I woke up late, purposely. Suddenly I received a call from NTU, I guessed it must be my supervisor.I quickly dressed up and rushed to school, not even having any breakfast.reached the laboratory at 10.30am.My supervisor seems to show his disappointed and anger look. While I took off my equipment, Agness passed me a letter from my supervisor.It read - I should come early to do my experiment, and i can do my experiment even after office hour.I felt so pissed off.I just felt like taking the chair and hit all those bulky equipments and died.At the point of lowest level of hope, I got hit by more events again.It was really a multiple blow for me.

1) i received two hate mails from my supervisor regarding my lateness.

You don't need to wait for me to begin your project. You can do what I have told you before.
I cannot do anything together with you.

If you cannot come on Tuesday, you don't need to ask me to book autolab on Tuesday for you as the instrument is very busy.By the way, this is your FYP project, not mine. I told you how to do before I left for China.It is your responsibility if you fail.

I was quite hurtful when I received the emails, whether I should blame myself for being irresponsible and lazy student?

2) I got bitchy comments by a good friend regarding my trip earlier. I was so tired to think about it or even reply to his comments.Worse, i even read his blog regarding me.When he start treating me like a good friend? Yes, I am bad guy, always.But I had my life of own.I own it.

3) When I had late lunch at 2pm. I had to say hi, with my best fake smile to those who know me.I even saw MPE students wearing their graduation gowns with their good friends,taking pictures with one another and together.It really made me feel very remorsed and envious.I could not even take pictures with my good friends and others whom i know.I felt so low.I really need someone who can just listen to my woes. Am I regret for the consequence i face or the destiny I lead on my own?

Today was a last day of unlucky june.Here were the list of the bad experiences I had:
1) Final year project screw-up
2) Knew that I was not being selected for top 10 position
3) Pressurized to tell my mum about my one more semester stay and hate to see her disappointment
4) My debts keep increasing and worse no even had money to pay my bills.
5) Subject Registration screw-up and pending at the moment
6) A good friend's death
7) My cousin's fight with cancer now
8) Fall out with certain friends
9) Getting bigger size due to stress
10) Losing Digital Camera

I don't always get what i want.or maybe God might have a better plan.or I just had low esteem that make me believe that i could noot accomplsih anything.I should start to re-examine all I had been toold,dismiss what insults my soul.I know that I had choices.I can stay where I am and do nothing about my unluckiness, putting up with unacceptable conditions.Or i can take a chance and begin to change the things that are not working in my life, knwoing that is the only way to grow.I should have my own affirmations now.

Maybe I worried too much, which drained my energy and leave me depressed and uninspired.Affirmations are an excellent way to get rid of worry and fear thoughts.I just need God to guide me the way. And I miss Him.

I came to the lab at 10++ am after having my breakfast, suddenly i felt so hapless when my research supervisor gave me his piece of his mind with angry tone.I felt like a total idiot, seriously I did not know what to do.Should I provoked him with my forever politically-right excuse.What pissed me off that he say, if i was not serious in doing my project, I could give whatever excuse for not doing it.

I did not want to make things difficult for him and me. I need to take control of the situation and took it in positive way.If the negative energy hormones took over me, I defnitely shouted at him back and left the lab.I could not do such silly things;I just let myself being humiliated and carry on with my life.I still depended on him. I just re-did all my project again. It was difficult when one was alone and pressurized by those chemistry. I was totally dumb.Seems all odds against me everyday.What's wrong?

I confirmed that the month of June was really an unlucky month, despite me not being the superstitious type.I realised I lost my digi camera with my media card which did not belong to me at all. I totally felt so shitty. Today I went to school , realised that my supervisor was not around. I should not come too early, Agnes told me that he was still not here yet and better give him a call.But nobody answered.I went to library, read few journals and did some research. I really hated going to school.Seems that I had to come across so mant familiar faces;It was quite an awkward situation.

At 2pm, I came back to the lab, realised my supervisor was at lab at 10am.What can I do but just went back home and caught some sleep.Constant unexplained fatigue kept ruling my body, making me tired easily and lazy.Apparently I did nothing at all.Waste my time again.Life's getting terrible.

I did not know why I always get pissed off at very last day during the trip , everytime.Maybe being capricorn and having certain traits of dragon cost me to sour every friendship whoever I went for a trip with.There were certain matters I really felt so irritated with his behaviour and his comments.

He wished that I would have biggest spending power (it means I should have worked)instead of being thrifty.My budget for this trip was only $150.He should know that this trip was not even planned in my calendar at all.There was one event, when he was interested in buying the tanktop cost at RM20 if we buy any item because its usual price cost at RM45.That time, I loved one v-neck tee cost about RM77.It means that If I bought that tee, he can get the the tanktop at discounted rate.I told him that it was beyond my budget.He kept pestering me to buy it and even offered to lend me money. I was quite blown away.I consistently told him that I was not interested at all.Then he blamed me that he had to get the top at original price.Occassionaly. It does not matter whether it was a joke or something else, It really hurt my pride because he really did not understand me and my situation and just thought of his material gain.Sighs.

When I did a mistake regarding the location , ending up lost in the city which I was not familiar at all, especially at night when all the building are gray and similar. He blamed me for being implusive and just do without any thinking further.As a friend, instead of projecting my mistakes, he should at least give me some encouraging, nice and motivating words.I can work better under aura of positivity.I just sulked whole night.And yet he did not even apologized for his meanness.

Lastly, he kept saying about his friend and his good traits.Am I being comparable to his friend. That friend of his is tall,good looking,rich,smart,hunky,willing to chip in when they were on tour, would not go for cheap hotel and they had something in common in every aspect.I got it.Sorry, Ken.I was true blue capricorn.What message is he trying to convey when he mention his friend like almost every day, especially when he was going to go on tour with him to bangkok. Kinda of pissed off or I was just being sensitive.I guessed not.Being with him, really test my character, to be better person.I did not lose my tantrum or being bitchy.I kept my ego at bay.

At the end, I felt quite miserable.I did ask him whether he enjoyed the trip.It supposed to relaxing trip for him.It would better if I was working and there would be more communication.From that point. I was confused.Communication problems? Am I was not that accomodating enough?I really did not know.For my side, I enjoyed my trip , nevertheless especially all the goodness came to me.

