24 Hour Open

I decide to go to McDonalds at Jurong Bowl to do some revision for language I take last month as well as do some reading. I order Grilled Teppanyaki burger meal minus those shaker fries.

The meat is that fulfilling because it is not that thick and juicy compared to those at Burger King's restaurant. The place is quite empty. Perhaps, exam period is over. Life is getting routine when I am trying to achieve my secretive objectives.

Cam whoring time

Thanks to daily masque and eating vegetable soup daily, these help to improve my complexion and perk up my saggy cheeks.

This tree do have Big Trunk

Yong Tau Foo

Good Lifestyle I am having now.

I go to Giant Supermarket to buy some groceries for Yong Tau Foo. And my allowance is depleting fast.

I cook two shares for me and my mum because she is working overtime today. I feel bad, suddenly.

I don't know why. I think I feel so useless.

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Two more days to December. It means it is time for reflection and resolution. I want to leave 2005 with smile and ease.

mon- Ugly

I look fat.

It means I need to attend cardio classes.

Today I attend Yoga by Mazie, followed by the bodycombat by Cheslyn.

During Yoga, I am surrounded by the guys who are as flexible as the plasticman. I am as stiff as log. I am working hard to be flexible and stronger lower back.

During the class, I perspire like hell. Who says Yoga is just a session of proper breathing and poses. It involves union of body, mind and soul. How to have united with mind and soul when my body is so stiff? Then after the class, few people start to suck up to Mazie. What's up with the yoga clique in California gym?

Come to class with expensive yoga mat and greet namaste to anyone does not make one a proper yogi.

S.O.

Then after Bodycombat session, I have lunch at foodcourt at cineleisure and then take a bus 7 to Bugis. I go to Sim Lim Square to buy the N-gage connector, After that, I walk to the Mustafa Centre to buy some stuffs like toiletries.

I spend $80 on toiletries and I think that is implusive spending. The stuffs are so cheap, compared to Watsons and even the supermart. For exampl, the sunblock cost only $10 whereas sunblock cost more , much much more at Watson's.

Good Bargain.

I take a train home.

Sun

I am still recovering hence I guess I am staying at home again. Anyway I am doing something secretive and I won't reveal that on my blog. Something or strategy for my future as well as detractors and SJ haters.

It feels good to be bad sometimes.

Saturday spend at home

I am not feeling well today hence I stay home to recuperate.

Eat and sleep.

I have MTV as companion for whole day.

Friday

I realise that sleeping early and waking up early is a healthy lifestyle. I am so going to adopt such lifestyle. I can do so many things in the morning. I send most of the resumes online.

At 9am, I go to NTU to print the application forms I need to be sent by today. Once, I reach the interchange, the queue is so long, even it is after exam period. It is quiet surpising. Hence I take bus 199 to NTU

During the journey, the tinges of nostalgia come into my mind.

1) Th road where I jogged with Guziel and sometimes by myself.
2) The drain we used for the initiation during Freshmen Orientation camp for Hall 14
3) Hall 14
4) Hall 13 canteen
5) Hall 12 TV lounge
6) Basketball courts at NIE
7) NIE canteen ( the U shaped )

The library is empty hence I have a lot of choice to use the computer terminal. Once I finish the job, I take bus home.

It is only 10am and I settle most of the job.

I walk home once I alight opposite the City Harvest church. It is drizzling but I do enjoy, letting those droplets of pure water on my head.

My father bought for me Nasi Lemak for breakfast but he is not at home.

In Afternoon, I go to Somerset to pay my bills and perhaps to the library to get some information for the questionnaire I need to fill fo Outward Bound School. There is crowd in the post office at Killeney Road, hence I walk to Takashimaya S.C as there is a post office at fifth level.

I try my luck because the Post Office is also located at the busiest shopping center. Once I reach there, I count the person infront of me.

Only 9.

Just be patient and settle my bill eventually. While waiting I notice today is 25th and the date due to apply for Instructor in OBS is today. I guess I lose my chance to apply for it. I thought it is tommorow so that I can do the questionnaire and then personally travel to office at kallang Stadium to send the letter directly.

Procrastinating is bad habit.

Guess where this foot landed

Life

I love thursday.

