Dreams

I've started hvaing so many dreams, weird ones, lately. The powerful effect of the dreams freaked me out.

I woke up with a hardon every morning. I am tring to deal with it on a more sipritual level yet it became more uncontrollable. I knew it is normal but I never experience daily hardon.

I am such a horny bastard or is it a ripe time to get married?

*ponder*

My grandma sick

Today after the breakfast session, we hurried to SGH once my sister and her hubby came to fetch us. I love going to hospital or visiting the patients. Seeing the sick people or those who were admitted in wards, make me realise that life is short and the world we were living is just a temporary abode.

I learnt to appreciate life better and I am blessed for eveything I have and be thankful what I have at the moment. Maybe Quest for simple life was much sought after.

But could I live simple when my ambitions were big and high up to the sky?

Most of my uncles and aunties came and visit my grandma in hospital. I stayed with my mum near her bed all the time. I just love the feeling of loves in the air there.

I hate friday

Friday is always the busy day of all the days in the week. I wore pink polo tee which I knew I was going to regret somehow about wearing it. We had a roller blading session early morning. This session, we learnt how to brake, but my blade did not have stopper. After sweating out, We all quickly back to the staff room and got ready for next class.

I was quite stressed today because I had not really prepared for the D&T class yet.The nightmare had came actually. I really at loss about teaching the topics and I need to finish my syllabus by two weeks.

I thought Mr L knew my incapability to teach today, hence he took over and teach the class smoothly. I felt so lousy and inferior to see him taking the class so well and smooth. I admitted that I tended to neglect D&T and focus more on maths but I could help much to learn the topic when I was so busy being tasked with many other jobs.

There is no such thing as free time now.

So many people kept calling and smsing me during lesson but I knew I needed to pick up one important call - my HOD's. Later, I met her for to discuss about the examination paper I set for secondary 3. So many mistake and changes I need to correct. I realise the importance of the allocation of marks for the examination paper to prevent the maximum numbers of failure.

She thought that my paper was quite tough since it covered almost all the subjects. I am such a menace to students.

Then I went to this class for the lesson but today I stood there like an idiot doing nothing while Ms L revised with the class which mostly of them did not pay much attention to. Some ( three of them) even brought PSP and played during the class. They used towel to shield the gameboard. They thought we were that stupid not to see. We just could not be bothered at all.

I just wanted to separate the class and did some revision with them.

Then the next class, I did some revision for the class on trigonometry but somehow I did some mistakes. I was too focus on few students that I neglected the rest which made the class noisy and uncontrollable. I start to question of my class management and I cannot handle small number of group.

And yes, they teased me wearing my pink polo tee chirt.

I needed to think something about the management wise or else it did not look good on my appraisal.

Then I have time for break and went to have a last meal at canteen.

Then I went home and changed to get prepared to meet my ex-tuition kids at King Albert Park mcDonalds'. They need some help on the subjects.I stayed with them until 6pm. I went to Big Bookshop to buy some stationery for my tables in School since I knew I was going to stay for one year there.

I needed laptop too.

My friday spent at home.

Science

Today I started on second lesson with the infamous class , almost half of them. I am very happy to see the enthusiasm in every students I taught. They are just need someone to motivate and encourage them. I made the class more interesting and lively with certain ground rules made by me.

- Minimum noise hence to induce discussion
- Complete my assignments on time or else they will be returned to the own class
- Explain to me what they learnt if they want to go for toilet break.

Then after that, I went for my break on my own again. Then I need to invigilate the upper secondary class at 10am for the science practical. It had been a long time I entered the science laboratory, not that I was excited about but just to recall the sweet experience I had in the laboratory with good friends.

Same chemicals, same apparatus, same procedure but different environment.

After that, I quickly rushed to the NUH for my medical check-up, taking taxi there. I knew I was late, hence my appointment changed at 1pm. I hate waiting time, I did not have any time to go back to my class for the remedial with some students who requested for me.

I went to Orchard Road for my late lunch and then went to gym for nice stress out workout for 2 hours.

I am going to miss my gym regime, I need a life and vitality.

Blood test

Today I let go of the another arrow by NCC because I had blood test later for final check up (hopefully).

:(

I had to invigilate the other school for 0 level examination on November. It meant that I could not take a holiday at all.

Sucks! but I got paid

Arrows

I always rushed to school daily. Early morning, I followed Ms L to go to this class to do the lesson. I got the feedback from her that the class had done their work with enthuasism. I was wondering that did I contribute the change of attitude?

They are nice bunch of students actually. I was beginning to like them more and more.

After that, I continued doing the draft for the final year paper for secondary 3. Then, I went to eat breakfast by myself since YT was so busy today.

Weekend Burnt 2

Today I had to attend the Emergency Preparedness programme by SCDF together with the students mainly 'volunteers' from Scouts and Red Cross. I was late by few minutes.