It would be better if he stop saying something negative and bragging over certain issues and then mean them as a jokes.Life is so short, why be so negative.Or I just being so sensitive around me?

My capricorn bad traits shown during the trip
- snobbery makes me superior
- Over-zealous, and can be easily angered at slightest obstacle
- terminal ego case, with sincerbelief that I am infallible and can do no wrong
- impulsive
- suffer a perceived slight, I can harbour grudge for twice as long as forever.
- domineering

I really hoped the trip did not sour our friendship.And I hope he would understand the situation.I was not only a companion, but also one of his friends.Cos I'm worth it.Worse June holiday was really a terrible month for me

After spending whole day at Sunway Lagoon and long travelling time to Kuala Lumpur because of saving money.Ken started to get very irritated with me being so thrifty during the trip.At first place, I did not even have much money to go for trip itself.I was trying hard to be accomodating to his preference during the trip, but of course within my budget scope.And he was not happy with that.


We walked from Jalan Bukit Bintang to Puduraya despite it was raining.We had light bite at the station.We went for full body massage at Jaln Pudu Lama to ease off our mucle aches. It cost about RM80 for one and half hour session.My therapist, Faisal was very professional masseur. He really induced me to fall asleep during the session.I just being tired or relax.I did not know myself too.Then we walked back to hotel to freshen up.Then we went to Fish And Co to have our dinner.Then we hanged out at San Fransico Coffee cafe before going to club.

I just love clubbing scene.The people were just beautiful and friendly.My confidence and self- esteem was overwelming when I was overseas. I just smiled at any strangers. ken And I was somehow considered as eligible bachelors.We were quite being hit off or approached by several strangers in the club.I did not why I can do that oversea like Bangkok or Kuala Lumpur but Singapore. Singapore people are very plastic/superficial by the skin.Did I hurt anyone?

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Going for short trip to Kuala Lumpur with ken.As usual I was late to meet him at Jurong east Interchange.We took a bus 170 and stopped at the immigration departure hall directly but he forgot to draw some money for the trip, hence we had to walk, a very long way to the woodland interchange to search for DBS atm machine. Then we walked back to the departure hall to get our passport stamped.We took 170 bus to the Johore custom immigration hall.The queue was quite mild though. Once we reached larkin, we were approached by a guy whether we were heading to Kuala Lumpur. I thought of looking for best aka cheaper bargain.nevertheless, we took the bus as we wanted to reach kuala Lumpur as fast as possible.The ticket cost RM25; the bus was quite high standard and the seating was fantastic.Worth money.The journey took about one and half hour before we stopped at Ayer Hitam for toilet break.

We ordered Chicken Burger cost RM2.50.The rest of the food were not that appetizing especially when we saw some flies flying around the food.Unhygienic.The journey took about 5 hour. I managed to get some sleep in the bus.We reached Kl at 3.30pm. Once we reached Puduraya Bus interchange, we bought the return ticket at RM28 ( stop at Johore Bahru) then we took a train at Plaza Rakyat and then made a transit from Hang Tuah to Imbi( monorail) and stopped at Bukit Bintang ( monorail).we went to change some cash to ringgit ( rate: MYR2.206 for $1). We settled down at Town's View Hotel ( One night charged at RM65) for w hile.I guessed that Ken did not really impressed much about the hotel.

We had Hainanese Chicken Rice nearby (RM5.50 for steam chicken rice , RM5 for ommelete and RM4 for barley) . Then we walked around the Jalan Bukit Bintang for a while , headed to KLCC tower by taking monorail from Bukit Bintang to Nanas station. We still needed to walk down there but on the way there, we bumped into Zouk.It looked so chic.We have a dessert(Ice campur cost RM5.50 and Ken ordered Ice lemon tea at RM5.80) at Madam Kwan's. It was so horrible and I did not know who recommened me that they offered the best Ice Kacang. We walked around, then had some cinnamon stick at delifrance cost RM2.70. Then we took a train to Pasar Seni for Chinatown bazaar. I bought some Army cargo short for tommorow cost RM20 where Ken bought a short too at RM15.Nothing much different except they sell VCD now.I still prefer Chatuchak Market. However Chinatown market got wider and nicer range of shoes.Yet I had no money.

Here is the Astro Chart

Name: Esjay
January 2 1977
12:00 PM Time Zone is JT
Singapore, SING

Rising Sign is in 03 Degrees Aries
You are a free spirit and you must be first at everything you do.
Very energetic, self-assertive and active, things must be done your
way. Even though you may feel calm and serene on the inside, you
certainly do not act that way. You want to do everything full-tilt,
100 miles per hour! A great competitor, but a poor cooperator -- you
must learn how to lose more gracefully. Very self-confident,
ambitious and passionate, you radiate positive energy. You are blunt
and direct, but at times unfeeling and tactless, especially if
anyone offers you any resistance. You fight for your beliefs, but
your tendency to act first and think later often causes you much
grief.

Sun is in 11 Degrees Capricorn.
Extremely serious and mature, you are capable of accepting
responsibilities and do so willingly. Others expect you to be
dutiful as a matter of course. You tend to get angry when people get
rewards after not having worked anywhere near as hard as you. You
are goal-oriented and an achiever by nature -- you're a hard worker
and are justifiably proud of the tangible results of your efforts.
You tend to have "tunnel-vision" -- this allows you to block out
extraneous matters that might distract others and to concentrate
totally on the matter at hand. As such, you are the ideal one to
manage or administrate any ongoing project and to be practical and
efficient at it. You are not a fast worker, but you are quite
thorough. You are known for being totally persistent, tenacious and
tireless in reaching your goals.


Moon is in 04 Degrees Gemini.
Restless in the extreme, you are easily bored because of your short
attention span. Your emotions change rapidly and you love to talk
about your feelings. Generally, you have good judgment -- your
intellect controls your emotions and you do not overreact
emotionally to things. A good jack-of-all-trades, you have many-
sided interests and enjoy reasoning things through. With your mental
agility and need for physical mobility, you are attracted to
traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. You have
vivid powers of emotional self-expression - - you can be a nonstop
talker. You love to share your ideas with anyone who will listen.



