dawn, and Harvin..She introduced me to her beautiful friend.It was such a sweet surpise to meet her and did some catching up before i start my intensive training on my shoulder.I met Ming Wei , my spotter.He was with his gym buddy.I thought he did leg training.Well He better does it beacuse he had such bigger upper frame, which of course very nice but we also need to train lower body like legs to look balanced.

E-go

I felt inferior and ashamed when I asked for Aida's help again during the lab.I’m not intending to be a male chauvinistic pig or anything.As for me,I cannot pass a judgement without the presence of a claim over my pride. So if she passed judgement that I am irritating, pain-in-her-ass of person and she dealt nothing with it,I would still initiate a legal guidance from her.I hoped she would not mind that.

I did not go to gym.Of coure my motivation is not a bit down at all, just that my chest muscle was still aching from yesterday intensive workout. By simply resting/sleeping, I would able to get my muscles to recuperate and grow.Recovery is just as important as training.Sleep is an example of recovery and it is important that growing bodies get enough sleep.I am not in early 20s anymore.I could apparently get away with harmful exercises, techniques, and abuse of unnecessary supplement, at least over the short term.. I suffered so much in the quest for a great physique, but did not get what I thought would make all the dedication worthwhile.

But now, I did not train too much.Overtraining that wears my old body down and causes long-term structural problems like back problem and addition of facial contraints ( wrinkles ).But then, instead of being obsessive, I am being dedicated, doing right things in right way.Proper training, Extra rest and balanced diets.

Train hard, but do not overtrain. Use simple routines and train no more often than three times a week. But never train the same exercise or bodypart three times a week--once a week, or twice at the most, is more than enough. Focus mostly on the big basic exercises. Choose only safe exercises, and always use impeccable form. Be super dedicated and serious about your training, but do not neglect the more important aspects of your life health, education, family responsibilities,and a balanced approach to life. This is the dedication you need.

A friend of mine blasted me for my egoistic character.I would not touch on that.

My curse was lifted,my prayer was answered and the torment was gone.Everything back to normal.New day had begun, just like a fairy tale,the sleeping beauty, I woke up, and, looking upon the world with eyes more tender, less painful than those looks did not seem to allow previously.The spell had been broken


I went to do my Composite tutorial at McDonalds Rstn nearby for two and it was my first time i could do the tutorial by myself.I went home and cooked some pasta with low-calorie sauce.Just after I emerged from my weeks of non-vanity, I took more than half hour to dress up.I miss my old me in nice hairstyle, nice clothes, healthy smile and cheerful face.Thank God!!!Suddenly the world was getting clearer and brighter.I love my hairstyle.

Today I had M141 presentation.We were the last one to present our topic on Hotel New World Collapse.It always seemed to me that I had a flock of humming birds going crazy in my stomach before a presentation, not a few gentle butterflies. I kept drinking water and breathed slowly.It just could not work.I had been doing so many presentation and stage show, I still had high anxiety.I've rehearsed enough so that I know what I'm trying to communicate and I have notes to help me through any rough spots." I even try visualize myself giving my speech well with little anxiety several times before the presentation.Still, Imagining horrible thoughts like "Will they understand my heavy accent" are certain to lead to high anxiety.Arghh..

I knew that presentation skill is very important and essential to our future.Because, it defines our abilities to present information to others and is a critical skills we all must develop. Our people skills and our communication presenting skills are the very tools we need to use on a daily basis to meet the ever increasing demands placed on us to present our messages and proposals effectively in our daily lives and in the business world which has changed so enormously in recent decades, with its technology and globalization pushing us to work longer, harder, smarter and faster.

Individuals with powerful effective presentation, communication, and people skills understand just how critical these skills are to their success in presenting their messages and proposals. They are often in great demand just because of these skills!Bleah!That really stifle my effort to be a successful entrepeneur.WHY must I experience an anxiety attack at the mere mention of public speaking.My groupmates did better than me, although their presentation were much longer than mine.This might affect my grading.What I am really saying to myself is that I lack self-confidence in myself.Time to self-improve................I though I did a good job.

After that, I went to gym at 5pm, It was not so crowded.I was going to train chest.I lifted heavy barbells without any spotter.I was struggling hard under the weight,beyond my limit.It was like skydiving without an emergency parachute. If me regular chute failed to open, I was a dead duck.It meant if the weight just dropped on my chest, I went up kiiied myself.It took me a while to approach people in gym.Talking about being self-confident.I managed to get this guy whom I thought can be a good spotter.I trusted him within my instinct.He did give encouragement, technique and just enough assistance to permit completion of my chest press.So many familiar faces.