I saw Mr L with his scouts and Miss H with her red cross. We did some chat before they left us once the programme. The scouts consist of the class who knew me when I did relief teaching, very naughty and loud bunch of students.

The programme consist of 3 sessions - fire fighting (using the fire extingusiher), CPR and First Aid. I introduced myself to the staff sergeant who in charge of the programme and he explain to me the importance of the programme for XX Seconday school and asked for my email and handphone number to discuss about the programme he and SCDF will want our school to be first to do the programme.

I took some photos on the kids and their learning. It was quite fun and hilarious to see them learning hands-on. I also did some hans-on. It was fun and interactive with them . The residents nearby also got involved.



Then we had a break for awhile and I called YT to come later since the break ended at 2pm and no point he came here at 1 pm when everyone was not around since they prefer to eat outside. It was because the queue was quite long with the staff from the construction company who came here to attend the programme too.

I waited for my parents to fetch me and hence I had lunch with the students at mcdonald's. I treated two boxes of nuggets for the scouts and red cross who were there with me. I had a hearty chat with them. They were such a bright students.

Then my parents came and fetch me at the community center and then we went to the Upper Bukit Timah Road to browse the car. My parents were going to buy me a car.

Then we decided on the Toyota Vios , much afforadable price for me with lower pay.I did the test drive and feel comfortable and my parents love it too. I cannot wait for the car to come at the end of october.

I start to think of my financial management now.

TOpO

Today morning, I was tasked to follow the NCC cadets students to chinese cemetery at Lornie Road to prepare themselves to train them of the topgraphy skills for the competition with similar terrain.

Today, I just wore bermuda and sleeveless tee.Before the departure from school, I had to meet my HOD who gave me some materials on how to set up exam paper as well as collect my textbook. Then we reached at the cemetery early.

I was so hungry actually, while they were having some briefing, I had a quick bite on mee goreng I bought at food stall nearby the school. Justin, the main trainer came with mosquito bites on his arms and body.

The students wished me luck with the hope that I would not get the same situation as him. Before the start of the mission, we are to stand in front of the cemetery and pray for respect.

Then we started to run, really run around. Damn, I should bring my textbook as well as bought small water instead. We just continued running to and fro everywhere and at times, I will switch over to other team to observe the kids' capability. Mr J told me to see and select the best ones for the competition.

Hence, I ran non-stop but of course I did stop for awhile to catch my breath. I was losing stamina now. They did well somehow and then we rest awhile before the trainers and I as well as the senior to conduct serious interview on each students to evaluate their personal attributes.

All the bullshit, encouragement and jokes on them was quite fun. It made me like I was not even an authority at all.

Then the car horned at us and scolded us for obstructing the road. I knew we were wrong but it was not necessary to really shout rudely at us. I really did not know what I was thinking and spewed vulgarities at him but I did not think he would hear me.

He stopped and shouted at me ,I think. We all just ignored him but one of the trainer apologized him not because of me but the obstruction thingy. heck care! He must had a bad day.

Then we ended the session early and went back to school since Mr J wanted to assess final evaluation and the outcome from the training session justnow.

After that, I went back home and changed to meet Carl at Orchard Road.We bought the movie ticket: John Tucker Must die at Cineleisure and have a light bite there for awhile

We walked around and decided to bring him to the Esplanade and the famous tourist site, Merlion for phototaking session. Then we walked to Fullerton Hotel and boat Quay before going back to cineleisure for the movie.

We bought popcorn and enjoy the crappy movie to de-stress myself.

Then we had supper at kopitiam before going back home



Went to the lornie road for the topo thingy...run..then go home...meet carl...go to watch tucker must die..

home

Visit from Kuala Lumpur

Today I stayed very late for the project despite I was not needed to be around for the CCA, but I needed to finish up the arrow/tasks given by various people

YT told me that I joined him and BJ to do the major project that would ended at February. It meant that I would not join the January intake. Mixed feeling somehow about knowing about it. Even the new contract teacher was given a task to help out. Lately, I had been given a lot of surpises, not so pleasant actually. Surpises meant work.

Then I did some CCA as well as marking some papers before going home as I need to fetch my friend, carl from Kuala Lumpur to come down for a visit. He knew only Little India and for me, going there is terrible because it was inconvenient and far. I took taxi to Farrer Park to wait for him.

He lost his way here since he was driving and not familiar with roads here. I went to Mustafa centre first to do some shopping while waiting .

I bought myself a pair of Nike sport shoes for tommorow terrain.It was so cheap, $48 only. I was loving it.

At 10pm, I met Carl ar Rocher Canal Road at last, we scout for the cheapest hotel in little India before we walked around the Little India.

I went back home because Tommorow I had CCA.