Mercury is in 20 Degrees Capricorn.
You are a careful thinker, very cautious and conservative. You are
quite skillful at organizing, directing and planning activities.
Practical and useful things interest you -- you are not attracted to
abstract thoughts or ideas. With your tendency to be highly focused
and very goal-oriented, you have a good head for business. But
bewa re of a tendency to be narrow-minded and dogmatic. Your sense of
humor tends toward being earthy and slapstick crude.


Venus is in 27 Degrees Aquarius.


You are a friendly and outgoing individual, but close relationships
are difficult for you to maintain due to your fear that they will
cause you to lose your freedom. You attract friends and associates
who are exciting, different and sometimes a bit odd. You are popular
with others and enjoy working within a group toward group goals.


Mars is in 00 Degrees Capricorn.
Extremely ambitious, you are willing to work very hard to reach the
goals you have set for yourself. Very practical, cautious and
conservative, you demand tangible results for your efforts. You need
to excel in whatever you do, and you have the required sense of
responsibility, dedication and self-discipline to bring it about.
Beware of your tendency to judge others only by their degree of
status and prestige, or by how well they will be able to advance you
in your climb to the top.


Jupiter is in 21 Degrees Taurus.
Growth only occurs for you after you have found a stable lifestyle
and a dependable, protective and secure environment. You are at your
best when those around you provide you with a great deal of
affection and support. When you feel insecure or threatened, you
tend to become possessive and grasping and self- indulgent. You are
an inveterate collector with an expensive preference for all the
good things that life has to offer.


Saturn is in 15 Degrees Leo.
Extremely self-reliant, you set veryhigh standards of conduct and
decorum for yourself, and you expect others with whom you associate
to be that way, too. It is important that you had a strong father
figure or role model early in life to mold your life course and
direction. When you feel that those around you are unworthy or
behaving badly, you withdraw, preferring solitude rather than
associating with those who might besmirch your reputation.


Uranus is in 10 Degrees Scorpio.
You, and your peer group, demand to confront life at its deepest and
most meaningful levels. Very compulsive and obsessive in your
approach to everything, you will avoid anything that is casual or
superficial, especially when it comes to relationships. You will
seek out and explore new methods of healing as well as different
ways to deal with deep-seated emotional problems.



Neptune is in 14 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in
investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems
and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued
with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to
improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be
comfortable with the concept of the "global village."


Pluto is in 14 Degrees Libra.
For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in
society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships.
There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making
emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered
into lightly.



N. Node is in 01 Degrees Scorpio.
You have a special aptitude for working by yourself, or with a
like-minded group of dedicated individuals. Once you've committed
yourself to a person or group or project, your loyalty and devotion
are total until the group's goals have been realized. Not at all
gregarious by nature, you're uncomfortable around strangers, greatly
preferring to be in known and familiar situations. Others may regard
you as shy or eccentric, but those who know you well are aware of
the intense loyalty that you have to your friends.

Another Depressing task to do, After receiving the email from my indirect supervisor about my laziness and care-less attitude, I felt so guilty and worried.I went to school with the intention to do my FYP. I met so many familiar faces such as Beverlyn, Sabrina, Steven and other people whom I forget their names. Why Must I meet people when I need to be left alone today.I hated going to school and hated telling them that I did not graduate at all.I hated myself.

kien called me whether I would be interested in working as parttime cashier at Zara. My mind was total mess and i could now make any decision yet , or else he accused me of backing out last minute.I decided not to meet my indirect supervisor and maybe just email him the situation ( mostly some tales) about my disapperance. I decided to go to library to borrow some books.

1) The five minute healer ( a busy person's guide to vitality and energy all day, every day)
2) How to make your dreams come true
3) Super health detox
4) Change almost anything in 21 days ( recharge your life with the power of over 500 affirmations)
5) Men's fitness Magazine
6) Exercise for men only

It takes only one person to change your life.....you
There are parts of my life i would like to change.There are places I would like to go.Things I would like to do.I have been looking for a purpose in my life.I sometimes wonder why some people seem to get all the breaks when I got few or non at all.Life seems to be like an ongoing struggle.But I have to be willing to change.Or at least be willing to be willing to change.We can't always get what we want.Life just doesn't work that way.And, what we want is not always the best for us.But making only ONE difference in my life, my life can be better.I can have more of what I want. I can let go of my struggles. because I have the power to change and I'm worth it.

Today, I woke up feeling depressed..The sadness, loneliness, grief, and disappointment we all feel at times are normal reactions to some of the struggles of life.My depression doesn't lift after a few hours or a few days. Instead it lasts, and it can seem too heavy to bear. It also involves thoughts about death, negative thoughts about myself, a sense of worthlessness, a sense of hopelessness that things could get better, low energy, and noticeable changes in appetite or sleep.Seems the sky was falling down.

Truthfully, depression distorts my viewpoint, which allowed me to focus only on my failures and disappointments and to exaggerate these negative things. I was convinced that there is nothing to live for.There's nothing good about the present. The hopelessness can make it seem like there will be nothing good in the future; helplessness can make it seem like there's nothing I can do to change things for the better. And the low energy that is part of depression can make every problem (even small ones) seem like too much to handle.I lost myself today. Suicide was on my mind.But I was too beautiful to leave this world so fast.I went for a dip at pool afterthat.Trying to relax myself as well as recalling the moments that still hold me as a strong person.Problems just came too fast and together. June was really not my favorite month.Or maybe I just need someone to talk to.A dummy who just listened to my woes and cries and then forgot about them after that. Will I be stronger than yesterday. Now it's nothing but my way and My loneliness ain't killing me no more because I'm stronger!

Tonight I break a bad news to my mum that I need another semester hopefully ( I must clear this semester).I dare not see her face to face. I hate to see her disappointed. I was just lazy and care-free guy which I think I was regretted for my attributes. Somehow I have to tell the truth, no matter how hurt it was. I felt relieved, somehow.The burden of hiding the truth is terrible.It made me depressed, infintely.Sorry, Mum. I knew I was that young anymore.I felt such a failure.I need a shoulder to cry one!!!

