Tired

Today, I wake up early but I do not don the glamourous clothes today because I am not in the healthy mood to do so. I reach school at 9.15am and have fried rice for my breakfast. Then I spent whole day preparing my A4 cheat sheet for the exam later.

I do not expect such things occur to me last minute. I am so stressed up trying to compile everything and even do some last minute reading up on ten-years series.

I know this will be coming, I have stomachace again - it means I need to shit. Apparently I hate to shit in public toilet , hence I use the most secluded area to have my privacy. Then I continue scribbling last minutes formulae or workings on my cheat sheet before proceeding to exam hall.

I bump into Gary, I feel quite embarassed actually. I manage to finish the paper but whether it is relevant is other issue. While doing my exam, the marker ( the invigilator who mark attendance ) is impressed with my cheat sheet. He does not know that exam is in progress and he is distracting me. I am still polite enough to say thanks to him.

After that, I quickly rush out of the exam hall, buy my dinner and go home. Then I take a long nap because I really do not think to go to california gym and work out my body when I am down with illness. I do not think I want to torment my body which is already stressed out.

Time to start planning what I am going to do in May.
1) Clean up my room and maybe makeover for my house
2) Start typing my CV and job-hunting
3) Have a party at Laysie's house
4) Have some adventures sports or water sports
5) Get in shape back again
6) Go overseas to Kuala lumpur , bangkok or maybe HongKong
7) Go rollerblading with Bee Lan, Hui Hui and brandon
8) Chill out at Sentosa
9) Do some charity
10)Establish Networking

sick

I still not feeling well today. I spend my whole morning sleeping , maybe to recuperate my tired body. This is bad actually. I am not being so productive today.I wake up ay 12.40pm and have a brunch while watching the show.

No on can predict the future.Hence I plan for future.But whatever I plan, it just not meant to be working that way. We have always done very well at modeling our future.We take the privilege of time given to us, to stay proscratinate in doing the important work and when things go wrong along the way, we blame ourselves, adding more pressures and problems.

But so what I define and choose the ideal and plan for it but do not do in my way. I must not be ashamed to learn from the stubbles.We are the creatures who make plans, look into the future, decide what we want, and plan to accomplish it. Events intervene. Circumstance change.Our desire change. And so where we actually wind up is often quite different than our origibal destination.Sometimes things seem to work out far better than we ever could have planned. And sometimes, alas, there is tragedy. Hence, just put more faith in God and ourselves. Maybe God has a better directive for us, just that we do not aware of.

So I just think positive and travel to King Alber Park McDonalds to do my revision as well as have a decent lunch there. Apparently, it is a wrong move actually. The place is very crowded and warm. As usual, I lost my concetration and just leave two hours later to go home.

I do some on and off going revision while watching tv. I decide to stay late to finish up whatever I find important and hit the sack at 2am. I learn today that I can let go of what lies behind, be totally forgiven for all my wrongdoing, and enjoy the awesome future God had planned for me since before the beginning of time.Mistakes are usually made when we plan. Mistake have values, we learn from them.

What author and speaker John C. Maxwell had to say about mistakes are:

Messages that give us feedback about life.
Interruptions that should cause us to reflect and think.
Signposts that direct us to the right path.
Tests that push us toward greater maturity.
Awakenings that keep us in the game mentally.
Keys that we can use to unlock the next door of opportunity.
Explorations that let us journey where we've never been before.
Statements about our development and progress.

I still planning for my future and put faith in it.

M463

Today, I am preparing the unknown battle with certain knowledges but not confident of winning it.

I go to Gek Poh ville CC to use their study room to do last minute revision. I wait for this auntie to finish talking on phone for 15 minutes and she just says sorry as easy as ABC.She does not know the importance of time for me at this moments. I just give her a catty look and proceed up. I just did only 1hr of revision and go back home. Talking about a quickies.