Tired

My first day

Today I was going to teach the class on my own. I shouted for the damn attention and told them my ground rules and objective for these two period.While I was teaching, the principal came inside. I was like....oh no....I just continued my job as a educator and teach them. The class suddenly became so well-behaved which of course made my life easier .

I was happy that they did my work after explaining to them. Even the lazy ones finish my work. I worked so hard for the notes last night which I did not have time to sleep properly.

Then I was given a last minute arrow to do invigilation. I had no time for break.Plus after that, I need to relief teaching for this class where the boys insulted me for low, husky voice, similar to Mr Bean.

I did not take those insults/teasing seriously but I knew I just make myself clear to show respect for me as well as other and I am someone whom they could trifled with.

Boling Point

Today I did an invigilation for the upper secondary again. But today, I was really pissed off because the teacher who supposed to take over me, came late by one period. Nevertheless, I still maintain a smile but I just lost the time which is so precious now.

Then I went to co-teach with Ms L and these pupils just had no interest in listening to her until the principal came and watched outside the classroom. Suddenly the atmosphere changed and was so different. The ideal classroom atmosphere - attentive, quiet and discipline. Too bad, it does not last long, after she left.

While we have break, We joined Mr E for break. We chatted awhile until the principal came and joined us. The situation was quite intense when everyone seems to be serious. While eating, she caught one student for not stucking the shirt. The break becomes so weird, real weird.YT signalled me to take leave early because we all need to prepare some plan later.

Today, it was a first time YT and I attend the staff meeting at AVA room. YT and I was like helpers who help to arrange the chairs for the teacher who came later. I also gave the chair to principal. I felt like bootlicking which was not. Mr G asked me to pass it to her.

The meeting held by Vice principal and ended at 3.30pm. I missed my gym session because I was really burned out and needed more rest. Once I reach home and ate my chicken rice I bought, I hit the sack . I was really tired.

Morever I needed to prepare maths lesson plan for tommorow morning lesson as Ms L is going for off. I had no time for it, it means that I was going to burn my midnight oil for doing the notes for them. I hated it. I was damn stressed already. The pressure point is almost to prime.

I got last minute arrow by the principal to attend some programme on Sunday and another one by NCC on wednesday for the live firing and I need to wear army uniform. I hate it. Arghh....

I sense soemthing wrong.

Busy Again

Again, another last minute invigilation by the committee. I have to rush to collect the examination paper and proceed to the classroom and do the monotonous procedure again. Then I have to rush to my D&T class.

I was told that I needed to finish the syllabus fast as he did not do anything and I was not even prepared any lesson plans today. I was quite stressed on waht to teach them. Mr L gave me some drawing for them to do plan and elevation for them. Most of them wanted to do their project hence after drawing, we spent of the rest of project

I know I needed to prepare well for the lesson plan for the students for two weeks plus I was told I needed to cover materials too which were not covered last two terms. I was like WHAT?!! Pressure, pressure. I don't even have time for those topics.

Then YT and I went for breakfast. Mdm S joined us for breakfast. We learnt alot of things about being a teacher in here. She is Science teacher and teaches same class as mine. I ponder over what she said.

Later, I need to prepare notes for the remedial class later at 2pm. My notes are actually contain non-covered syllabus for secondary 3 Normal Acad. Wrong techniques from me add unnecessary worries for me as I afraid to confuse the students more.

Then after the remedial lesson, I had a informal chat with group of boys in the class. They told me all sort of stories about the school and teacher since they had been studying in the school for three years. I feel like a part of the group although I hated the personal questions from them. I had been bombarded with so many personal questions by students and I did not like it all.

I felt like a new teacher again. So damn celebrity status.

Official Day of School

Today is somehow becoming my first day of school. Equipped with loss of weight, new hairstyle and new wardrobe, I welcome Monday with smile. I am surpised with concern and care from the staffs as well as the students.

Today all of us had to go the hall for special assembly. It is to dedicate to one student who was just being cured of leukemia, died of car accident instead. His journey to combat the cancer end up short with sudden unnatural death. We all felt strong feeling about how life can be so unpredictable and fragile. The principal gave a speech and advice to take care of our precious life. I could relate to the situation as I just recovered from serious illness.

This week is actually the period of prelim examniation of 4/5th level. I was given a last minute work eg invigilation for secondary four class (E Maths).I hate paraphrasing the instructions to the class before the examination class, hence I use my own way to convey the message that cheating is serious offence.

When I thought I an trying to settle down for catching up, I was given a last minute relief teaching for secondary 2 class for chinese.

I really hate relief teaching because the students woould just make noise and do their own work which is mostly chatting. Today, I got so many personal questions from curious pupils which I tend not to entertain them mostly.

I punished few guys by demanding them to meet after class at 1.30pm because they made loud noise in the class. Then they started to plead and say sorry to me. Hence by giving them the chance, I told them to pick up the rubbish on the floor hence keeping the class clean and tidy.

