No respect for me now

Today my mentor on child sick leave. It means I need to teach the classes. It will not be an easy task especially when it was post-exam where the students had this mentality that they need rest after exam period.

Full of crap. Seriously, they were only given a good rest if they really work and study hard for examination and get good results.Apparently, they did not do at all.

I tried to use media player in the laptop to play the clips I downloaded yesterday but it did not work.

Panic!

I wasted whole night to get and download the clips for today lessons.

I printed some worksheet for contingency plan.For secondary 1, I manage dto download real player in class while they did their work. I showed them some maths video clips for them to watch. At least they love the session well.

For upper secondary, they found them lame and not funny at all. It is kind of hurting to see their attitude when we did so much work for them to enjoy and relaex yet they are such a killjoy.If they know nothing good came from their mouth, just rest their damn head and sleep.

Luckily I learnt not to be bothered by the remarks or soever because I grew maturely to handle such behaviour.

Somehow, they lost respect me as a teacher eversince my mentor took over me. I am like a flower vase, decorating the classroom only. I wonder if this is the right path for me. When I took over, they seemed not to pay attention to me at all.

I lose hope and went back home after I saw nothing at my pigeon hole. I suppose to go gym but ended up taking the longer nap to pay back the sleepless night I owed yesterday.

My energy level drained.

Getting lazier and fatter.

Died!

Exam Starts

Exam starts already.

I will be spending my time invigilation.

Tired

Even though I went back home early. I was quite lerthagic today. It might be 5 KM run I did yesterday at JW sports hall. I was too lazy even to go gym for 3hr training.

I spend my tuesday on computer and sleeping.

Actually, I am really worried about the future.MaybeI should be understood that speculating on the future doesn't really help much when it only makes you more worried and depressed. Rather I should focus on the present, because it is what I do now that will determine what will happen in the future.

Not true enough for my case.

I need a good changes. My life really screwed and no one know about it.

I am Evil

Today I am in foul mood because I care for them. I am so worried yet they thought it was still holidays when exam was drawing near.

They thought I adopted favouritism. I treated all fair and square.

Anyway today I use this magnetic pillow, which was tested to improve blood circulation even at rest. I put on my head because my head really needed real fast flow of blood movement.

I went to JW sport hall for gym but the place was packed with footballers. They trained there for the soccer tournament. Seeing their strict training regime, make me feel so inferior. Frankly, I am super lousy in soccer, beside badminton.

I quite laxed in gym because most of the machine were being used by the people there.I did not expect it to be crowded. I miss california gym.

Then I decide to go for 5km run....no...should be a jog...

I could not even have stamina to run for other 4 round to complete only 4.8km. Thanks goodness, I had ipod nano as companion to motivate me to run. I must get my stamina back.The rate my body burns up food also tends to slow down. That's why it's easier to gain weight.

I declared fat by people.

Anyway, someone made a bet with me who will be a biggest loser in weight loss. No potbelly, sagging arms, or any form of fatty deposits.

Something to motivate me.

After jog, I walked back home and rest.

Then I bought grocery for my breakfast.Healthy and carb-cutting meals.

Not a rest day

I had to wake up early to drive my parents to East Coast Park as there was an family event organised by some relatives. THe whole relatives - uncles, aunties and cousins would be there.

Except my mum's siblings.

My mum made some food for the events. She is very generous soul even though there would be a lot of food being catered and brought by others. She even bought crackers for the children in form of charity.

I wish to have that selfless attitude like her. The power of giving comes from a selfless act - where you simply give from your heart. The power of giving - self happiness. You give because you want to, You dont give so that you can get something in return.

Then My mum packed some Nasi Lemak and kueh for me to bring home to eat. I was not feeling well actually plus I did not know anyone there. I was kind of anti-social today.

What motivated me to see many good-looking people hang out there and engaged in very healthy activities - cycling and running. I wish to have such lifestyle. Being gorgeous and healthy.

Wait until I got my great bods. :P

Then I drove back home and catch up with sleep.

That was how I spent my sunday.

Sick and tired, need a plenty rest.

Total waste of time.

Wait, I spend my other time marking books and do the correction worksheet for upper secondary students.

Friday Hateday

It started with a rain.

I don't feel like going to work, because I was still not feeling well today. Alyway feeling nausea at times.