The more I revise, the more questions I ask and these lead to more doubts and then more stress because more questions are unanswerable.I do my best actually. I have my lunch at home and get ready to go school. Today, I wear Zara shirt with a pink cap. I go out and seek attention again. I reach school early, therefore have another quickies of revision at Canteen B before going to Hall L. My heart is pumping hard whenever the time keeps running.

I walk to hall L, bump into Kailing and Eileen at the entrance. I even see that bitch in pink.How coincident! The paper is really really tough.Luckily Gary told me to study velocity diagrams yesterday. I spent half hour flipping the paper and canceling the things I suppose to write down. I am not that confident at all. I really hate fluid engineering. I want to graduate. It is really two and half hours of mental torture. It drains my energy and kills my brain cells in minutes.

After that, I quickly rush out and take a bus 179 at canteen A. I bump into someone whom I am not keen to have a conversation - my ex neighbour in hall 12. He also takes same paper as mine and this is the only paper he takes but he is working outside. He tells me that no matter how well prepared one study for this paper, the questions can never be similar to the tutorials and ten years series.

I buys some snack at Old Chang Kee stall and take a train to Somerset to att5end Hatha Fusion Yoga, with the hope to destress my mind and body. Apparently. it is not. It is so pressurizing when you realise that you have a stiff muscle and cannot do most of the postures during the session. Plus, Mazie notices me and shouts - you in green singlet, must try , no matter what, go and try out. It is ok if you cannot do but try. I am perspiring like hell and she asks me to do those sorts of posture which deems impossible for me. I just love seeing ehr doing those posture but when i look at myself in the mirror - I look like a doll with dysfunctional limbs. Very ugly sight

Then i continue my cardio - body combat after that. The class is damn crowded and I cannot even do any high jumps or kicks. I sweat it out like nobody business despite feeling a little uncomfortable suddenly. I skipped the warm down and go for a shower to cool down my warm body. Then I made a mistake by going to steamroom , with intention of burning the love handles.

Once I go home, I feel feverish. plus the aircon in the bus make me feel more sick and I am down with flu and cold. From this moment, I am sick. I should not go to gym and work it out, but instead go home and catch up with my sleep. Bad moves. I keep sneezing and sneezing during the journay. I look and feel bad alright.

I sleep early today and skip those snacks and food my mum bought from outside. No appetitie.

monday

Today, Nothing much to but revision on this chapter I really hate. I go to Gek Poh Vill CC to use the study room and study and this time almost whole day.

I go back home and have a dinner. After that I play with my cat. During that time. I got a nasty bump on my forehead after a knock on the sharp edge of the pillar near the kitchen.I just get a instant headache. It starts to get swollen and i show it to my mum. My mum is damn shocked to see a large bump and immediately ask me to put warm pressure on my forehead to reduce swelling. I thought I must put cold pressure but then my head is very heavy and I know my mum knows best.

The swelling does subside a while but then I still ahve to continue doing my revision. I go back to school to study. I buy some snacks again from Old Chang Kee along the way. I did some revision when Gary comes towards me. I am surpised to see him here again , just like me. Gary is the first guy I know and talk to in NTU. He is one of the freshmen in Zuwa group during the Student Union Orientation Camp. What shocks me that I am indian from him as he has an indian friend who looks like me. *roll eyes*

We both discuss about M463 and he tells me that in turbomachinery, we does not need to memorise formulae but just contruct the diagram which I do not bother much. I heed his advice and start revising. I finish my revision at 3am and start to walk home again. This time, it is not a pleasant journey home because I feel not well suddenly and this worries me.

I go home and take expired flu tablets and panadol before going back home.

Revision

Today I decide to revise my stuff at school. No more travelling to King Albert Park. I go to Banquet foodcourt to but my chicken rice as lunch and take a bus to canteen B.It is quite crowded with student mugging around and of course they are strangers to me.