After gym, I went for a jog.I wasn't trying to go fast but those runners was really sprinting damn fast.I was just gone crazy and envious.Why could i have such stamina and endurance?I had so lousy stamina.Look at them! they are toned, tanned, good-looking guys with nice legs.Those attributes were been in my wishlist.I just stopped runing for 5 runs - 3 slow jog and 2 sprint.

I went back home and ate my remaining Pasta for my dinner before heading to school to do some revision with Terence.I wasted time chatting with Terence ,rather than do my revision.Maybe I just felt very tired, and sore.....12.15am ....reached home...welcomed by my kitty.It was the most happiest day at the moment.


This is what is understood as never giving up hope, that is, we should never give up hope for God's assistance and should continue to persevere on. Surely, for every problem that we face and persevere or struggle through, God will grant us His reward

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This was getting serious now;Started waking up with a lot of sticky mucus type stuff under my eyelashes, and now my eyes are red and watering all the time.It was becoming routine.

Conjunctivitis, commonly called "pink eye " is a common infection, or inflammation, of the conjunctiva, the transparent membrane that covers the white of the eye as well as the inside of the eyelids. People describe discomfort, redness, discharge,and a gritty sensation, as if a grain of sand were in their eyes. It is highly contagious and can be passed by hand-to-eye contact, as well as from one eye to the other, and even by way of towels. You could have bacterial, viral, or allergic conjunctivitis, or something less common

Somehow I still had to go out to school.I just put on contact len only on my left.I felt really half-blinded.My vision is blurred and I can't see anything from a distance. I'm looking at the people and I can't read them unless I'm right face to face and somehow I know that it is not a permanent impairment. I got headache, subsequently.

I went to return and instead of heading to school, I went to NTUC supermart.Chicken breast!!!! I bought about 10 of them for this week meal.I went home, put the stuff and headed to school libray 2 to do some admin works.I met up with Terence somewhere near LT 1A.There were quiet place to study except it can be stuffy if I sat there longer.

I went to LT2 for my M141 tutorial which I thought a really waste of time.Get to know this gorgoues girl, Pamela's friend.I just went home after that,the dizzy spell was getting worse.

I ask God for a favor to have really a normal sleeping habit and I thought he showed me a sign....now that something menace to me.I woke up early, automatically because i could feel the pain on my right eye.In few minutes later, the red eye turned back to normal Was mine a sign? I dont know. Am I going to spend the rest of the day debating it? Probably not. Theres no question in my mind. To me it was the highlight of the past two weeks. Maybe things would start looking up, hopeful.

I told myself that I must study today, I called Terence for another study session, perhap at fast-food restaurnt at Jurong Bowl.It was crowded, somehow there was a family dyas event going on nearby.We had breakfast, until Terence told me that he was going for Karaoke.I was gone mad.Where was his promise to study with me today? He asked me to join him.At once, I rejected the invitation.

I could not just went to karaoke bar, puting on such a miserable display of talent:Singing.I did not stand quite a good chance at getting the spotlight.I suck!According to Edmund,I am just tone-deaf.From an actual singing standpoint, there's two kinds of "tone deafness" - one where a person is just not used to matching pitch - sometimes they do, sometimes they don't. The other is real tone-deafness - never being about to match pitch. It could be that I just need a little practice.Terence, invite me next time.i will be singing Christina Aguilera's tracks. *wink* *wink*

I was truly happy today, I just finished my first draft of report on Principle of Fracture Mechanics/Fatigue.I was starting on M302 term paper report soon.My weekend had never been so exciting.I better start think of at least 5 fun to do this week.I did not wish my life to be routine.

I, just like a sunflower, reaching for ray of hope

hi

Just accept everyone for who they are and stop trying to label, justifty, and judge everything, because very few things can be labeled or justified, and none can be judged accurately
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Apparently I supposed to go school library to finish up all the final drafts for my various projects.It became dreadful when my eyes gave me troubles again.I guessed it was a probable time to visit a doctor for my eye treatment.I'm just so bored, i just started reading other people's journal.I've got nothing else better to do! Then Something struck my mind...I should go out , taking the risk of having eye infection.

I went to Orchard , window-shopping particular on nothing..just walked and walked, enjoing the boredom ( I met remy on the train, telling the tips to pass and even score my subjects ) .I ended up at Kinokuniya Bookstore, browsing some books and magazine before Terence called. I bought a japanese hairstyling magazine cost $20.It's just gotten tamed and boring. I don't know what to do with it and I'm ready for a change, new change.Japanes are well-known for weird, funky hairstyle.Be prepared.

