SAD

Today, Ridz told me that today was the day to find out the result since his roommate from MPE had his result and did well.I felt a little bit worried because I was not that confident about my result because it took a miracle to pass modules which I only studied before the day of examination. Much anticpated by people who loved me dear and those who hated me so much till they just waited for an opportunity to bring me down.I went to to check my result........ before that

In afternoon, I supposed to go cali fitness center at raffles place but I could find my temp card. I was so pissed off because I wasted so much time travelling. I cooled myself by having my favourite Yong Tau Foo at Banquet foodcourt at China Square. I headed back home to pluck my courage to check my result.

EXPECTED, I did not do every well.I had to retain another semester and I surrender to the fate I was born loser compared to my sister. I failed three subjects but the only consolation was I got B for my final year project which I did not put any effort on it. I was quite disappointed actually. Now I was not sure what year 2005 would be held for me. I guessed, I could never be like Jimmy.I was so un-excited. Such failure always made fell, but I tried so hard to stand up again. I knew my mum was going to be disappointed despite not showing in front of me. I need to find job.

Why am I such a loser in everything?