Real Men Want and Need Male Friends

It can take a lot of courage and forthrightness even to have honest discussions about male friendship. There isn’t a great deal of support for it these days, but men still have friends and we still value them. Once we can get past the mental and emotional barriers we place in the way of male friendships, we can enter into them more freely and find real treasure in them.

Male friendship is incredibly important. The decline in its relative social stature seems to me to be either the cause of or a major contributing factor in many of the problems our society faces today. Men need male friends to give them support, model appropriate male behavior, and to lend a hand when they need help.

Our male friends offer us *a lot* of things that women just can't give to us. That's not a criticism or judgment of women; it's just reality.

For example, most men want to be affirmed as manly, being a man's man,being a man among men. Only other men can offer that to us.

Having male friends also lets us see how other men solve problems that are similar or even identical to our own. For me, at least, that helps me see that I am moving on the right track and that I'm doing what I can with the situation.

As problem-solvers, men offer support that often differs from the support we usually get from women. While women will often want to talk about how we feel when we're having trouble, other men will try to help us fix the situation. We need both approaches. Too much of just ''feeling" can be a problem, while just “doing” without any awareness and pushing away our emotions can harm us, too.

Male friends can also provide a safe space for the really difficult emotions such as anger. I certainly don't walk around in a rage all the time, but I have found that most women are afraid of men's anger, including mine. If I express the anger, they become extremely angry themselves, they withdraw, or they become really moody and difficult for me to communicate with.

By contrast, my male friends can often provide a safe "container" for my anger.They let me express it fully, but they also don't take any crap from me. They can keep me in line, often just by their strong presence.

Finally, everything I have read on the subject tells me that our sexual/intimate relationships will generally be *much better* if we have strong friendships with good male friends. Those friendships with other men don't take us away from our intimate partners. Instead, they help us to have some balance and to keep a masculine perspective..Male friends can also offer the friendly advice and coaching that we often find valuable in our intimate relationships because they often have had the same experiences.

In conclusion, male friendship is important to men, and important to society as a whole. Men want and need models for appropriate masculine behavior. We also crave the fellowship of other men in most areas of our lives. In addition to helping us in our relationships with women, strong male friendships can make us better fathers, sons, brothers, and friends.

It is very good article taken from http://www.stevesmidlifecrisis.com

Something to digest!

I met Samuel at Jurong East Station at 1pm. We had lunch at McDonalds at JEC before setting off to Church of St Mary and Angels at Bukit Batok Ave 5 to attend the burial ceremony of our good friend, Damien. We waited for Alex before proceeding to the hall. Actually, I breathed with difficulty inside especially those holy scent lingering around. A friend who just left so early at the age of 26.We all did not know the cause of the death - natural death, suicide or illness? We never knew.

We might focus on the spiritual more than the physical.Being there are powerfully value-clarifying experiences. Sometimes we are so close to the details of daily living we cannot see our lives whole. When we imagine ourselves at our own memorial service, living takes on a new dimension. We begin to realize we are not going to be here forever; what we wish to make of our lives we had better do so if we have not done so already. We see ourselves as other see us - if only in imagination. We sort out the consequential from the trivial. This is a perspective that we tend not to have in the crush and rush of daily routines.Will I be remembered? Will be I be grieved? Will my good friends and family be there to witness me?

During the ceremony, I set my mind thinking about the purpose of life especially when life is so fragile and short.Who are we anyway? What is our essence? Are we what we are now? Or what we have been? One day we will be at the last stage. Let us remember, let everyone remember that our lives are not simply what we are at the moment, for good or ill. We are the sum of the parts of an entire life. Please remember me the way I was.And I pretended to be immortal.We have the luxury of contemplating that celebration of our lives without expecting it to be right around the corner - but, who knows? Who can ever know?

I lost my concentration and I tried hard not to let my tears flow when i tried to recalled the happy moments with him in club, in gym and whenever we were togther.A guy who was always never forgot to smile and his cheerful personality brighten everyone's life including me. He is just being himself and well-liked. But gone too soon.Eric had lost his best friend forever.i did notice him wiping his tears occasionally during ceremony.Who will not get affected when the close or loved one left use forever.I begun to look at Alex and Samuel occasionally.I should start to treasue little things around me and friends.At last , I gave my good friend, Eric a condolence hugs and I was equally sad for the loss of a gem.

Gone Too Soon

Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon

Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon

Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night

Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon

Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon

Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon

Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night

Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon

We accompanied Alex for lunch at West Mall. Been a long time we had fun together.Then Samuel and I went to City Hall while Alex went back home who later would meet up with lily for dinner. We hanged out at Coffee Bean for awhile before meeting Samuel's friend.I just left home.Too tired when i reached home.End up sleeping.

I met Kien outside HMV and walked to Wisma Atria Zara to check out the clothes there.Zara had so many beautiful ranges of clothes , although the prices were quite steep.I guess Zara may be my Household brand for my wardrobe.After Kien tried some jeans.We walked to CK Tangs.Since it was a great singapore sale season, clothes especially branded ones had been slashed to affordable price yet I still cannot buy them.Somehow I did feel regret going to Bangkok trip.Imagine parading those clothes in school.Absolutely stunning!

Kien tried some clothes while I just browsed around since I did not have any cash with me.There is no point trying the clothes and then dumped them to one side.I ain't narcissist at all.Morever, I was quite lazy to take off my jeans as well as my top, it will ruin my well-sprayed hair.Worse, those lights in changing room can be very merciless to show my flaws in my body in obvious manner.I just admired those men who carried thousands of clothes, queueing up at the cashiers.I wondered when would be my turn to buy those clothes.Kien managed to get one jeans and a top.Morever he spent more than $80 which entitled him a Seed watch.Then we went to ground floor, headed to Jean Paul Gaultier section.Kien wanted to buy the Make up set.We were welcomed by this busty and beautiful salegirls named Yvonne and one guy who looks like Leslie Kwok minus the bod.After exchanging information about make up and application.I never know that I can be so knowledgeable about make-up. I ain't proud at all. We managed to get the free samples and gifts when Kien used me as a scapegoat for his jokes, which I did not mind at all because I stayed professional. Kien bought bronzer, concealer cum eye-liner plus those gifts which consist of after shave, shampoo, and others.