I met up with Terence, Nick and David.It was David's birthday.Supposedly, they were celebrating at Coffee Club ( Takashimaya S.C) before I met them.It was quite crowded and happening.Mudpie looks delicious but terence thought otherwise.I made a pass when it cost $6.50.

"Lovestruck"

Blue dusky waters that caught us that night
Swirling around and around like a merry go round
You know I still get that sentimental feeling

Cool neon sky asking all kinds of questions
As the moon nods his head and the stars wink an eye
You know I still get that sentimental feeling

I'm spinning softly, I'm lovestruck
It takes my breath away
I'm so emotionally loved-up
I'm dreaming night and day
It may not be for an eternity
I swear it's real today

Smooth summer breeze sends a smile to my skin
I watch my heart wonder out as the tide rushes in
Still ever-burning
That sentimental feeling

I'm spinning softly, I'm lovestruck
It takes my breath away
I'm so emotionally loved-up
I'm dreaming night and day
It may not be for an eternity
I guess that's just Love's way

Remember so well the memory so clear
Sweet words you whispered in my ear
The ocean set still the moment we touched
The feeling makes my body rush

I'm spinning softly, I'm lovestruck
It takes my breath away
I'm so emotionally loved-up
I'm dreaming night and day

My right eye was getting redder and watery....At one point I could not even open my eye...I guess It was an acute conjuctivitis now.I really wondered the cause of the irritation: Contact lens, Container, Solution? I went back to sleep and woke up at 4pm....I broke my promise with my friend to go to NUS to accompany him for the career exhibition..I was totally gone today.....Being sick is a waste of time. I could not do anything whole day.I took 2 capsule sof Panadol to relieve my spiltting headache.What a good start to weekend! All the plan for today foiled just because of my damn sore eyes......

I really need some motivating words...Sometimes It is hard to entrust my personal secret to anyone after I gave some thought over the accident yesterday.

This friend of mine and I had been on testy ground for the past several days. Each time I disagreed with him, or in my characteristically straight style tried to tell him that he was in wrong, I blew it. He got very defensive and felt attacked. One time he felt so hurt, he went out blurting out my past secrets and my weakness which were a already historical.He always said that I interpreted his words with my own assumptions.He became self-absorbed and babbled out my ugliness in terms of character and ego and making himself presentable..Trying to be smart, somehow.OR Because people are really narrow minded and cant see past there own nose, he do it to make him feel good and in control.

We should rather examine ourselves and our own motives whenever we think before we can judge another person's deepest motives/behaviour. By adopting some conscious distance from our thoughts we may gently overlook what we cannot condone or agree with in others.Agree???

>There is inside
you
all of the potential to be whatever
you want to be
all of the energy to do whatever
you want to do.

>Imagine yourself
as you would like to be,
doing what you want to do,
and each day, take one step
towards your dream.

And though at
times it may seem too
difficult to continue,
hold on to your dream.

>One morning you
will awake to find
that you are the person
you dreamed of
doing what you wanted to do
simply because you had the courage
to believe in your potential
and to hold on to your dream.

At least It amuse me a little

Gosh! I woke up at 8.10am.......I quickly showered,gelled, dressed up and rushed to the bus-stop, thinking should I take taxi to school.....? I just toke public transporta nd reach to my tutorial at 8.45am....There were people who were later than me...

I went TO CAD/CAD lab to do my project..I was at loss....seriously....I just stared at the screen blankly.I began to feel panicked and did not know what to do. I guess I really did not know what to do.I went to toilet to wash my face and said to myself," Hey sunshine, Smile and do it!".....I walked slowly to the lab,sat down and approached this malay girl, Aida to guide me.I was truly blessed.She is so smart, helpful, friendly....I was so grateful for her being my life-saver.....I owed her something.......I just knew one angel.....

I went home to sleep, woke up at 4.15pm for my M438 lecture.Luckily I drove to school today.It was really my first time to park opposite LT19A.....cool.......I went to LT5 and bumped into Hung Yong and Micheal Wong...and others....the lecture was so boring and By the time the lecture ended, I managed to clear two stage In Sonic( N-gage). I drove to SRC for my gym.....Lest people today and most of them are China people...perhaps there is some prize-giving ceremony later....I did Serious work out on my triceps and biceps..then I went for a jog for 5 rounds......I just came from a jog, and I wasn't as helpless as I thought I'd be. Hmm. If only I didn't have o attend the Surf N Sweat,I'd be letting myself get flabby here. Well, maybe not, but I wouldn't drag myself out of the house to jog every day (or whenever I feel like it).But big part of that is stamina. If I go too long without running, my stamina will go down....totally waste......