The weather is cool as it is raining. Somehow it is fruitful day for me today. Hopefully. Eventhough I favour study group, I must comfortable to study alone as it is hassle free and less distracting.but of course, study group is more fun and effective, with the members of the same objectives and right attitude. For my years of study in NTU, I do not adopt study group at all, only peer to peer group. And coincidently, I always do my revision with my friends not from my faculty but other like CEE ,Guziel b, Ridz and Terence.

But I need help, I definitely look for Hung yong as he is like my lifeline in NTU. I must contribute and honour him one of the days as I miss his birthday somehow.

Then I go back home, have a dinner, rest awhile before going back to school again to study. i skip my jogging regime as Derek is going to meet me later at NTU. I go to jurong point to buy my favourite snacks at Old Chang Kee and a butter buns from 711 stores. My calculator batteries go flat and i cannot do anything much actually. I have consistent distraction from my handphone, losing my mood to study. Derek manage to get to canteen B with my instruction in direction. It is nice of him to accompany me in canteenfor awhile but I know it will be unproductive because i can be very chatty at times. Maybe i am just lonely, especially on sunday night.

Nice to have someone around to accompany me.

He scolds me for losing my concentration in my studies due to constant distraction of smses. I decide to go back home with him at 1145pm. We walk together through the Nanyang Gardens and to the bus-stop near City Harvest Church. We take bus 99 home.

How can we rate friendship and by what? Times to ponder.

weekend

Another weekend spend in library. I go to school , hope to compile the formulae. I bump into kailing near photocoply room, also doing her revision with her friends on upper level. I wish to join her in the group but i need a computer at the moments. Kailing is such a darling to tell me about things not to learn and what to learn. These are very important to me. After that, I get more confusion regarding the relevance of M463 or M403. I remembered I studied wrong and extra topic which do not appear in the exam paper which secure me a failure. I do not want to repeat history again.

Those sorting up make me stressed out and I do not even compile my formulae at all. I go back home to rest my brain cells.

As usual, I go back to canteen B and mug there overnight, with strangers. And old chang kee snacks. I am going to expand horizontally.

At peace

Today i purposely woke up late for no reason. Once I woke up, i do not even decide whether to have breakfast. I am not that keen to have one actually when suddenly I had lost appetite in the morning. That is unusual.

I go to buy two packets of chicken rice and banana fritters at Jurong West St 42 and take bus 99 to go home. After relaxing, I go to Gek Poh CC to study but am told that study room is not in use due to repairs of the door. What am i going to do now? I do not feel like travelling far, hence just have my revision at McDonalds . i know it is going to be tough to concerntrate in just noisy environment. After that I took a rest awhile before going to school later at night.

It is nice to let go a burden off the chest . I have a heart to heart talk with a friend just now. His problem he is facing is similar to what i am facing, what I mean is i can relate to his problem. I am quite skeptical to share my feelings that have been bottled up in my heart until i decide to let go everything like the volcano eruption. And i feel lighter and happier. To share problems with someone who can understand. It is like theraupatical experience. I always like to think that I can go my own and meet them along the way but I am wrong. The burdens are so heavy, they really drained my energy . Maybe I am just in despair or desperate.

I am not going to know if I'm right or wrong or even not sure which way to go because we are going in the same direction , despite many choices. We are just looking for answers that are vaguely showing along the way. Anyway We both promise not to share our own secret to anyone. It will be buried inside our heart.

I take bus 179 to canteen B and I keep bumping to my ex-fyp researcher. I really hate meeting people like him. It make me more miserable. before that, I go Mcdonald to buy fish fillet, then a butter buns plus a cup noodle for my late night stay. It is very crowded at canteen B. I start to do my revision while munching away my food I bought. I know I am going to go on binge diet again. Around 3am, I decide to go home, alone.

Walking home with my favourite music, set my mind thinking. I am not in favour to night because night relates to darkness, no hope, death and coldness. But of course the good about night is peace and serenity. While I am walking towards the gate, the taxi stop beside me. i realise that Mingwei is inside the taxi and offer me a ride home, Appareantly, i am pleasantly shocked to see him at NTU premise, secondly my mind is seriously not workable. Hence i reject his offer and smile like an idiot. I am stoned actually. Anyway, it is nice of him to do that to me even though I am more than glad to hop into the taxi. Why i reject his offer, I am tired perhaps. He is another guys with a lot of good karma, Lucky guy indeed.

