chill out

In afternoon, I go to King Albert Park to do some revision before meeting Guziel B in town for a walk. Seriously, I am kind of bored to hang out in Orchard Road everytime. The place is just so similar.

We decide to chill out at TCC cafe at Boat Quay. The interior has changed. I order premium TCC coffee as it is cheapest among the coffee and due to short of cash, I owe Guziel B money , $3 to be presice. We share my all-time favourite brownies while having conversation. Apparently, I spend more time smsing somebody. He has already settled his own issue and be back to normal but not me.

We take a bus home, hence I accompany him to take same bus 197 before I change bus to 99 at Clementi Interchange. I am hurt to receive smses of rejection from somebody. I am a fool again. I try hard to study but end up cleaning up my room for a change.

When people say that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. All you do is cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. But letting go never been easy to do especially if the love is still there but its better to accept it rather than to continue knowing it will not work out anymore. My advice is ,we must not give 100% of our love to the one we love so that we will not be hurt too much when they leave, unless we receive same treatment from other party too. It needs two hand to clap. Everyone is selfish for himeself. There is no such thing as unconditional love. I sound so bitter.

It's easy to say for people to tell us that we deserve better when we lose someone, not withstanding the horrible process one has to go through. After some losing stints, I have been tempted not to invest much on a relationship next time to shield myself from the pain of a bad fall. But hope for the better somehow.