Ack, I'm feeling like engineer today. I've been relatively productive , doing research on Design Optimization and analysis and other projects.I had been starting to do research at library 2.It was noisier than I thought, or maybe I was thinking too hard about it.It just disrupt my motivation to study.

Worse, Those textbooks really drained my working mind.I'm supposed to have an outline ready by then, but I haven't got a clue where to begin. I feel like all those library tours and Internet browsing had gone completely over my head, and I'm not thrilled by the prospect of printing and highlighting theose mountains of documents.

I went to gym at 5pm.It was quite crowded and saw some familiar faces ( THose mostly from my faculty ) The coming event , Surf and sweat, is coming soon..At any rate it's got me motivated, so what the hell, right? It would be my first time attending such event in my entire university life.I start to work out a new program for me.So if I can keep this up, I may actually look good, beefier and be stud muffin for the beach in March.Get toned and tanned...... I'm off to find a stick of celery..

I did make friend with some guy in gym who might help me to spot during my weight-training program...hopefully since my gym mates are either graduate or lazy.

I met Terence at the bus-stop in front of Hall 2 and had our dinner at Canteen A.... before heading to NIE to study.Seriously there was no point of undergoing my program if I did not take seriously about my diet....I eat high-calories meal which I really could not resist.Perhaps last time........

That inspires me to watch my diet

I really not in the mood to go school. What's the purpose anyway? to learn?? well fine I'll learn, but those silly lecturers don't teach you in theatre well.So what's the purpose of school? To do projects and get stressed by your teacher whenever they feel like it. Don't even think about learning or doing something in school. It all has to be done at home. Endless project....additional projects......I was tottaly bonked....My eyes gave me trouble......But still I had to attend M141 tutorial which I could just skip...Watching video about car manufacturing......I was like ...irrelevant........I just went back home ...

My sis fetch me and my mum and then my father at his workplace and then fetched her fiancee..We were going to try out the dishes for her wedding dinner.......I enver knew It can be so late...Time-waster......The food were so splendid....It was seafood ( 6-course dinner).I really wonder where the hell she got so much money...It was really a grand wedding dinner with fairyland theme.......I was like blown away......... It will be so beautiful then....and those my sister was going to invite will be very lucky guests......

I reached home at 11pm.......I was too tired to do anything...hit the sack......No regret though becuse it was free dinner from the wedding planner.....

Unchained Melody

Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger for your touch,
Alone. Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.

Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea,
To the open arms of the sea.
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me,
I'll be coming home, wait for me.

Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger, hunger!, for your love,
For love. Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.

Friends

I spent my time at home......Cleaning my room which was like being hit by tornado and my mum just could not stand the stench of my room whereas I could not stand her consistent nagging. I just wasn't doing anything interesting or challenging.Apparently cleaning my room is not that challenging...boredom...i could not wear my lense because my eyes got sore due to the pleasure of rubbing my eyes continually.......sicko...