I continue walking and walking with my songs being played. Not saying that I am being renewed and reformed to better person but I am being thankful that I am still alive now. I set my mind to believe, bear and hope for better future if I work hard and being more devoted to God's teaching. The world we are living is just a cage for us, there is no paradise on Earth. We still grow old and be dead. No immortality. i should follow God's teachings and endure all those oppressionor my own mind. Anyway, the mother nature is getting crazy nowadays.

But fear and terror will not come near me to control me. There is always Someone there to guide me to the right and fulfil my own destiny. I should be thankful to God for all things.

When i come back, I see my cat catch the cockroach. The sight is damn horrifying; Seeing the cockroach legs still moving inside her mouth. I really hate cockroach and she want to show me her hunting skill. Suddenly, the cockroach flies into my leg. I go squemish and act like some mad guy and run to the hall. I roll the newspaper and see my cat biting that creature. I force my cat to vomit out the things and then I go n hit that cockroach so hard and many times with newspaper. I am so mean and even my cat looks at her prey squashed like a pancake, then look at me back. I am just so tired yet she still make me do stupid things. It is 4am for goodness sake.

new life

Apparently I woke up late and waste my morning sleeping. I feel so unproductive. I even try to study at home but I got distracted with MSN and internet. The room is really not a suitable place to study. It is just too cosy and full of distraction. Then I go to gym early today to embark my new resolution. I have 20minutes of running hiil and 1 hour of body pump.

The bodypump is reallt ego-deflating activities. Some girls and even skinny guys carry heavier than mine. I felt so intimidated at times. Sometimes, I cannot even endure the some body parts session. I realise I have no muscle strength despite looking bulky. I must attend more bodypump. Anyway, Elizabeth is back from her pregnancy, I think she still remember me.

I decide to go home instead of studying at YMCA. I buy two packet of HL milk, mix with my whet protein and drink it as I really need to make my muscle growth back. The bus journey is very long and i manae to reach home at 7.30pm.

I have my dinner and take a nap because I decide to stay overnight at school to study. At 11pm, I wake up, take a refreshing bath and set off to school. This time, I travel there by bus, not car. Marcus call and waste my time chit chatting.

At 1230am till 4.30am, I do my revision. Somehow I feel less guilty because I do some productive work at least. But seeing other people studying with their friends, make me feel lonely. Well, it is good also because I would not indulge any unneccessary activties like chitchat . I have coffee and isotonice drink in between. I am getting worried about my revision actually. I realise that i lag so far behind. Time to buck up. I must believe I can make it.

Then I walk back home. Actually I am afraid to walk home . My mind will start to wander around like stray dogs, ghosts or even robbers. But luckily I ahve N-gage , accompanied with my sad love songs. During the journey, I start to think what goes wrong along my life journey. Why am I still un-successful , unlike my peers? I seriously hate to think about the future because it really make feel disheartened about life. I dissappoint my parents too much.

I reach home at 5am, cook maggi mee and rest awhile.

Sad

I go to school to do my revision for about 4 hours. I just waste time attending lectures online. Then I go back home, change and go to town to meet Derek. I do not why I decide to go town and have dinner with him while I have mine at home. I just need company at the moment.

Derek praises me that I am getting toned especially my arms. I am not tha schocked actually because I went for a tan . Having tanned body will increase metabolism and also give illusion from the far that the body has some definitions. I am such a dumb vain pot. Then he has his vegetarian dinner at cineleisure. He bumps into two lady from yoga class. They are very beautiful and in good shape despite their age. It must be power of yoga. There are so many familiar people at foodcourt.

Then we walk to HMV around first before going to Borders. There are so many cheap cookbooks there. We spend some times enjoy reading the books before going back home. Derek is nice enough to accompany me to take bus home with me.