The class schedule in california gym on thursday is good.

I attend the bodycombat by JD, followed by the bodypump by Darren. Darren is late today, and I think of putting the board and weight form for him but I am like a stranger to him and people on the floor will look at me with questions why this guy helps Darren to set up the things for him look.

I feel bad but then I ought to mind my own business.

Then I take a bus 106 to Suntec city, hopefully to use the wireless broadband at Mcdonald's restaurant there.It has been a long time I visit suntec city.I order my McSausage meal and get a good seat. The decor is very similar to that at King Albert Park except that they has McCafe at Suntec city.

Bad News that I cannot use the service because there is not existence of starhub network. Total waste of time. After my breakfast, I walk through the citylink and take a train home.

Then I sleep for 6 hours. I start to send out the resumes after that.

Disco

Bee Lan puts the Salsa on halt because she is going to Beijing to work. She is always been lucky to travel for work.

I guess I continue to dance Para Para I learnt in California gym before.

Beauty of toilet

My mum comments about the toilet while I am having my lunch with her. I am quite shocked for her to bring up the toilet issue while I am eating. Luckily, it is the pleasant conversation

Yesterday, my mum's friends came for a visit. Then, there was one kid who wanted to use the toilet. Once she stepped out, she informed her mum loudly that the toilet was very beautiful.

During the meals, almost one by one excused herself to go to toilet. I assume that they were very curious about the claim made by the kid and a child does not tell lie.

Let me give tips how to beautify your toilet.

Tip 1: Construct the wall with nice tile, similar to those in hotel

Tip 2: Renovate your flooring with rocky tiles, which induce reflexology and wake up your sense through foot

Tip 3: Arrange your toilteries on the classic ceramic ware neatly

Tip 4: Decorate your window with curtains or preferably blinds as they ventilate bathroom well

Tip 5: Paint your ceiling with rennaisance style. It is hard work for me because there are so many details

Tip 6: Add flowers, preferably orchid to creat aesthetic effect for the toilet.

Tip 7: Style your pipe into marble-looked column. I use three colour to create marble effect ( Warning: Messing job)

Tip 8: Add artificial plants such as ferns to make the place relaxing

I tell her to trust my taste in interior design. Designing is a skill too, or else why NTU, NUS and other polythenics have courses on designing. The problem is my mum can not get the overall picture of the design I want to do for the house. She opposes my ideas but then she cannot argue with my ideas.

Knowledge is powerful.

Last time, I made her cry so hard because I boycotted her to help her to do house cleaning and decorating for the festive seasons just because she oppose my idea to create the home more beautiful. To her, my design make the home more smaller while she prefer spacious atmosphere.

Then why she keeps buying those renaissance-styled furnitures which is big and occupy space?

At last, I still helped her decorate the house, but while she was sleeping, even my family. I did everything myself, from arranging those big furnitures, putting on the curtain, laying out the carpet, wiping the dirt, sweeping and whatever more.

Because she is my mum and I feel bad being a bastard that time.

Of course, I learn how to negotiate regarding the layout plus using the tetimonials from her friends and relatives, she listens to me nowadays, sometimes reluctantly.

Who cares. I love beauty.

The only ugly place in my house is my room, the working place. Ironic.

Check out my medusa-styled hair. It indicte that it is high time for a new haircut

Mee Siam

At 5.45am, It is raining as usual but that does not stop me to go gym for my usual bodycombat session by Christina at 7am. I hate latecomers. And they fill up the space around me, making the area cramped for me to do my moves. I manage my anger by shouting in the class. I feel so garang in the morning. After that I did another 20 minutes of jogging before going back home.

I reach home at 10am. I need to prepare Mee Siam for my mum later. I want to give her surpise later. I go to Prime Supermarket to buy Koo chye Leaves, Limes, three bottles of Green Teas, a packet of instant 30in-1 coffee, Vitagen, Vegetables for my dailing dinner and yogurts.

At homes, I boil some eggs, chop the koo chye leaves, fry the cubes of beancurd, cut the lime and soak the vermicelli. Like I mentioned earlier, my mum will be do basic condiments of Mee Siam but I prefer the Mee Siam to be a complete dish or better. I won't eat mee siam without egg, sambal or even the lime.