I listen to jazz radio online.. discovered that my days , everyday were alike and start to wondered if it was all there was going to be to life.It seemed like I was missing my life.I had always wanted to write, more motivated by the show " And I hate You so starring Aaron Kwok and Kelly Chen as the colum writer. I felt happier and more fulfilled somehow when I started my journal. We all want to do what we are good at doing.We need to feel "in charge" of something; we need to be flexible, adapting to the situation; we need to use our judgment.Life must have meaning.Comfortable companions--friends, cat, or my mum--are usually soothing....talking about friends...I have bad experience with them today....What was wrong with me or them?
ICQ MEssage ( dun mind the spelling)
Me: hey.sorry abt yesterday.....i had conjunctivitis
A: what that ?
A: nah.. it doesn't matter it's not as if you really have to go...
me: sore eys
A: just ask for the cutesty sake..
me: i knew u can enjoy even i m not ard though
me: : )
A: heheh... well.. I know how to enjoy even if it's only with me and myself
A:but last night was really fun... get to know a few people and Keith was fucking drunk
Me: wat's new ?
A:huh... you seen Keith drunk before ?
A:mmm.... maybe it's a blessing in disguise that you wasn't there.. with the situation like last night you might feel bored.. since have already expected it's going to be this way
Me:to be true..I seriously blessed......
Me: : )
A:I think I should be the one saying sorry to set the invitation...
A;I shall not make the same mistake then and I shall remind this to Joe as well
Me:u did it out of couertoesy and i reject it out of politeness
A:mmm.. to think that you even iniciate the sms to him...
Me:well...being polite
A:if I were not invite out of couetoesy.. tell me in what name on earth shall I set the invite... Esjay... people have torance... if you think so highly of yourself.. sorry.. this will be our very last conversation
A:I think you think too much... what give you the impression I wasn't being polite...
Me:hey...i dun even meant it tat way, dude...u set the example..otehr is folloing...u hv follwer here....Me:seriously abt having sore eyes is just coincidence...
A:laugh... with or without you around seirously doesn't make much differences.. I don't see a point you need to high light to me the importance of having you with us !!
Me:if u think i lied bt having sore eyes..waht can i do..u just be wary of me..........who am i to think highly of....i dun even have 5% of ur success
A:and I think you ought to take it easy... and not a chance for making event
A:have you ever thought about what you have said...
Me:u start the bashing here, dude...u say it doe snot matter if i go ...make no difference...A:the problem lie in you... have I create any conflict with you by making any comparsion to boost my ego
Me:tat make me insignificant to go then......why's point of inviting for the sake of inviting...if u find me there a soreMe:it is like u all can create the joy if I Go with u all... PUHLEASE>>>
A:and what on earth have that thinking... your thinking are really weired
Me:i think u gone tat far......
ME: saying sorry.....also cannot..next time wont be bother to msg u then
A:I think it's not me who have gone that far.. it's your mentality and your thinking have think so far that beyond anyone have expected
A:I'm just telling Me:expected my presence but absence at ast min..and u bashed me by saying i m not significant at all.. u have frend to get drunk with...yeah.....duh!
A: you that if you were there you can have the same fun we are having that's all.. just a sharing, is there anything wrong ?
Me:u go n read waht type..before u finge rpoint at other..seriously talking ego.......
A:that's why I just making an aplogy for setting the invitation.. so tell me am I doing wrong ?
A: I think the ego lie in you.. and not me... you come up with the assupition reading in between the line
A:jump to the concounlsion with such little you have known
Me:fine....i will print our converstaion and then i will let 10 ppl read abt it........
Me:if pple find me i m tat pety..i concede defeat thenA:laugh... and I will do the same
Me:but on the thought of it...it intude each otehr privacy...so what d heck....i dun wnat to be rudeA::I don't know what you have in mind... I don't like to play mind game
Me: let's end the converstaion then..........i dun even play any....and since u are wary of me n my converstion here.........have a nice day.............u have more fun without me around...u hv good friends, good life ....it is like a turning point for u.....just like u n lncoln's case...in other word...u r succeeded
A: hay.. do you have any porblem... is that what I really mean.. you go and take some time and think about it.. it never even really cross my mind to have such thinking

I thought that the conversation was truly lame actually but because of each other 's ego and unacceptanc eto give in....Anyway He said I display my ego But i said that He tried to suan me and my pride with his word to comfort his ego....Comments????

Another friend of mine sms me suddenly to go out with me but When I sms him yesterday ....He did not even bother to sms me back but I mean he did reply but I did not receive the sms reply which I was not expected to........but the valentine picture message...bleah! I thought it was rude.....Anyway he asked me late.......And I have terrible eye irritation...And I wont be going out of my house without contact lens....

vday

After meet-up with my final year Supervisor to discuss my project, I went to town straight away.......I was quite early so I thought of looking for some sunflower for lily but I could not find any......so I just went to HMV , listening to music..... I love Norah Jones's latest album, Sunrise and Britney Spear's latest single, Toxic...I met Hui Hui and Bee Lan at chinerse section since Bee Lan wanted to buy 5566 album for her cousin....Bee lan said that it is very expensive here ( it cost $22.95) So we went to Cineleisure and tried our luck at Sembawang Music Store.....I bumped into Lily, had a quite a long conversation while they went to get the CD album.....

Managed to get 5566 album at $20.95...yeah!!...plus poster...We travelled to Cuppage Centre to have our dinner at Rice Table Restaurant.....It was fully booked but the nice waiter told us that we can leave my handphone number in case there is availability of the seats....Hui Hui was very hungry, I was hungry ....so we had no choice but to have dinner at Sanur Restaurant at Centrepoint.

Dinner at Sanur Restaurant

I though we ordered just right for four of us.
1) Assam soup
2) Chicken Curry
3) Tahu Telor
4) Kai Lan Belachan
5) Ikan Pepes
6) Sweet Sotong
7) Jug of Lime juice

But suddenly the waiter from Rice Table Restaurant called us that there was availability of seats...we were just too fast to get the place so we had to reject him.But we had fun eating and chit-chatting, laughed and joked just old times sake.....