He knows I am miserable and sad, then. There are ups and downs in life, but feeling down during exam period is no a good idea. Worse, it is my character to keep emotions and certain issues to myself. Anyway, Some people like Lily, Sam and Kailing do perk up my life by being concerned. I am damn touched. I realise that I do not live in this world alone. Maybe like kailing say, the journey may be long but the boat we builld are stronger and help us to sail through the sea of life better and longer. She can relate how i feel at the moment beside Guziel B because we are in the same boat.

The problem, she is a girl and I am a guy. the responsibilities of a guy in Singapore are higher and heavier. i cannot afford to lose much time now. I am reaching 30 and still not successful. Where are my dreams and goal I set ?

chill out

In afternoon, I go to King Albert Park to do some revision before meeting Guziel B in town for a walk. Seriously, I am kind of bored to hang out in Orchard Road everytime. The place is just so similar.

We decide to chill out at TCC cafe at Boat Quay. The interior has changed. I order premium TCC coffee as it is cheapest among the coffee and due to short of cash, I owe Guziel B money , $3 to be presice. We share my all-time favourite brownies while having conversation. Apparently, I spend more time smsing somebody. He has already settled his own issue and be back to normal but not me.

We take a bus home, hence I accompany him to take same bus 197 before I change bus to 99 at Clementi Interchange. I am hurt to receive smses of rejection from somebody. I am a fool again. I try hard to study but end up cleaning up my room for a change.

When people say that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. All you do is cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. But letting go never been easy to do especially if the love is still there but its better to accept it rather than to continue knowing it will not work out anymore. My advice is ,we must not give 100% of our love to the one we love so that we will not be hurt too much when they leave, unless we receive same treatment from other party too. It needs two hand to clap. Everyone is selfish for himeself. There is no such thing as unconditional love. I sound so bitter.

It's easy to say for people to tell us that we deserve better when we lose someone, not withstanding the horrible process one has to go through. After some losing stints, I have been tempted not to invest much on a relationship next time to shield myself from the pain of a bad fall. But hope for the better somehow.

GP

I am meeting old friend to accompany him to see doctor. As a friend, he needs so much support for he is afraid he may contract with terminal illness. Yes, it is sound serious but talking about death issues, it is not a laughing matter. His friend comes and joins us after lunch. I can see fear in his eyes but he tries hard to conceal that. After settling with his private doctor, we end up watching movie Sahara at Suntec City.

I love adventures, horror and sci-fi movies. Sahara reminds me of Indiana Jones movie. Then we have dinner at carrefour cafe.

Today, I really waste time walking around with them but I cannot leave him in lurch as I don't want him to rely on himself alone to get out of the situation; I am who love and care about him may help him break away and give him much emotional support when he is down at the expense of my time. This involves understanding, patience, affection, and encouragement just to make him feel better. But is it worth ?

Letting my friend know that I care and is willing to listen may be the best help I can offer.I won't force the issue, but allow him to confide in me at his own pace. I should keep my mind open too and really listen to what he tells me.I should never blame him for what's happening or underestimate his fear of potential danger. Instead, focus on supporting your friend' s right to make her own choices. I should be petty and make a big fuss.

Perhaps I do need emotional support too but I just cannot find anyone I can trust . I do not like to be laughed at. because I am man. Ego thinking but i follow conservative nature system. Sighs.Maybe, I am just like a candle who brighten other people's life but get myself burned.

You've Got a Friend
Carole King

When you're down and troubled
and you need a helping hand
and nothing, whoa nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me
and soon I will be there
to brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name,
and you know whereever I am
I'll come running, oh yeah baby
to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall,
all you have to do is call
and I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend.

If the sky above you
should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together and call my name out loud
and soon I will be knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer or fall
all you got to do is call
and I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend?
People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you.
Well they'll take your soul if you let them.
Oh yeah, but don't you let them.