We went to have late lunch at Lucky Plaza and Kien was treating me Chicken Rice.So happy to hear him treat me a meal, at least I can save my money.Then Kien's girlfriends call him to go down to Bar None and ask me to join him.I wished to join but the entry fee cost $26.Where did I manage to get that amount of money? I felt quite disappointed not to go there with Kien friends, they were so happening girls. four of them somemore.Kien always lucky to get to know girls who club.Kien went back home and I went to meet Samuel.

I met him at Carrefour after his gym session nearby.I was actually not in the mood to go out since my hair was totally flat and as if it was just rebonded.Argh!We wallked to City Link when suddenly he craved for something sweet like waffle.We ended up at Crepes and Cream cafe.We ordered Scholazadae ( i think so ) and shared the ice cream.I did not really crepes as the serving was very small. After chatting, we went back home.

I did not wake up early again.Gosh I should quit my habit of staying late.I went to NUS McDonald to have lunch and to do some reading up.I realised that there is not difference at all to eat in NUS and Outside.The meal( Spicy Chicken meal) cost me $4.70.It was small ice lemon tea.Then I went to the the bench nearest the bus-stop to do some reading but then I could not concentrate at all when i was listening to music.Until Kien called me to meet up at Orchard Rd.I was stopped by the girl who asked me to fill up some marketing survey.While I filled up the survey, I realised that I seriously had no life at all.I got to know her better when she question me. " What will make you stop when you come across the roadshow?" She was actually a NTU business student who is doing internship in some big company who making a new brand of hot tea.Me, being expert in marketing strategy, did give her some relevant insight regarding the question.I even lied to her that I was NUS undergraduate.I speaked with confidence when she asked me about the NUS and some faculty location.BLeah!She is so sweet girl.Hope to bump her in south spine. grins! She thought I was not local.Yippee!

I was late as going to town at peak period (6-8pm) was really a bad choice for travelling.The bus frequency is slow and the traffic was horrendous.We had some light dinner at Lucky Plaza ( The $2 food court at 6th floor) I had $2 carrot cake( black) and Kien had chicken rice at $3. Then we went to the CK Tangs to look for the Jean-Paul Gaultier Makeup Kit for men. We found it and they came in very JPG style - trendy. It contained bronzer, deodarant, concealer, eyeliner, lip gloss, 3 shade of lipstick, aftershave, perfume, nail polish and instant perk-up face spray.Most item cost more than $40.I definitely won;t buy such product.It was so irrelevant. Morever, the shop assistant who was a girl did not even know what the product about.I seemed to be more knowledgeable about it and I was not proud of myself though. I read the product before and was keen to see and try it out until I saw them myself today.Verdict: Waste of money.No suitable for guys!except concealer and perfume.Maybe the rest could easily replaced with similar products at reasonable price.

Then went to Isetan Scotts to check the same products.We ended up stopping at Clarins counter.We were busy browsing the Men Clarins product until the lady ask whether we needed help.We just asked for equiries regarding the products.She decided to give us sample to try on.I was like....wow! Freebies.

1) ClarinsMEN Undereye Serum
2) ClarinsMEN Moisture Gel
3) ClarinsMEN Active face wash
4) ClarinsMEN Total wrinkle control

She asked us whether we stay in singapore. I bluntly, batting my eyelide said that we did not stay around here.I realised that She asked us that whether we are singaporean, local.Ooops! I said that we live in Singapore.She told we were some kind of tourists coming here to visti singapore.Plus we gave our name , the most unqiue names to her.No wonder! Don't blame us for looking exotic.Very fruitful shopping trip without spending money.Then we went back home.

I woke up late again, wasting my time.I went to school, doing my FYP project, realising I forgot everything What I wrote last month and my indirect supervisor would be coming back tommorow.I did not even know how to operate the oven.I was totally wasted my time at the lab.Why am I so useless?I just went back home at 3pm to eat.I hated to see people in the school.It was so dead. I supposed to meet Nick, Keith, Desmond and Terence for bowling.But then Terence had no interest in bowling and they did not personally invite me.Hence , I just stay at home rotting.I saw several pictures of Union Orientation Camp which I was reluctant to go.It was a the most bad experience those years.I lost my digicamera in the sea.Devastated.I should be thankful that Kailing, hung Yong, Hui Hui, Julia, beverlyn and other senior were there.Did some fun though.

This will be the last orientation camp 03

Express Yourself

I went back to school after I got a call from General Office to request me to meet the subject co-ordinators personally regarding my problem.I made a call, to realise that they were not around so I just send an email with a desperate ' I want to graduate' tone. Prof Yeo Soon Huat also lost faith in me when he saw my result of M438, Quality Assurance - One of the most easiest Subject to score an A.I am stupid and I got D.Neither thrilled nor upset about it.I went for a vist to my Lab.There were so many vistors so I just went back home.

I just watch Shrek 2, 50 First Dates and Half of Kill Bill 2 which I just downloaded from my friend FTP sources.So thrilled.I did not miss any show at all then.Then I promised to meet Kien around 8.30pm at Raffles Place.He just finished his IPPT test.I heard he did not do well and morever today was his last window day for ippt.I also getting worried about my running.I called Terence to meet us at Clementi RD. We had dinner at Foon Seng Stall ( Nasi Lemak stall as usual) And countdown for Kien's birthday. So many June kids. I also smsed a birthday greeting to Keith who was coincidently had same birthdate as Kien.We had fun, just a simple birthday celebration. How I wish i had money to make it better.

So if the time isn't right then move on
Second best is never enough
You'll do much better baby on your own

Express yourself
[You've got to make us]
Express ourselves
So if you want it right now, make us show you how
Express what we got, oh baby ready or not

excerpt from Express Yourself /Madonna

How to make a esjay

Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 3 parts brilliance 5 parts beauty

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of lovability and enjoy!

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Personality cocktail
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Subject registration is other torturous event in University life. It was like playing stock market in library.People just desperately to get their ideal timetable, end up disappointed for not getting the places or maybe even with their friends or other half.Then things start to get messy.So many clashes.Re-do. End up meeting up with subject co-ordinators.Stressful and iriitating moments at times. I could not get my M443 and M454 ( prescribed Elective) and I had to take this non-engineering modules and Both involved in management.I love management subjects.It will be so relevant when one hit the workforce.

