Sad
I go to school to do my revision for about 4 hours. I just waste time attending lectures online. Then I go back home, change and go to town to meet Derek. I do not why I decide to go town and have dinner with him while I have mine at home. I just need company at the moment.
Derek praises me that I am getting toned especially my arms. I am not tha schocked actually because I went for a tan . Having tanned body will increase metabolism and also give illusion from the far that the body has some definitions. I am such a dumb vain pot. Then he has his vegetarian dinner at cineleisure. He bumps into two lady from yoga class. They are very beautiful and in good shape despite their age. It must be power of yoga. There are so many familiar people at foodcourt.
Then we walk to HMV around first before going to Borders. There are so many cheap cookbooks there. We spend some times enjoy reading the books before going back home. Derek is nice enough to accompany me to take bus home with me.
He knows I am miserable and sad, then. There are ups and downs in life, but feeling down during exam period is no a good idea. Worse, it is my character to keep emotions and certain issues to myself. Anyway, Some people like Lily, Sam and Kailing do perk up my life by being concerned. I am damn touched. I realise that I do not live in this world alone. Maybe like kailing say, the journey may be long but the boat we builld are stronger and help us to sail through the sea of life better and longer. She can relate how i feel at the moment beside Guziel B because we are in the same boat.
The problem, she is a girl and I am a guy. the responsibilities of a guy in Singapore are higher and heavier. i cannot afford to lose much time now. I am reaching 30 and still not successful. Where are my dreams and goal I set ?
Derek praises me that I am getting toned especially my arms. I am not tha schocked actually because I went for a tan . Having tanned body will increase metabolism and also give illusion from the far that the body has some definitions. I am such a dumb vain pot. Then he has his vegetarian dinner at cineleisure. He bumps into two lady from yoga class. They are very beautiful and in good shape despite their age. It must be power of yoga. There are so many familiar people at foodcourt.
Then we walk to HMV around first before going to Borders. There are so many cheap cookbooks there. We spend some times enjoy reading the books before going back home. Derek is nice enough to accompany me to take bus home with me.
He knows I am miserable and sad, then. There are ups and downs in life, but feeling down during exam period is no a good idea. Worse, it is my character to keep emotions and certain issues to myself. Anyway, Some people like Lily, Sam and Kailing do perk up my life by being concerned. I am damn touched. I realise that I do not live in this world alone. Maybe like kailing say, the journey may be long but the boat we builld are stronger and help us to sail through the sea of life better and longer. She can relate how i feel at the moment beside Guziel B because we are in the same boat.
The problem, she is a girl and I am a guy. the responsibilities of a guy in Singapore are higher and heavier. i cannot afford to lose much time now. I am reaching 30 and still not successful. Where are my dreams and goal I set ?
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