You just call out my name and you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Oh babe, don't you know that,
Winter spring summer or fall,
Hey now, all you've got to do is call.
Lord, I'll be there, yes I will.
You've got a friend.
You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.

first paper

Today I start my first paper and it holds at hall B. I am wearing bangle given by Hung Yong and Tee bought by someone special to amrk the first day of examination. Apparently, I lost track of time and forgo one part which cost me loss of 25 marks. I begin to feel worry. I wonder if other questions are relevant. I really lost track of time.

I leave the school and travel to YCK to have a tan. It is not crowded at the moment because it is quite cloudy today. I love my new tan now . Then I take train to Somerset for bodycombat class at Cali gym. I have a great cardio work out. The best thing about cardio is that I can vent my stress and depression out by shouting and virtually hit someone in front of me. My own demon.

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else

infection

A old friend call up and we chat a while. He brings up the issue of infection and he afraid that he may contrat the infection which may be life-threatening. I am quite shocked at the moment.

At that instant, I realized how fragile life was and that you cannot choose when to die.

We all know that we are living in temporary world. Death is inevitable and can be sudden.I started to really appreciate my life. I felt how fragile human life is and that only God knows how long I will live. Maybe, God let me trust Him every minute of my life and this helped me to enjoy my life even when I was sick or feeling bad. I know that God is giving us everything, wanting us to appreciate Him, so we will understand that He is doing it just for us. Trying to build optimistic future for us and our parents.

This prompt me to undergo medical check up after exam to rate my health.

Brand

Today I go to YMCA at Orchard Road to study , then I go to swim nearby to de-stress my mind but have to shorten my swim as i receive a sms from Brandon to meet up at town later.

We meet outside californi gym as I want to put my bag inside the locker first. He just go for second round interview at Tuas. I cannot deny Brandon is very talented person. We walk to Far East Plaza to have our dinner. I gather from him that he has been accepted as the teacher trainee at NIE. I tell him about my rejection by MOE. We talk about so many things.

Then, after that, I go to gym for bodycombat.

Job

I get rejection to the entry to NIE from MOE. I feel a little disappointed actually. However I receive a letter from PhilliCapital

You are selected due to your exemplary leadership qualities, outstanding contributions in your area of extra-circular activities and from strong recommendations. We are recruiting from the creme la creme from this year's graduating batch. We place a very strong emphasis in selecting people who are all-rounder, dedicated, ahve passion for mlife and have a colourful personality

This extract from the letter i received seems so beautifully done and flattering. Perhaps everyone who receive this letter may get the same thing as me but this paragraph makes my day today. I wonder who recommend me to this company.

Time to draft my CV

important Days

Sorry everyone that I hardly update because I have exam blues.

January
1st Jan: New Year
2nd Jan: MY BIRTHDAY
12th Jan: School Reopen
18th Jan: Herwan's Wedding
22nd/23rd Jan: Chinese New year                  
February
3rd Feb: Bee Lan's birthday
14th Feb: Valentines Day
March
1st - 7thth Mar: recess break
7th Mar: Surf & Sweat
9th Mar: Heng yong's Birthday
April
13th May: Mum's Birthday
20th - 25th May:bangkok trip
May
2nd June: Vesak Day Holiday
5th June: Singapore idol audition
6th June: Interview by screenBox
7th June Result 's out
13th June: Samuel's Birthday
14th June:Subject Registration
16th June:Kien Birthday
25th June: MN's birthday
June
3rd July: rehearsal st Suntec
10th July: Actual Event at Suntec
12th - 17th: UOC camp
26th July:School reopen
28th july: Flag Day
29th July-30th July: Hermes NTUSU fair
July
2nd Aug: Lily's Bday
9th Aug: National Day
19th July: Union Day
September
12th Sep-19th Sep:Recess Week
6th sep: Kailing Birthday
11th sep:M403 quiz
9th sep: Denyse Hall bash at Newsroom Bar
November
2nd Nov: Gp09
3rd Nov: M443
6th Nov: M144
9th Nov: M463
11th Nov: Deepavali
12tn Nov: M494
13th Nov: M362
14th Nov: Hari Raya Puasa
17th Nov: M464
23rd Nov: FYP presentation
30th: Submission of FYP report (bound)
December
5th Dec: My sister's marriage
25th Dec: Christmas / Edmund bday

Start of life

Today marks the beginning of the mugging period.