Supposedly to do my FYP was pended to other day.I have to look for Prof Yeo Soon Huat.He was only professor I visited the most.Nice guy but then he could not help me much regarding the prescribe electives.I ask me to fill up the overload form and request form at the General Office.How much I try to convinced the Dean about how deseprate I am to get out of the school bullshitting the the fact that I would excel in the subjects which aroused my interest.Yeah right! Studying , my interest! Bleah!To conclude, my june holiday would be a very boring as well as terrible month.

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Samuel called me to go to Sentosa.Been a long time I came to Sentosa, especially on weekend.Terence always invited me for beach volley ball session at sunset bay but I always rejected because I did not have tanned and toned bod to show off there.But since It was a birthday boy's request.Why not?

The weather was so hot and nice;The beach was crowded with families and hunks in floral bermudas as well as babes in bikinis.It was some kind of theraupatic to just enjoy the sea, scorching sun and the artificial sands.After that we went to Changi Airport to have dinner.Samuel wanted to try the chicken meal at Popeyes.And of course I recalled my bangkok trip with the girls.Very beautiful moments that time.How I wished to leave Singapore and went overseas and established my self there - Bangkok, Malaysia or Australia.I just find Sinagpore is just to small and restricted place to pursue my dream, although it was one of the safest place to stay.Dreams vs Safety?

I went home and realised that I was NOT selected into top 10.I was quite disapointed again and again.I did not how to pull through in this month.It was such a miserable month.Am I that ugly?Or I did not have much supporters?My other friend add more misery to lowest point of my moral when I told him about the issue. Luckily ,Bee lan and Terence tried to console me. Nothing wrong chasing the dreams, take it as experience.Yes, it was truth but I might be another disapointment to my parents.I did not dare to tell my mum two bad news.I wondered if she could take the blow.I am so useless.I was really demoralised.Worse tommorow was going to be another depressing day as it was a subject registration day.I felt so terrible.Should I give up?

Today was Singapore Idol second Audition, nothing much to thrill about.And today I had never been much truthful too. Been moving around many place today.Met up with samuel for a relaxing session today. To get rid of those meaningless and negative thoughts I had previously.Went to the pool to undergo some water therapy, end up being disturbed by noisy kids who had their swimming lesson every weekend.Then we just chill out somewhere quiet to talk about our future - what will happened next.So far I know my future sucks. 12am struck and I just greet happy birthday wish to samuel.

The suppressive person may be the life and soul of the party. They may appear to be well dressed, popular and successful. They may even have a lot of charisma. On the other hand, they may appear as a victim of society, with poor health, little money and a bad appearance. You cannot recognise them on looks or talent. But have a listen to the WORDS that they use and you will see that they are more interested in putting people down than pulling them up.I am one of the supressive people.

Putting other people down just to look and fel god, is not the good way to build self-confidence.My life somehow is screwed-up.I'm still very much a loser. Not that that's news, but it just makes me depress. And a bit disappointed.I had been trying to be someone I'm not. Even if I try I won't change.Yet I just could not accept it.That's kind of sad.Where is all my capricorn/dragon good traits.I am ain't that young and worse never achieved much in life.

My confidence hardly put in good words at the moments.Despite having tuition, I'm not doing well in my recent tests at all.Life is terrible at the moment

DE

I just learnt , today that telling lie is such a terrible thing to do, yet I am not going to be honest about it up front--and could not explain why it was done.I met Ms Hilda, My marketing tutor.She is such a beautiful lady who sports new hair color.I hardly recognized that she was my tutor.I met so many familiar faces, who always asked me whether I had found a job.As if I graduated liao! That is where I start telling lies.

Sometimes,it's good to be not so well-known.You know, you just have to be yourself.You don't need to please everyone, try to do anything to be accepted by the norm of high class society.Cannot afford to do anything silly or embarassing.So restriction just to achieve popularity or even acceptance.No matter what, networking is so essential in Singapore if your want to fly high to achieve your goals.For example, I got quite several job offers through networking but then I am still not a graduate yet. It would be better to make a right networking, proper connections. That is why I always attend some parties, or clubbing or any important gathering.Let them know how and when you met them, how much you enjoyed the meeting and what you need by way of advice. Most people are quite flattered that you have kept their contact information and that you value their advice. You can use all of these positive feeling to forge new, strong professional relationships.Except I did not have any name cards yet.

Raining

what a beautiful day today, It was raining when I woke up.Hence I just needed more sleep.The weather was so cooling and inviting.I totally wasted my whole day doing nothing.Supposedly to meet Edmund to go zouk when suddenly he had some urgent matters to do.I just fickled my remote to change the channel at the rate of 3 channel/per second.I just wasted my time, worse I did not have any single cent to go out.

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived.I go up, I come down, and I'm emptier inside.
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing and why can't I let it go?I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly Here in this moment, I'm halfway out the door.
On to the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing.I wondered what.There's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me.
Cuz the more that I'm trippin' up thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure. There's gotta be more than wanting more.My life gone haywired.

I believe

It takes guts for me to check my result.I really had fear of doing badly in my examination especially Industrial Electronic and Material science. No matter what, I still had to face the reality.The moment i opened it, I was overjoyed.I managed to clear all my subject for first time.Thank God!The results were not that satisfying though but I did not complained at all.Sighs! I did not even shared my joy with anyone , even including my mum.I still need to clear other subjects including my FYP which I did not even start yet.Nevertheless, I was truly blessed.Time to sharpen my weapon for next semester.

I Believe


Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
See I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally yeah

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally I believe
Yes I believe

Ohh Yeah

Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me
I said Love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me higher
Said love keeps liften me higher
I said love keeps liften me high

Alive

Today I receive a sms from Samuel that he took a MC.That was a good thing since it gave him time to unwind from his work once a while and think about his future.I did not check my result today because I did not want to spoil my day today.Worse I had been slacking doing my FYP thingy.

I met Samuel at Redhill MRT station, with a delay of 30 minutes ( late ).I was quite worried that he might get angry which did not happened.Kinda of relieved.We tanned a while and did some laps before leaving,It was crowded at Delta pool with students, kids and guys with buff bods, leaving me envious.Reality check to train again.