Are there interesting research findings about laughter? Yes!, and here is a list: less than 20% of laughter is related to jokes; people are more likely to laugh in groups than when alone; women laugh more often than men; most laughter is in the context of regular conversation, rather than in attempts to stimulate laughs; Speakers laugh more than listeners; males are leading producers of humor; females are the leading laughers; laughter produces activities in cells that attacks viruses and tumor cells, hence frequent laughers are healthier than frequent frowners; it takes 72 muscles to frown and 14 to laugh, hence laughers look younger than frowners; bad feelings lead to bad habits, people with bad feelings frown more and laugh less;
people who look at the bright side of things, laugh more often and are healthier; laughing is contagious; those who laugh or smile, make others laugh or smile.

When we received the bills.....it was

$91.00

We went to jazz Pub at South Bridge to spend the rest of the night. I just ordered Gunner and they shared one jug of Heineken Beer.We celebrated Bee Lan's birthday;Hui Hui bought the present for her, a perfume. come in pink package...Truly Bee Lan personality..We did not enjoyed much about the music played because people surrounded us are much more loud than the singer..........

At Jazz Pub@South Bridge

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEE LAN

Different Bee Lan: I thought She looked better with fringe

Music started to put us into slumber so we went to hang out at Coffe Bean's nearby for the expensive supper.nevertheless, Bee Lan who was the one who treated us: Brownie ( MY favourite ), Other Two different flavoured cheese cake and one tall ice blended mocha.......They knew I did not like chesscake....I hated the taste of it....it made me breathed heavily as if i was caught with asthma..We talked about Union Orientation Camp and the people.Gosh I missed that time....fun, friends, fooling around,freedom....all those F words.....fantastic.....

At Coffee Bean at Boat Quay

<>HAPPY VALENTINES DAY AND FRIENDSHIP DAY

Fantasia

I came inside the tutorial class at 10.45am....I dun even understand at all the electronic again.....Hate it when come to tutorial end up playing with my N-gage.....After that I went to library to do some research....on umbrella...Actually there is better idea than doing umbrealla design...We had no time to change new product anyway.While surfing, I came across this website.I thought it was an interesting one.I fine this idea quite innovative though.

Computer with coffee-makerneighbourhood

Newer processors are larger, faster and consume more power. Power consumption equates largely with heat generation, and keeping them them cool can be a major concern. So the idea is, use this heat generated to keep your coffee warm. Every computer has a coffee cup holder and when you turn on the switch the generated heat is used to keep your coffee warm.

Good for those final-year undergraduate who burn midnight oil to study

We had discussion ( M141) at 1.30pm.I was late apparently, or purposely....I was so hungry that I had to have lunch first....product was finalised, the work was being delegated and tasked...We went back early liao....

American Idol started.......I was quite anxious who the American will choose.I voted for Jennifer Hudson ( In tribute to The Beatles’ first appearance in America 40 years ago this week, Jennifer sings a tune from John Lennon’s solo career, Imagine and one of my favourite) and Fantasia ( She is cool ). Apparently Julia Degarmo got in...Well i did want to vote for her because she is beautiful, talented and young.....I tended to be biased though......

Time to search for jennifer hudson's version of Imagine.

hi

I was too stressed that I did not attend the 302 and 401 Tutorials......I seriously felt so un-conident especially during 401 lab...We supposed to do the project in pair...but i did not manage to find one...And I simply bad in doing programming.Maybe I don't know the best way to approach people. I don't want to make a mistake or embarass myself.Let's face it. It takes guts to approach a total stranger.

It is high time to develop those approach skills since it is essential for future.

1) Practice in private what you're going to say to that person when you do meet. So many people walk away from opportunities because they were speechless at the moment.
2) Don't be a chicken. If you don't take chances you will never get anywhere in life. You have nothing to lose
3) Talk to strangers. Even if you are not interested in dating them it's good practice.

I went to school for my another tutorial at 1.30pm...I was lucky enough to prepare my tutorial.Well, the subect was quite similar to Chemistry...I love chemical....Professor Sandy chian was one of the hundreds who are enthuasitic, lively and really show concern for his student to understand the subject,He got agitated when we just kept quiet because he wanted some reply from us.Almost everyone said they did not touched on the tutorial yet.After tutorial, He asked me whether I m from Singapore beacuse my accent do not reflect the local's way of speaking.I was ......not surpised at all...about infamous question .However I am definitely Singaporean........And I also Adore my natural accent........

