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Apparently I woke up late and waste my morning sleeping. I feel so unproductive. I even try to study at home but I got distracted with MSN and internet. The room is really not a suitable place to study. It is just too cosy and full of distraction. Then I go to gym early today to embark my new resolution. I have 20minutes of running hiil and 1 hour of body pump.
The bodypump is reallt ego-deflating activities. Some girls and even skinny guys carry heavier than mine. I felt so intimidated at times. Sometimes, I cannot even endure the some body parts session. I realise I have no muscle strength despite looking bulky. I must attend more bodypump. Anyway, Elizabeth is back from her pregnancy, I think she still remember me.
I decide to go home instead of studying at YMCA. I buy two packet of HL milk, mix with my whet protein and drink it as I really need to make my muscle growth back. The bus journey is very long and i manae to reach home at 7.30pm.
I have my dinner and take a nap because I decide to stay overnight at school to study. At 11pm, I wake up, take a refreshing bath and set off to school. This time, I travel there by bus, not car. Marcus call and waste my time chit chatting.
At 1230am till 4.30am, I do my revision. Somehow I feel less guilty because I do some productive work at least. But seeing other people studying with their friends, make me feel lonely. Well, it is good also because I would not indulge any unneccessary activties like chitchat . I have coffee and isotonice drink in between. I am getting worried about my revision actually. I realise that i lag so far behind. Time to buck up. I must believe I can make it.
Then I walk back home. Actually I am afraid to walk home . My mind will start to wander around like stray dogs, ghosts or even robbers. But luckily I ahve N-gage , accompanied with my sad love songs. During the journey, I start to think what goes wrong along my life journey. Why am I still un-successful , unlike my peers? I seriously hate to think about the future because it really make feel disheartened about life. I dissappoint my parents too much.
I reach home at 5am, cook maggi mee and rest awhile.
The bodypump is reallt ego-deflating activities. Some girls and even skinny guys carry heavier than mine. I felt so intimidated at times. Sometimes, I cannot even endure the some body parts session. I realise I have no muscle strength despite looking bulky. I must attend more bodypump. Anyway, Elizabeth is back from her pregnancy, I think she still remember me.
I decide to go home instead of studying at YMCA. I buy two packet of HL milk, mix with my whet protein and drink it as I really need to make my muscle growth back. The bus journey is very long and i manae to reach home at 7.30pm.
I have my dinner and take a nap because I decide to stay overnight at school to study. At 11pm, I wake up, take a refreshing bath and set off to school. This time, I travel there by bus, not car. Marcus call and waste my time chit chatting.
At 1230am till 4.30am, I do my revision. Somehow I feel less guilty because I do some productive work at least. But seeing other people studying with their friends, make me feel lonely. Well, it is good also because I would not indulge any unneccessary activties like chitchat . I have coffee and isotonice drink in between. I am getting worried about my revision actually. I realise that i lag so far behind. Time to buck up. I must believe I can make it.
Then I walk back home. Actually I am afraid to walk home . My mind will start to wander around like stray dogs, ghosts or even robbers. But luckily I ahve N-gage , accompanied with my sad love songs. During the journey, I start to think what goes wrong along my life journey. Why am I still un-successful , unlike my peers? I seriously hate to think about the future because it really make feel disheartened about life. I dissappoint my parents too much.
I reach home at 5am, cook maggi mee and rest awhile.
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