Then my mum reach home and start to fry the vermicelli while I am preparing to make Gado Gado because she is informed that more people will be coming down to visit the house. Then my sister's hubby comes down to collect the Mee Siam because she knows my mum will make something for her visitors.

My mum is not selfish. It is kind of donation to make the visitors feel happy, full and relax in humble manner. What goes around, comes around. My mum teaches me not to be selfish in terms of money or even time and do it sincerely, don't expect anythung in return because in long term, we will get that rewards in surpising manner.

While she goes to meet her friends first, I do extra miles to create more condiments for Gado-Gado. Time's catching up and I have to hurry up because I don't wish to see her friends. At 3pm, I complete everything and make the beautiful presentation for them and then go back to sleep.

When I wake up, I realise that there is little leftovers for me to have for dinner. My mum says that Gado Gado and Mee Siam are delicious. I think it is the presentation make them more appertizing beside my mum's good cooking.

Boring weekend

Today, It is pleasing to wake up quite early on sunday. Dzul and I have an early conversation this morning. Since both of us have nothing to do later. I try to make a suggestion to play bowling so I ask David to go online to discuss about the game.


After discussion, we decide the postpone the trip and I am so lazy to negotiate anyone to go out because it starts to get super cloudy and dark. That indicates the coming of heavy rain. Hence I stick to staying at home.

If you want take revenge on your ex best friend in healthy manner, write a book/novel about her/him and make you a likeable character in the storyline. Smart move right ?

The news about Nicole and Paris, not being best friends is revealed when Paris rumoured that Nicole showed Paris amateur homemade porn to friends. I guessed that money started the now-famous feud between the two starlets. Nicole felt that she was bringing as much to the table in, in 'the simple life' as Paris was. So why is Paris making $5 million a year but not her?

I watched all three seasons of Simple Life. True enough that Nicole did make reality shows a best form of entertainment with her personality.

Back to her novel, Richie's book, "The Truth About Diamonds," parallels her own life. It's the story of the daughter of a hot music star, who lands a TV show and finds happiness after a well-publicized drug addiction.Ms. Hilton was the inspiration for the character of Simone Westlake, a vapid opportunist who invites Parker to be her co-host on the reality series. Nicole denies that Simone Westlake is Paris Hilton which is total bullshit.

Nicole Richie has her new novel The Truth About Diamonds which supposedly talks about Paris as the character who stabs her friend in the back.I just love it. Must buy!

Salsa - Not

As usual, I go down to buy newspaperfor the recruit section. I have been lagging to find jobs actually. After my lunch, I go to Tanjong Pagar MRT station to meet Bee Lan at 2.20pm. I am early so I go to Burger King restaurant at Amara Hotel to have a munch . Today weather is damn hot and I am wearing three layer of clothes.

Then I meet Bee Lan at 2.20pm and we walk towards Maxwell market to meet Hui Hui who is waiting for us. Hui Hui is having a lunch first. I realise that I am losing my sense of humour and that freaks me out.

Is it the weather? My fatigue? My fading youth? I keep guessing.

Then we walk to Dancehub to check out the salsa class. Again, the studio closes even at 3.15pm whereas the class shown in the phamplet starts at 3.30pm. I start to give a call but the receiver says that the class will be opened at 3.30pm. We decide to wait again. I try to put my sense of humour a test

I failed.

At 3.40pm, we decide not to wait. It is very irritating to play waiting games on two weekend twice. We decide to chill out awhile. I don't like to hang out around Tanjong Pagar as well as Chinatown. I hail a cab and choose Boat Quay as our destination. We walk to TCC cafe, the usual cafe we usually hang out.

We order the drinks and discuss the New Year Celebration gathering.

We and our respective drinks

I am quite, as well as the girls thrilled about the celebration. I really want this to be successful one. At the moment, three of us are the commitee for the gathering.

Around 6pm, we go back home. I think thay had enough of my whining of becoming fatter . It is true that I am getting like a walking slob.

wasted

I wake up early to gym. While waiting for the bus, I capture a very beautiful, big and full moon at 5.45am.