Reflection

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see if I wear a mask
I can fool the world but I cannot fool my heart
Who is that guy I see staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show who I am inside

I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart and what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world what's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that guy I see staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
A burn with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal what we think ,how we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside when will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I got sore eyes....terrible one........Must be over-use of contact lenes which ended up contaminated.........I did my revision at KFC restaurant nearby with the spect on..Wearing of glasses is really a mental torture for and the sight of them upon others far from agreeable. Most human beings are, unfortunately, ugly enough without- putting glasses upon them, and to disfigure any of the really beautiful faces that we have with such contrivances is surely as bad as having no teeth.........I still wore newly-fresh lenses to the school for my M141 tutorial.......It was raining.....We had to do more research again since the products we agreed upon was alreay in the market and common in US...

I quickly rushed home because my eyes started to itch terribly.....so terrible that I had to take the len off and threw it away..heaps of relieve...but then I had to walk home...kinda of embarrased to take bus with sore eyes......I had enough of people treating me like a plague.......It was really a stressful day................

I woke up early because I need to attend wedding of a very rich long-distance relative at Johor later......But anyway I was not the one who was going to drive across causeway.....I somehow need to learn how to drive in Johor bahru by guidance of my uncle....He drove more pathetic than me....beside those fucking pedestrian who did not know the rules of road,the smoky junction and the lousy signboard, I can drive briskly....

My relative's husband ( father's side ) is the director of the immigration side ( It means those who earn so much as Tan Sri ).Look at the house.....Although It was quite cheap on the land of Johore...U cannot even get such house unless you earn millions..for my case...nay!........I started to dream of buying a land lot there and start house-planning...Hopefully by 30 year-old......@@@@@@@

THe food there was so nice.........the atmosphere.....the people....the neighbourhood....except the weather ......just adoring...........After that ,we went to Pasar Larkin where my mum bought some grocery and 12 burgers ( for my cousins )...My eyes started getting itchy............

A day of being in the rich and famous neighbourhood

I am......

I just reached home from clubbing.....I had Nasi Lemak at Clementi Road with Terence after my daily jog and swim.....I love the Nasi Lemak there but somehow it lost its novelty ....May be I got sick of it easily....however I rather chose Nasi Lemak than Roti Prata........

Some People I knew commented , mostly negative about my hairstyle......"What happened to your hair?"..... "you look so girlie"........"it is so ugly" ..... "Punk is passe and everyone seems to have it...no original" ........ "U try hard to be someone hor"....."Gasp" ...... Whatever....I just becoming...me, myself and I....I did not care much about other people said.......You are lying, Esjay.....yeah yeah...I was a bit pissed off....in very positive way ( according to Terence) at least they noticed me......kaoz! in negative way loh....I think I might re-do my hairstyle.......Hard being me.....

I went to school at noon after my lunch to do some research.I could not imagine that I went to school on saturday........Well.....I hope it will be my positive habit....I could do more things when there is no one and quiet atmosphere....

Keith messaged me through whether I interested to watch a play.Firstly I was reluctant as I had to pay $38 for it.......I was almost into bankruptcy......secondly the play was about homosexuals in Singapore.He told me it was his treat:nothing wrong to treat a friend once a while....oooooo.......I went to esplanade level 3, amidst of the mostly men crowd, I managed to find Keith through handphone of course....was introduced to his friend....The play consist of 8 stories: An exploration of the other spaces: Breathing spaces, spaces between bodies,that metaphorical space they all fight for in the land where even bedroom has been deprived of its privacy and sanctity ( abtract from playwrigt's message) Alfian Saát is a amazingly writer of peotry,fiction and plays....he won so many awards for his gifted talent.....

The plays is not only meant for the gay audience but also to straight and ladies.We can share experiences of the others and understand issues of concern within a given society.Theatre is to create a space where everybody has the right to be heard and to challenge the audience's mindset and stereotype of the gays.The actors/actress were very convincing and good.I managed to get close to Nora Samosir......

I loved the stories: My Own Private Toa payoh and Downstream,Delta

My own Private Toa Payoh
A two-room flat becomes home,sanctuary,world - in this deeply felt and moving story about two rent boys with not much to get by except their love, their dreams, and all their tommorow.

Downstream,Delta
Barely submerged desires and dreams,hopes and heartbreak,all rise painfully to the surface,as two men - one straight,one gay - reminisce about their speacial frinedship,which develops from failed pick-up attempt at public swimming pool.

It was worth watching ( 2++ hr show).I adored the piano played by various actors that make the play very musical...well I knew most of the music.......... and love musical...I think I better start saving and start watching play ...talk about being classy.....err,,,,perhaps ......I will stick to free performance by the bay......maybe

" I asked what we meet here because I'm a sucker for nostalgia.You hang on to nostalgia when you know there's no future"

who is?