I woke up early, realising that it is pouring outside and tendency to sleep back is very tempting. Hence, I do what my body wants - sleep again . I am getting lazy and flabby. Yet, my mind is not strong enough to fight the lazy temptation.

I finally woke up at 12 noon , when I start thinking of my future and examinations. It works instantly because I will start worrying and begin to do work again. It is still raining.Anyway, I realise my cat laying beside me on such a weather. How sweet of her.

I go to Jurong Bowl McDonalds to do revision, I skip my idea of going to school to study because it will be packed with students after noon. I order fries and ice lemon tea and start doing revision on my M463.Luckily, I am not the only one mugging for exams there. My maximum study period is 2hr and half, then my mind starts to get tired and I will lose concentration again. Luckily I manage to get the connectot for N-gage, hence can start listening to mp3: my playlist is mostly sad love songs. How pathetic!

Then I go back home and start playing with my N-gage games: the SIMS: Busting Out for 3hours. I just don't feeling going to school at night to do revision especially there is no availability of the car. I start to clean my room and sort my notes for easier reference. Time to sleep early and have a healthy lifestyle tommorow

Spend time with Sam

I woke up late again or rather I sleep back again when my watch shows 9am.

Then I woke up at 12pm, have my lunch and then travel to NTU to do some revision. I manage to print some notes until I got call from Sam whether I am free to meet up later to hang out. Apparently, I am not conditioned yet to study on weekend, unlike last semester, I have someone who will study together with me. I quickly go home and change and meet him at Buona Vista.

I suggest to hang out at Essential Brew Cafe there. I order lemon, pineapple freeze while he orders hot latte tea since it is raining outside. There are these two beautiful girls doing some revision at cafe. They must be very rich to study in such environment.

We have a great time, talking and chatting anything under the sun.Once, the the sun comes out, we make a move and walk around the Holland Village before we take a bus 105 to Orchard Road. While walking to the bus-stop, we talk about our future and hard to plan our future especially in Singapore and when the the world is like time-bomb. Anyway, how much stringent life we have in Singapore, we are blessed with peace and harmony here.

We go and eat at Puncak food stall at Far East plaza because it is cheap. I have a roasted chicken noodles while he orders chicken noodles with soy sauce and beef soup. He really eats alot. He does not bother much about gaining weight and how he looks.

People just call him out for some party or gathering because he is a good-looking chap. It is not a great feeling to be just flower vase in the house.He realises that having too much aquaintances can be very tiring.He still feels lonely at the end of the day. I beg to differ that networking is essential but sometimes we can not please everyone too.

We walk around, till he suggest to check out the Fitness first center. Both of us are welcomed by the guy named Winston. He gives us the orientation around the Fitness first center. Apparently, I talk most of the time while Samuel just keeps quiet. Anyway, my questions are mostly silly one. I impress with the CD collection and the pantry. Plus the changing room is very chic, remind me of the one at Planet Fitness. Then I am surpised to see Leonard there too. He is the instructor for BodyJam,BodyPump and Body combat. It have been a long time to see him and he looks fitter and more haggard. It must be life! It is quite expensive rate to be a member there.

Then Samuel and I walk and walk and walk from Orchard Road to Somerset to Plaza Singapura to City hall. At last, we stop at Raffles City plaza. Then Samuel has his dinner at Soup Restaurant at basement level at raffles city. I do not have enough money to have my dinner there actually.

After that, we walk to bus stop at Capitol and take 7 to go home. Once I reach home, I straightaway go to bed. I must have walked so long.