Today I do some arm weight-training.I am still aching after doing the bodypump yesterday. There are so many people today in free weight section. IT MUST BE WEEKEND APPROACHING

After that, I take a bus to King Albert Park to have a breakfast at Mc Donalds Restaurant and do some reading for awhile. At first the place is empty at 9.30am. I enjoy the tranquility at first till the students start to fill the space and make the place so chaotic. Still, I love hanging out at McDonalds at King Albert Park. The new revamp of the restaurant make the environment so cafeteria-feel. It does make the resturant more atas.

I order sausage egg muffin meal for breakfast. I would always add pepper to chilli sauce to give more spicy. I am spicy guy.

I think the image above show the loneliness

I got new handphone

Today I go to collect the handphone at Burlington square opposite the Sim Lim Square. The weather is scorching hot today. It has been a long time I visit Bugis area.

I am welcomed by a Malay girl who dresses so sexily. I tell her my objective and she askes me to sit awhile. While waiting, I see all sorts of office etiquettes and personalities in Starhub Company. I observe the office politics lurking around which really make me so dense about entering real working world. I know office politic is part and parcel of business life but I need a skill to handle such heartburn.

I am being refered to this girl with little fleshy side of body. She also wears sexily - mini skirt and low plunging neckline. I overheard that her name is nicole. While she is filling up the documents, I cannot help myself but to notice her voluptuous breast popping up and down. I try to avoid stealing glance but those things are huge. The whole time I’m being upstaged by her cleavage. I think she likes the attention.

Act of perversion.

I am so happy to receive new handphone. I am going test the camera tonight.

Gues where the two locations are. They depict the loneliness.

Look Good

Whenever I enter the male changing room, I get repulsive by the sight of sagging butt with a revealing hairy balls hanging loose while he is changing. Why can he choose a locker away from the entrance.

It is an act of exhibition. But I dun think he does that. Exhibitionism involves exposing one's genitals or sexual organs to a stranger. It is a sexual disorder. That is clinical term.

To some degree we are all exhibitionists at heart. I admit I am exhibitionist but I don't have any sexual disorder. My level of exhibitionism is mild and I am not targeting to any audience. I will talk about exhibitionism some other time.

Sometimes, I hate to go california gym for a work-out.My self-esteem will be lowered. I do have a negative opinion of my body image especially my tummy. I look good in any kinds of clothes but I also prefer to be comfortable when I go topless too.

I have always been a self defeatist. If at first you don’t succeed, quit. I feel like my ongoing struggle with both my weight and my self esteem came from years of telling myself I can’t. When I grow older, I need more effort to achieve my dreams or goal. When we age, everything also deteriorate.

It can be detestable to know that poeple in gym resort to fast-gain in getting greek body by taking steroid. Nowadays, more younger males obsessed in getting quick achievement. It seems that body-image misconceptions don't come out of the gym but straight from popular culture.

People can deny about them consuming steroid but in long term, the side effect will start to surface. But alas, these people are educated and understand the side-effects of steroid. Hence, they know when and how to counteract the effect.

True enough, there are guys in gym do inspire me to get the ripped look of extreme muscular definition. I m looking for shortcut. When I was younger, I admitted that I did consider taking steroid. I discussed with my gym buddy, John regarding the supplement. Being ignorant, we asked Nature Farm and GNC for DHEA , the natural steroid hormone produced from cholesterol by the adrenal glands. DHEA is chemically similar to testosterone and estrogen and is easily converted into those hormones.

DHEA supplements may be beneficial, neutral, or harmful, but it is unlikely that DHEA supplements will affect each individual in the same way. Hence it is a controllable item in Singapore. We order one bottle of DHEA supplements online and spilt the numbers of capsule into two because we were a little bit skeptical about the product and it was very expensive.

We tried it everytime we went for weight-training. We did feel powerful but in long term, we can feel the effects. We always feel heaty everytime, than I , as wella s John, need to shower almost every hour to reduce the heatiness. At worst, there are growth of pimples on our body , a lot of them.

We decided to stop taking the products and continue our hard way of getting ripped body. Thank goodness, I don't perspire everytime. It can be scary that I can get perspired, even in air-conditioned room.