I skipped all my lecture ..hopefully they recorded and posted them at Edventure site...So I can view them from the comfort of my room and time....too bad not all modules use this prgrammes as some lecturers felt uncomfortable about being recorded....What the heck about their feelings since this progamme is an effective learning tool for us, student....somehow make me feel closer to te lecturer virtually as we are one-to-on basis..I dun felt distracted by the crowd or friends who attended lecture....big deal about low attendance...undergraduates are sensible and mature.

Today, I went to the tutorial class where 3 male models attended...very stressed....not because of them but it was the subject I really hated most...electronics....learning flip-flop and the gates....I simply at loss..... after that,I quickly printed my ideas for later discussion, I went to library 2 to borrow book for first time, seriously I really dunno how to borrow......it was truly embarrasing ..asking the people to slot my matric card to the computer....Where is the barcode of the book? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

I had lunch with Terence after buying my textbook at $44....before that Lily called me...she needed someone to talk to....I just listen despite my busy schedule.I just wanted to say that.....why create more problems ,wheras the solution is just right in front of you and you never take notice.well, easier said than done..but again...reality bites..life moves on....

I brainstormed with other groupmates about the productI admitted that I did not do much in generating innovation, mechanically...I mean in engineering terms...some how I like the umbrella vending system contributed by Soon Huat.I can relate to that problem since I hate bringing umbrella.I had fun with them......fun group....especially Pamela..she is such sweet, bubbly...truly sunshine........

metro

I start a day with a sore eyes....I was testing to try out the natural beauty tips to clear my dark eyes rings by putting grated raw potatoes...end up making my eyes sore.I went to M302T tutoral.....I was not sure whether I was early as a class was filled with two people..no sight of the tutor ..time-check = 8.35am....One young caucasian man came in.....iI was like whao!Are you my tutor or who act in Anne Rice:Vampires.I never knew there was an existence of young, good-looking and smart tutor....I was actually had difficulty in listening to his accent......except he frequently said 'right' most of time...bleh!

I went to CAD lab, apparently tried hard to do my project....worse I was alone doing it while other had found the partner....I was really desperate....my ego stopped me from approaching other..I dun want to be labelled as nuisance, pest.....If only I have partner....1 hour of torture..........i going bonkers....WHO have ANSYS 7 program?...WHO want to be my partner? *frustrated*

I went to National Library to do some research on innovation for M141.I seriously wasted time finding one...end up reading Men's Health and Muscle&Fitness...Did some reading up at McDonalds at YMCA...spending almost $5 on large Ice lemon te and large fries....

I learnt something wise from my M401 tutor: Never be selfish to teach/tutor your peers or afraid of being lose out to them because you will be always ahead of them as you understand the subject while they appreciate it.

I am building a birthday book for myself and would appreciate some quick help from you. Just click on the link below and enter your birthday details. It's easy and you can keep your age secret!...
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My new hairstyle: Punk ...Brutal

Metrosexuality

Metrosexuality was first coined in 1994 by British journalist and author Mark Simpson when he used it to describe urban,herterosexual men with some groooming rituals considered to be feminine.Since then, the term has evolved into a worldwide phenomenon.
I agreed with cooments made by three guys in Nanyang Chronicle:
- Metrosexuality's more of lifestyle - being comfortable with who one is and expressive
about it.It should not be confused with being a homosexual.The only typical homophobic maintains the streotype that well-groomed, fashion-savvy men are gay...(well said)
- That is no need for the label as such behaviour should not be perceived as a separate gender because they ultimately all men ( Vain is a good term)

I disagreed withthis comment about
Metrosexual is a term more for people that are flamboyant and sometimes over-dressed ( I cun blame the guy who made this comments - total arrogant himbo)

Are you metrosexual?You might be if you are
1) are well-educated
2) are up-to-date with the latest hairstyles and fashion trends
3) enjoy pampering yourself
4) have your hair cared for by a stylist not a barber
5) work on your physique at fitness club
6) love to shop
7) have a bathroom filled with grooming products
8) exfoliate and moisturize
9) enjot reading men's magazine
10) have penchant for fine dining

I m proudly a metrosexual

Today is Hari Raya Haji.....I woke up late....Went to Granny's house....Had a big sumptous meal ...... testing my N-gage with my uncle's N-gage using Bluetooth technology..We managed to connect with each other...end up playing games together in competitive mode..It was fun...If only I have friends who have N-gage....and the games too....

I really dunno why everyone say I looked better with my hair fringe up..Guess It was time to change my hairstyle to something more rebellious....How I wish that My hair will be like F4 members...Everytime I keep my hair long...it start to get flaky, dry and worse flat..sighs...I was fated to sport short hair....

Punk-inspired