Today I had meeting that ended at 4 pm, I quickly rushed home after that. I had stomach upset then. I spent my rest of my day doing nothing.

Wasted.

Gone were my plan

Spiderman

Today I was not feeling well. I needed to go home to clear my bowel. I was quite not in the mood to work but then today it was not that bad day except it ended late.

I rushed home, got changed and met Richard and Walter by the road, they were going to fetch me. We headed to Vivocity to catch some movies there while having a late lunch there.




Vivocity is the food heaven.

While in the cinema counter, we decided to watch the much-anticipated movie, spiderman 3. Surpisingly, even on weekday, the spiderman movies was fully seated until late night.

We just had the lunch at fig and olive restaurant. Walter wanted som spaghetti today so we just followed suit. I was not in the mood to eat much bigger portion. We chatted for awhile to decide on what's planned next. I decided to go to Minds cafe and had fun but somehow we ended up watching spidey 3 movie at jurong point after booking through phone.




We walked around the vivocity for awhile. It was a sense of freedom to go out on afternoon weekdays. But still, everywhere is crowded with people. I bumped into Alistair there too. It had been a long time I heard from him.Now we studied in NUS.



We drove to Jurong Point and get the tickets. We had about half hour so we decided to take a bite at kopi tiam. My stomach was giving me touble again so I skipped the eating.


We got the corner seat and enjoyed wtaching movie on WEEKDAY. It was quite a surpise that the place was really crowded. They did not need to work tommorow.

The duration of movie was two and half hour. I thought the highlights of the this spedey 3 movies were the introduction of the new bad characters such as venom, sandman, new goblin and of course Gewn stacy and Topher Grace. There might be hint of spiderman 4 because there is teaser appearance of Doctor Curt Connors who would become spidey's villain, lizardman.

Gwen is such a blonde but the it could be quite drag to watch action hero movie to turn into mushy love story, especially the change of peter parker's character- having bad boy persona which made the ladies go ga-ga over. a bit lame.

Just be prepared to get dizzy with flying here and there.

Then after movie, we went back home. One th way home, Walter wanted to go overseas with us again on June. Richard and I would decide later.

Tiredness

I am not sure why my health was failing me. I had feeling lethargic and tiredness. I was quite worried that I might contracted deadly diseases - I was hypondriac, period.

My mentor was on medical leave and taking over the lesson at last minute did not help me much. It became a burden to me to have such career. In short, I was in really bad mood.

Today, one motherfucker student just stormed the class without respect. My other mentor told the student to come and greet us. He rebelled and shouted, every morning must greet meh....blah bla blah... If I was to stoop same level as him, i definitellt gave him a good punch in his fucking face. I had enough of his nonsense already. I showed him so much respect and being friend to him, yet there is no mutual respect. I thought I would just let go and play by the book.

Patience is over-used word in such working industry.

Then in lwoer seconday school, I wanted to try group learning so that they could do peer-to-peer learning. When I walked around and saw more disappointment thata there was not engaged learning at all. They chit-chat and showed me work not to my expectation. I was so angry. I wanted to be best for them

I shouted.

" If you think you can do well in the mid-year examination, then go ahead with your chat with your friends. Don't ask your parents and come tos choola nd complain when they saw your results. Don't even show me good progress and the attitude towards learning is terrible, you expect miracle. We tried our best tp help yet you all don't even want to work hard and gave some result. Do what you think good for you then"

Seriously, bad mood make me lose temper easily.

After the assembly, I went back home , without a care for protected time. I was really sick now.

I spent my whole day resting and recuperating.

Happy labour Day

I hate going to Woodlands. I always got lost going there, not sure how to. It was once awhile I would be going to Woodlands because my sister lives there. My mum would ask me to drive her there. When I lost my way, my mum started to make noise.

What's wrong with making mistake? What she cares about is her face. She did not want to be labelled late by the relatives. I just blasted her off by asking her to drop and take taxi. I knew it was very rude but the only choice is to make her keep quiet.

She cooled down when she saw her granddaughter then.

Labour day was not labour-free actually. I needed to move stuff to my auntie's new apartment. She moved to new, bigger and better flat. I think her place was quite happening with good looking people.

When can I get an apartment on my own?

I did not eat much even though the spread of various food is very tempting.

We went back home late at 8pm.