I start to shed excess pounds sweating in gym and outside, this cause loose, sagging skin and tired face. I am so ignorant to realise that these workouts can leave parts of the body, especially the face - thin and gaunt but no impact on my love handles.

If I am to push into desperation, liposuction will promise to eliminate unwanted fats in three hours.

Looking tired

I go out early to california gym for the bodypump today. There are only five guys including me attend the class. I am standing beside a small-built guy who carries so much weight for the session while I stick to much lesser weight because I don't have any breakfast to build my energy level.

I try increasing weights for the squat. During the section, I have been perspiring profusely while enduring those heavy burden on my back. Worse still, the air-conditioner is half-spoilt in studio 2.

After that, I have to buy some condiments for laksa later. Understanding my mum's way of making dishes, she prefer to play safe and just use the basic ingredients for the laksa dish. I tend to be more creative. I buy tau pok, rectangular fish cake beside mee , beansprout and the vegetables.

I do not buy cockles because I cannot find any in prime supermarket. I cut the fishcake, tau pok , then boil the beansprout and mee.

After that, I go back to sleep since I cannot fight back the z demon. I know I am going to waste time again. I must get rid of this sleeping habit.

Sleep habit

I go to cali gym in the morning ( 5.45am ) for the bodycombat by Christina at 7am. Today, I am
surprisingly for the gym by 10 minutes hence I cannot secure a good space to stand but the corner of the dance studio.

Since, I do not catch any sleep last night, There are increased errors and lack of productivities during the bodycombat.

Worse still, I am much slower in executing the moves than the fat guy beside. The scenario put me into a shame. My reaction time is so slow.

I also get irritated by the fringe who keeps hitting my eyes during the session.

One thing I prove myself better than him is the quality and quantity of push-ups. He is doing the female version of push-up. After that I do some shoulder weight-training before going for a alternate shower. The crowd in the morning is same like other mornings.

Then I go back home to have a breakfast since my mum is not working. Before that, I go to NTUC supermarket to buy three bottles of green tea ( Heaven and Earth Brand ) and finger foods at Old Chang Kee.

Because I am having sleep debt, I go back to sleep.

Lack
of sleep can affect an individual's memory, ability to perform simple
daily tasks, and attention span

No matter how hard I try to stay awake, I eventually end up sleeping for 6 hours. I forgo my plan to go NTU and do some job-hunt. I don't like looking for a job from home, I have the tendency to put things off since I thought I have a lot of time available. With a little organization and a lot of determination, it is possible to find the ideal job.

Salsa Dance

It is a rare occasion for me to wake up quite early on saturday. I do so because I am going to meet Bee Lan later at tanjong Pagar to find out about the salsa dance. We suppose to have lunch at Clementi after her swimming lesson.
However, it is postponed due to the raining. We meet at Tanjong pagar MRTstation at 12pm instead.

I am wearing a Topshop shirt which I bought with David last time. The hot weather does not do any justice to me today. Bee Lan surprises to see me in shirt, especially on such weather. I usually don tees that flatter my fit body.

Lately, I have turned from fit to flab.

We walk towards to the Murray Street and search for the dancestudio, recommended by her friend. We manage to find one along the shop house. I am surprised that the dance hub is still closed. It is only 1pm and today is weekend. The brochure
we take indicates that Saturday class start at 3.30pm. At earliest time they will open, will be at 2pm.

We have lunch at newly-open cafe nearby. Bee lan has Pasta with chorizo while I have veggie Ari Biata ( Just a pasta with a lot of vegetables and spices ). We also order fried calamari. Next time, I must make fried calamari for the girls. They love fried calamari.

I do not know that the appetizer Bee Lan eats cost $1. The food is ok but the the interior of the cafe is stunning. After that, we proceed to the dance hub and see if the studio already opens. It is still closes so we decide to give Jackson a call regarding the the class.

Bee Lan and I are going to join Salsa class together. I already promise her quite long a go to accompany her to be a buddy for the class. I hope will be the fun. She hears that jjsalsarengue is
cool and more personalized compared to other company or studio.

After enquiries, we walk to the Coffee Bean cafe at Republic Plaza to discuss about our New Year Celebration this year. Moreover I bring my ibook out so that I can surf net online at the cafe. Today is very hot weather and I am wearing long-sleeved shirt. I feel so sticky.I am surprised that Bee Lan actually run for the traffic light.