We went to eat something before going to City Hall (HMV).The transition from acquaintance to friendship occurs gradually. We reach out to offer friendship by offering a potential friend caring, listening, talking, sharing, accepting, and affirming. It takes time and effort to build a friendship. They are built slowly, slowly, slowly...But somehow we just like a old friends who had not meet up for long .Seems that we had so much things to catch up and shares same goals or dreams.Friends are needed both for joy and for sorrow.Thanks for the companion, nevertheless.We went back home at 7.45pm by MRT.

I went to meet WH at 2pm at Suntec to accompany him to the audition.I went to the Esplanade library to chill out and did some weekly plan.Sometimes, it did feel good being alone.I can enjoy peace and tranquility.Being alone is just part of who I am.It is so hard to be comfortable with anyone sometimes.I thought of beautiful things like God, love, friends, music and me. It was beautiful moment especially when someone play piano on the spot there.I'll find the process meditative, and I had a lasting results to show for my efforts.

WH called me that he could not make it through the auditions.I was quite shocked with the results.I just met him up at Suntec convention Hall.I guessed he was really quite dissapointed a little. Me too.

To WH,

Being not accepted doesn't mean you're a failure,
it does mean you haven't succeeded yet.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you haven't accomplished something,
it does mean you have learned something.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you've been a fool,
it does mean you have a lot of faith.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you've been disgraced,
it does mean you were willing to try.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you don't have it,
it does mean you have to do something in a different way.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you're inferior,
it does mean you're not perfect.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you've wasted your time,
it does mean you have a reason to start fresh.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you should give up,
it does mean you should try harder.

Being not accepted doesn't mean you’ll never make it,
it does mean it will take a little longer.

Being not accepted doesn't mean God has abandoned you,
it does mean he has a better way..

 
At least you were much better than me.We went to Pacific Coffee Cafe to sit down and had drinks.HE told me that he changed the song last minute, He did make several shouting and also the nerves.Well, I just smiled because only my smile is the gift for him at that moment.He did not need constant consoling.He was a strong guy. Just little disappointed.Then we walked towards Raffles Place until he invited me to his house to chill out. He always liked taking taxi.Waste money.We continued to watch the Sex and the City until I receive constant sms from kien and terence to meet up. So I left early to meet up them but end up i was being late.Sighs.

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Live Update from SC at 12am regarding the Singapor Idol.he told me that there was quite a long queue at Suntec City and they were giving out the sticker. Suddenly his phone gone blank.Denyse was there already too.I tried not to sleep even though WH would give me a wakeup call.I afraid I just could wake up once dozed.But once I sat down on my sofa, I dozed off.My body was being set to wake up at 6am automatically.So I smsed WH at 6.15am when he promised me to call me at 6am. I met him at Buona Vista MRT station to accompany him to Suntec City.It was quite exciting event for me even though I did not join the audition.It was raining so I called SC.He still at NK's house because he could not sleep outside the Suntec City,morever it was raining very heavily.Such bad-timing! Must a curse for those who queued up overnight ended up being drenched in rain.

WH and I had a breakfast at McDonalds, I guessed people who had breakfast also joined for the auditions.Then we went to the queue.I did see a lot of beautiful poeple, familiar faces, good friends and interesting characters.I felt so different when I was in the queue.I passed the breakfast to SC when I bumped into few people.WH met his friends while I busy clicking at Gurmit Singh ( He looks so young ) and Jean Danker ( She is so beautiful ) as well as the crowds.Overwhelming.I definitely did not want to miss the chance to be part of Singapore Idol crowd.I left temporarily WH at Suntec City because I had Photo shoot at Chinatown.

Actually, I left quite early though so I just dozed off at the MRT station bench.Then I went to People Park Center toilet to do some changing of clothes and hairstyling.I was quite early;I felt quite bad since I came too early and disturb their breakfast.I just sat down while waiting for the rest.ShortCut, I just could not click with other contestants.I just could not please anyone,but i just being polite and smile throughout.We had photoshoot outside which was quite irrelevant plus the interview that may cost me a loss of position next week.I seriously did not have a charismatic image.ARgh!I just did my best.I called my mum about the interview how nervous I am in front of camera.I must work on it.

SUNTEC CITY QUEUE

I went back to Suntec City and met SC who just finish his audition.He made it through adn of course I was quite surpised.Amazing.We had lunch at Bugis since WH was still in queue 2.Edmund called me and I asked why he did not join the Singapore Idol as he got nice , powerful voice.Instead, he just laughed and laughed over it.He should try.Edmund, there is always next year.I went to HMV, listening to music.I was getting bored and tired.Worse, my toes were full of blister after continously wore the wet shoes.What can I expected from a pair of shoes bought at Bangkok.I could not take it so I took a MRT home until SC called me asking me where I was.He had to come back Tommorow for the audition at 3pm.Gosh! It was really waste of time waiting and standing for long hours. He and I met at Outram Park.

The Singapore Idol

We sat down and chatted a while at Banquet near Chinatown.I had coffee while he had ice coffee and share Kaya bread.He asked me about SC's outcome.Then we walked towards the Raffles Place until he suggested me to chill out at his house.We took taxi.I had fun at his house, watching Honey, Beyonce 's Concert and Sex and The City. Then we went out to Holland Village BK to have some bite and chatting away whatever under the sun.It was really a great time to have one company who share same interest sometimes.He paid for my cab fares to home.I just so tired that I just went to bed without changing my clothes.Totally concuss.

Names and Picture were omitted for respect the privacy of the people involved

COLOUR ME BAD

Your Existing Situation
Pursues his objectives and his own-self-interest with stubborn determination; refuses to compromise or make concessions.

Quite true, I do make my own plans even if my parents were against me.I insisted on doing things my way even it will cause embarassment or waste of time, money


Your Stress Sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, he pursues his objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting his nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels he can only be at peace when he has finally reached his goal.

Very true, I did not satisfied with the present and I think improvement will only make more experienced to fullest.I had stressful life, though


Your Restrained Characteristics
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.

Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity providing no turmoil or emotional agitation is involved.

Insists that his goals are realistic and sticks obstinately to them, even though circumstances are forcing him to compromise. Very exacting in the standards he applies to his choice of a partner.

