New Day wil come
The Death toll from Tsunami disaster reached 70, 000 and maybe up to 100, 000. My mum was already packed some old clothes and money for donation. Maybe It is my turn to do some tidy up in my wardrobe and pack some old clothes for Sri lankans. For monetary aid, I guessed I would not lavish much on my birthday celebration.
Anyway, lameness aside. I went to Yio Chu Kang Stadium to do my 2.4km trial run. I managed to run non-stop with my mp3 player on. I encountered chest pain and difficulty in breathing. I just did slow walk for three rounds and enjoyed watching other joggers and the beautiful, cloudy sky.Then I went for a swim at YCK pool for awhile because the water was super cold. I shrinked like a prune.
Today I let the good opportunity of making good friends slip away again and leave me frustrated. I, just some others, do have interpersonal problem : Fear of appraoching poeple, making people thinking that I was aloof and proud. I was a little uncomfortable meeting new people. Yes, I was lonely but still I did not reach out. There were others who were lonely too but I didn't approach them. Or if I do reach out, why did I take out what Bach and Deutsch (1970) call "rejection insurance?" I sound desperate for new friends but who did not need friends, good ones especially.Sighs. i should understand that fear of rejection is normal hence I should indulge myself in self-doubts or self-criticism when being rejected. Enough said.
See how much I changed ( Guess not ) for 2004. Ever-changing hairstyle with super infectious smile I had. I just loving it and proud of myself but more timeline for 2004 later. Enjoy in 2 days time. I was just worried about IPPT tommorow
I crushed on my cat
Anyway, lameness aside. I went to Yio Chu Kang Stadium to do my 2.4km trial run. I managed to run non-stop with my mp3 player on. I encountered chest pain and difficulty in breathing. I just did slow walk for three rounds and enjoyed watching other joggers and the beautiful, cloudy sky.Then I went for a swim at YCK pool for awhile because the water was super cold. I shrinked like a prune.
Today I let the good opportunity of making good friends slip away again and leave me frustrated. I, just some others, do have interpersonal problem : Fear of appraoching poeple, making people thinking that I was aloof and proud. I was a little uncomfortable meeting new people. Yes, I was lonely but still I did not reach out. There were others who were lonely too but I didn't approach them. Or if I do reach out, why did I take out what Bach and Deutsch (1970) call "rejection insurance?" I sound desperate for new friends but who did not need friends, good ones especially.Sighs. i should understand that fear of rejection is normal hence I should indulge myself in self-doubts or self-criticism when being rejected. Enough said.
My calendar
See how much I changed ( Guess not ) for 2004. Ever-changing hairstyle with super infectious smile I had. I just loving it and proud of myself but more timeline for 2004 later. Enjoy in 2 days time. I was just worried about IPPT tommorow
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