Once we reach there, we order our own beverage and do the discussion. I try to go online using my ibook but somehow it does not work at all. It make me frustrated and lost with any information I need for the discussion. Hence we decide to go to Orchard and ask one of the prestigious hotel, Meritus Mandarin Hotel for the rate on New Year Eve.

Apparently, the price is very high, about $200++ per room on weekend since they do not disclose the price on New Year Eve yet. Then we go to the Library at Takashimaya S.C. as Bee Lan needs to return book as well as borrow . After that, we part in own way. I go back home while she is meeting her friend.

I go back home and call my parent's whereabouts so that I can join them later.

I cut my fringe to look like my idol, UTT but end up looking more like Edna in the Incredibles. It is so disastrous moment. I take a cab back to Woodlands to visit my sister as my parents are there and to meet my pussy cat. Spending with cousins are actually wonderful. It makes me feel so young and revitalized. Only comment I receive from my uncle that I look like a member from Beatles.

Confession party @ Zouk

I received an invitation to exclusive launch of the new Madonna album event at Zouk Club by starhub. This is my first time to get such luck to get into free entry to any club by my own. Usually, I got such invitations from friends.

I call David to accompany me to attend the event since he has not been visiting zouk for a long time. I am also quite curious about the revamp that cost millions.It is free.

I meet David at Tiong Bahru Plaza for dinner first. Anyway he has a company transport to bring him to Outram Park and meet me there instead of Jurong area. We have dinner at foodcourt.

Esjay: Today I opt for vegetarian dinner. I look fluffy these few days

David: Ok.You can order first.

Esjay: Hullo, I have one or two stalls to get my food whereas you
have so many stalls to choose. You go and take your time selecting.

David: I'm done. You go and order.

Esjay comes back with nasi lemak.

David: I don't know that Nasi lemak goes vegetarian. Chicken wing, Ikan bilis and eggs are mostly mocked.

We decide to have soya bean drink near the bus-stop. The drink is horrible. This is the most horrible soya bean drink I have ever tasted.

Then we take bus 16 to Zouk. It is only 7pm and there is not much people outside the club. David heard from 98.7FM DJs that the door will be officially opened at 7.30pm. Initially, I do not believe the news but then the door really opens at 7.30pm. We start to queue for entry.

I bump into Keith and Desmond, with his very big group of friends. I also saw many few familiar faces which I am not much bother to say artificial greetings to.

The butch bouncer check my bag before entering. She asks me what the canister is. It is a gas canister with an aim to explode the zouk and kill all the Madonna fans.

JOKING

It is just a hairspray to tame my unkempt mane. I deposit my bag to the bag counter and get a free drink. I manage to chat with a friend of Desmond while waiting for the drink. She is so friendly and sweet.

I don't see much changes in zouk's interior except the toilet and the entrance tunnel. It reminds me of the clubs at Kuala Lumpur. David and I locate ourselves somewhere near the staircase , which lead to dancefloor and enjoy the free drinks. It is expected that the show will be delayed till 8pm.

I stand beside two extraordinarily beautiful gals. They are the epitome of supermodels, even one of them is as tall as me. I am told by someone that they are transexuals. Oh Gosh! Aren't they are putting a real females into shame? I nearly make a pass at them.

Sometimes, be wary of the 'super' beautiful women in the club,
especially zouk.

Then the party starts with two DJs, Vernon and Augustine ( I think ), stunning pan-asian models strutting in Madonna's costumes in various,previous music videos of hers and then the display of dances from Hung UP MTV by the professional dancers which I think is very chic. Then, Madonna broadcasts in big screen about her latest album, confession of the dancefloor and her new music video.

click on the image to see her music video, hung up

Then there are usual stunts like giving aways the prize bymaking those people on the floor come to teh stage and make butts of jokes for the rest. Firstly, They introduce Motorola ROKR which has the in-built itunes and Madonna did a commercial with them. They pick three madonna fans up to the stage and guess the songs based on the ringtones played in Motorola.