Egoistic, Stubborn,Stressful me


Your Desired Objective
Desires a tranquil, peaceful state of harmony offering quiet contentment and a sense of belonging.

I m longing for sense of belonging and a real peace but in singapore


Your Actual Problem
Needs to achieve a stable and peaceful condition, enabling him to free himself of the worry that he may be prevented from achieving all the things he wants.

THAT IS MY REAL PROBLEM


taken from www.colourquiz.com , it was so true about me

WORDS

One of the the most common terms used by me and my friends to describe is LOSER.That's not a description but a label.When we are taken in by a label, we are taken by opinions and beliefs.That is, we willingly accept statements without evidence of their validity.The assumptions become stereotypes,which beacome put-downs.Before one know, we are engaged in name-calling or verbal abuse.

Hence, the use of labels is more than unfair.it is hurtful as well.It hurts me when I read my friend's blog regarding me and my friend.It bothered me so much to see him deframe us who can't help whatever is being said about us.Hopefully,if he see it put into words, he'll read and realise how stupid it is to use strong words to describe or even stereotype them in his own opinions.

The power of words.We supposed to do more than avoid using them to diminish others.Instead we should use them to encourage and inspire them.I was quite pissed off when i read the blog.It really ruined my reputation or intrude my privacy.There should be a etiqette in every thing we do, even writing a journal online.It is global for sure.Anyone anywhere bound to read your blog and from there, one can easily use the power of words to eitheir ruin you or save you.

Words, they cut like a knife.Cut into my life.I don't want to see your words.They always attack.Please take them all back.If they're yours I don't want anymore But your actions speak louder than words.And they're only words, unless they're true.Your actions speak louder than promises.You're inclined to make and inclined to break.I caught you at your game.You will not bring me shame with your words

Too much blinding light
Your touch, I've grown tired of your words
Words, words
A linguistic form that can meaningfully be spoken in isolation
Conversation, expression, a promise, a sigh
In short, a lie
A message from heaven, a signal from hell
I give you my word I'll never tell
Language that is used in anger
Personal feelings signaling danger
A brief remark, an utterance, information
Don't mince words, don't be evasive
Speak your mind, be persuasive
A pledge, a commitment, communication, words

Words, Madonna

Today is Vesak Day.My mum is making Indian rojak.Yippe! Food galore!I lazed on my sofa while waiting for the meal.I was totally quite bored.I sent my mum to my granny's house to share her rojak among my aunties and My grandparents.Today I felt quite fulfilled, because I was holding a baby without difficulty.I really wondered why I was so at ease holding a baby.Signs of future?!That I won't get married?Even if I got married,I won't have kids of own?Have tens of them?Or Died before I fulfil the role of father?Paranoid!

Then I went to fetch Kien, with objective of washing the car.But then, by the time I reached there,It was 8pm.Worse,the East Coast Park was very crowded, especially at the Food Village.We changed into running attire and start to run towards the McDonalds.During the run, I did make some pause, long ones.I still continued after being motivated by Kien.At some point, I just could not endure another meter.My stamina was really from bad to worse.After the bangkok trip, the every day stress and no desire to go gym, I had to start afresh again, being unfit.Maybe I could do it, just my mind was not strong enough to push my body hard.Time to improve.East Coast park was very crowded with Families and students ( On holidays). Coral island beach was much better than here.Bleah!I missed the sand, clear sea and the rain *wink*

I really wonder why ECP board promote open shower.It was somehow very kinky ,taking shower in open.But of course we still kept our modesty by wearing our shorts.How I wished to bathe in nude,just like those kampung days.So Carefree and rule-bending moments.I drove to the Geyland Serai S11 for a dinner.I ordered Mee Goreng whereas Kien ordered Western Food.After eating, I went to fetch Terence at Paya Lebar MRT station, then went ahead to fetch David at Kallan Mrt Station.While approaching the Indoor stadium, the traffic was getting heavy and and increasing number of people.I really wondered why I suggested to meet him at Kallang Station after the Faye Wong Concert.EverSince the Nicoll Highway Collapse, there was too much detour and closure of road.It took a while to reach Kallang MRT, until I received David's call that he was being sent by his friend to Paya Lebar.BLEAH!!!I had to travel back to paya Lebar again to fetch him.Luckily each of them chipped in some money for petrol.I was quite pleased.

Then we went to Bedok Rd S11 for dinner since Terence and David was very hungry.I could not find the Prata shop Barry recommended, and would skip the expensive cafe at Siglap Road.After that, we went for a cruise around the Singapore.Been a long time, four of us met up and had fun together although David had a Lab the next day.I had fun.So were they.Anyway I managed to chat with Terence's friend for while.I might meet him this saturday for Singapore Idol Audtion.He claimed that he looked like Edison Chan.Impressive instant? Not sure!At last Destination was a Nasi Lemak Stall at Clementi Stall. This time, Kien and David were getting tired and bored.I was still hyperactive.But then I send them back home with my American Idol Season 3 playlist.

E	Enchanting
S	Sweet
J	Jealous
A	Appealing
Y	Yucky

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While wating for my sister's return from Johore.I broke my promise of meeting Samuel at 10pm at Eunos.I ended up meeting him at Buona Vista Mrt Station at 11pm.Surpisingly, he did not even show a angry attitude, but was so chirpy.He was being selected for the choir and would be performing at the end of the year.Congrats!He began to cite Do RE ME FA SO LA TI DO rythmn.Errr!!Thanks Goodness, We both watched American Idol 3 and lucky for me, I burnt CD of all the AI3 singers.Samuel rather listened to Latoya London's singing. We ended up at Changi Runaway.Samuel asked me to listen his vocal talent, asking for my opinion, truthful one.He sang SuperStar( carpenters), Mastrerpiece ( Atlantic Starr), One last cry (BRian MCknight).I told him that his voice did not suitable for RnB song like R Kelly, Brian Mcknight or Babyface.He sound better when he sang pop/jazz songs.I told him to be himself, did not try to follow the origiinal singers' style.Just Be himself.We had fun,singing and enjoying each other company,listening to our favorite songs.I sent him back home at 2.30am, lending me Babyface album and LIsa Stanfield.Sorry Samuel, I did not like Babyface much.