Boring? It is. Then secondly, ten aspiring (not) dancer wannabesvolunteer to go the stage to show the spectators the new moves in Hung Up music video. Apparently, four guys really steal the show by really dancing in their own styles. Talk about being original and expressing oneself.

Then there are five people being brought to reveal their darkest confession to the public.

Male 1: Currently I go out with two girls and one guy simultaneously ( Talkabout not having looks and body, yet a player for both sex; impressive)

Male 2: I made out with female PE teacher during secondary school ( Raging hormones and horny teacher, I wonder why she is attracted to ah beng )

Male 3: I slept with my good friend's girl and he nearly caught us in bed (Friend in need is a friend indeed)

Male 4: I secretly took my mum's black bra and then put the cones inside thethe bra. I am inspired by her cone bra during blonde ambition tours ( I wonder whether his mum notice that her black bra suddenly a size bigger)

Only Female: I slept with my husband-to-be's dad before the wedding.
Apparenly, she really shocked all of us with that confession and I wonder if her husband is around.

She won the Motorola ROKR.

Lastly, we have a Madonna look a like contest. This is the most lame competition I have ever seen. Only one contestant dressed up or drag himself to look like Madonna in Hung Up MTV and call himself Madinna. The rest justmanage to achieve theri fame by walking down the aisle in front of the people ala supermodels. They ( all males ) really catwalk and start to be so dramatic on stage. Madinna won the Motorola ROKR.

Anyway, the event is disappointing,truly. The only consolation is I still love zouk.

Then I start to mingle with people awhile and decide not to stay late in zouk because David has to work tomorrow and I have plans to meet Bee Lan early morning tomorrow. David and I decide to go to Orchard to chill out for awhile. I bump into Eugene and Fabian. Keith also is going to buy the single, Hung up at HMV.

We chill out at Maestro cafe at Cineleisure. I order brownies while David has his raspberry cheesecake. I hate cheesecake. He is going broke tomorrow because he has to attend two wedding dinners.

Although I feel like dancing tonight, I cannot afford to miss the meeting with Bee Lan tommorow.

At 11.30pm, we take a train home

Topic about Jobs

I am going to get a new phone; a camera phone to be presice. That's mean I am going to post a lot of picture in my blog. It will be more colourful and exciting. I go to NTU to use the computer terminal to do my blog template using Microsoft Frontpage. I am well-versed in frontpage and imac does not provide an user-friendly html editor.

Now, it is exam period. Seeing these students mugging for exam, kind of reminding me of the times I spent my time studying in NTU library alone, while listening to my favourite music during exam period. It amuse me awhile but i do not miss those days. Who wants to remember loneliness.

Apparently, there are some problems with my template and I still cannot discover the bugs. Maybe I am too ambitious to create a stunning layout which literally I achieved it and am proud of it. It runs well with Internet explore but not safari@ibook.

Instead of finding bugs in the template, I should get myself busy finding job. I have these noises around my mind and it si very disturbing. I know what I am doing in my life and definitely I am going to make my parents proud of me more. My aunties, uncles and whoever monger who complain to my mum about me acting cool about finding job.

I wonder why they are so bothered more than they are to their own children. They expect me, as a degree holder to make a progress faster than those with diploma and lower. My auntie indirectly boast that her son , a diploma holder, get the job at XXX company and starts working next week. She ask my mum to ask me join him too since I still cannot find the job. Add to my fury, he suppose to join SMU to further his studies if he cannot get the reply from any company.However, he did get the job reply and delay the further studies. Worse still my sister sides with my auntie.

My mum who is still in dilemma , still defends me during the conversation. I just keep quiet all alone and act dumb as i can be. If I am to play an asshole, definitely I will embarrase two people and this will embarrase my mum further.

I love my mum.

On the way home, this topic is being raised again between my sister and mum. I love indirecting bashing and this time, my target is my sister. She is very smart, diligent and hardworking but I am being streetwise enough to know how the human system works.

Mum: K starts to work already at xxx company.
Me: Please lah, that company always needs people; their ad appear almost every week. Spare me explanation to start job first from below and get the peanuts salary and slowly start to climb. Last time, he was told to get the job of 3K at YYY company under my uncles's recommendation but when he realise that he get the salary of $1300 instead, he does not take it.
Mum: yeah
Me: Hullo,he is diploma holder only. If a diploma holder gets $3K but degree holder gets at most $2.5K for engineering position, why spend money send son, daughter to university.
Me: Talk about pending to te entry to university, that is so ridiculous. If a person has a chance to go university, sure he/she will grap the opportunity to study further especially when he/she is still young.
Me: Work first to get experience and study later when time come. Yeah everyone says that loh but all depends on individual also. So rejecting the chance to go university...it is more likely cannot get the entry to there.
All keep quiet.

I am just lazy and morever fussy but when I start to complain to find solutions and bring about positive change, I definitely give myself 100% or more to get a proper job. I also have dreams. I also want to provide good life for my parents for myself. I also want to have saving for future.

These people just making things out of proportion. My mum is not going to marry me off to their daughters yet.

Bad habits ruin me

I realise that I have so many bad habits which turn me into slothy bastard.

I NEED to break bad habits to good ones. I become aware of my bad habits when i read through my list of goals and yet i do not achieve any. The impact of these bad habits are so great that i waste so much time doing unconstructive actions. perhaps I don't experience the pain or loss and therefore think that time is plentiful.

I need motivation.

Every outcome has it cause. Achieve success in any area of life by identifying the optimum strategies and repeating tem until they become habits.

My present bad habits
1) Have tendency to sleep late and wake up late
2) Lazy to get closer to God through prayers
3) Surf porn online
4) Spending money on unnecessary
5) Spend online whole day
6) Watch TV whole night
7) Eat supper after 8pm
8) Play N-gage games
9) Read trashy materials
10) Chatting online

What is meaning of life?

Life is such that I usually get into my daily routines quickly and at times that I don't take times to ponder about my existence or about my life in this world. I take life as it comes. It is usually taken for granted. At some stages of my life, I do set goals for myself  because I know that I am lacking in some areas of my life that needs changes. I realize how many goals do I really accomplish? Do I really take time to plan my goals?

Worst still, do I make plans for Hereafter. We all know that we will all die and rot under 6 feet and there is no escaping death. Life here is just temporary compared to Hereafter. I life day in and out, getting into a routine, where one day is no different from next .

I need to find balance too. There is no reward in activities that are pursued so excessively to the detriment of other part of life. I need to have a clear guidelines on leading my life. I can handle minor setbacks well , thanks to my parents moral support. There are many major mistakes and golden lessons in the past I learnt. I used to have issues with letting go of the past because there
were motherf*ckers keep taking advantages of those embarrassing mistake to intimidate or threaten my self-esteem. It took too long, but I have gotten well and have learned the important thing is that as long as I can take with me the important parts and good memories of the past, I can let go of the rest, the hurt during the journey to vague future. Life is just like an experiment

I need to acknowledge that there are fools who love to bring me down to bottomless pit of no return. I believe in karma and Almighty ( of course ). Everyone will grow old eventually. What goes around, comes around. It is just matter of time.

So when there are people who criticize or bad mouth me for so ever reason, God bless them and me for life is not meant for them only. I am leading my own life and take a pinch of salt. No matter how we live in this world, final and most important goal is to meet my Creator. I don't need people to judge all my actions or deeds for I know that Only Almighty does the job. It is therefore follow logically, that whatever I do, all my goals should be linked to the Final Goal.

First try

This is going to my first entry for November. I spend my time to find ideas to create a nice layout for my blog. I think I do job well. Frankly, I am proud of myself

But of course, I will be a victim of criticism when times comes. Some people see no originality in my blog I did steal some ideas but to avoid myself being an ape or copycat, I use my own creativity to re-originate my own mastery of style. Maybe there are people who mis-interprete my design as a rip-off from any sources but

Originality, if it exists at all, is not an absolute.Copying is integral to creativity and essential to imagination. From there, we resorted to counter-productive and respressive with discretion to our own ideas.

No matter what, learn the criticism as a learning experience. I thanks those people for their 'advice' and take it into consideration if the criticisms is objective to me. I myself am not perfect and others may see my flaws more clearly.

But considering their source, these people maybe incompetent, envious or have so much time idling. Brush them off after thanks and move on with a great smile.

Bad karma is on the way to their pathetic life.