I hate entering dirty class.

I confiscated one of the guy's handphone because he took the shot of me using his camphone. I hate people taking candid photos of me. So what the class keep telling me that I am such a handsome teacher, ain't no big deal. But I think it is wrong to take my picture without consent. One never know what they are going with the pictures especially they are much well-equipped with technological knowledge.

Then YT and I went for break for while. While eating the food, the principal came over and sit with us for a short chat. I was quite blessed to know that she really took concern about me. We talked about the morning assembly, the health and other matters.

Although today I did not have any remedial but I still went back at at same timing.

New style

Tommorow is the new beginning of my week. It have been a long time I took a break from the illness I got. I did my haircut like the students, keeping the long fringe. New surpise for everyone with slimmer me

My cousin's wedding

Today my favourite, female cousin of same age was getting married. My whole family was there to join the celebation. I was quite happy for her to find good looking guy as a husband despite being vertically challenged for my cousin who is as tall as me, almost.

She looked ravishing and beautiful.

Devil Wears Prada

I had NCC early morning, dragged until 12.30pm. I rushed and met Kay at Jurong East MRt Station and headed to Clementi. I was quite surpised at his dressing. Just so weird.

Then I decided to bring Kay to Queensway Shopping as well as Ikea shopping to see the west side of the scene. I bought some bermudas, three pair of sandals. Shopping in Queensway shopping centre was really theraupatic.

Then we walked to IKEA to browse around. The place was so crowded with people hence I dropped an idea of buying some stuffs there. We took bus 111 to go Orchard Road instead of taking train. We shopped around the Far East plaza before going for a late lunch at Esteler77 reastaurant.

We walked to the Tangs Plaza as kay wanted to buy some gift for his brother.Since he had no curfew tonight, we decided to watch movie - Devil Wear Prada at Lido.

The movie is so damn hilarious and fashionable.

After that, we had a supper at Burger King beside the Borders before going back home. the best thing is that kay paid almost everything - meal and movie. He gave me a treat as a thank you for getting him a job here


the take bus to 111
shopped at far east plaze
the lunch at esteler77
bought something
Watch movie
then go to BK

Wedding of my cousin

Today I had to follow my family to go for my cousin ( father's side) wedding at Hougang. My sister's hubby fetched us and brought us to Hougang. I hated driving to Hougang because everytime I drove there, I was bound to get lost along the way.

We were welcomed by my favourites cousins and people whom I was quite unsure who but somehow my parents' relatives.

People asked for my health as usual but I looked and felt good today.

We all sit down and had our lunch when the host(ess) from one of the documentry who was being hired by my uncle approached my mum for some happy wedding greeting. I was not even know she was the host for that show.

Then I chatted while with my other cousin until the groom came. I simply loved their attire ( magenta and gold )I felt so envious of the groom. I wonder when is my turn?

They were just graduated and so eager to get amrried without getting the job. Well, even the wedding was being sponsored by her brothers and sister. I thought it was quite premature to start marriage without proper income.

Nevertheless, I wished them ever-lasting marriage till death do them apart.

After that , my sis's hubby sent me to Woodlands MRT station. From there, I went back home on my own.

Lily Day

Today I went to meet lily at 2.30pm at Orchard Road. I tried to take Bus 502 near my home to Orchard Road. The time take was quite long but at least I could take this bus to IMM building.

We went for window-shopping at Far-East Plaza for awhile. I bought two rings for myself and one for lily since 3 items for $10. Nothing was to my liking actually.

Then we went to Gucci Boutique to check out the sneaker I was eyeing for long but then they did not sell that type any more and I did not like the new design.

After shopping, we went to gym. I went for bodycombat by myself. Today I shouted during the class for fun. After that, Lily and I went for weight training till 6.30pm before taking shower.

It feels good to feel healthy back.

Yellow ribbon day

I had to reach school by 8.15am to bring the NCC students to Choa Chu Kang for the 'Yellow Ribbon' charity drive. I settled some administrative matter while I had the help from the sergeants and PC to settle the administrative pertaining to the NCC such as attendance.

The other classes which I was teaching also went for the charity drive. I could never escaped from them at all. They were nice students actually.

Once I reached there, I had to settle some administrative stuff with the management before asking the platoon to the empty compound for briefing. To my surpise, I bumped into Imran whom I took same general elective during my university days.

At least, I was not alone. We talked like nobody business. He is now teaching maths and computer application at TW Secondary School. His part B pupils did not come for the charity drive and that pissed him off. He just entered the school only. We shared experiences and skills somehow.

I let my leaders in-charge for me and I trusted them. I just love the discipline and well-behaved attitude. Mr C really a good leader.

We had lunch at the restaurant at Lot 1 complex and then went to Kaya Toast for while before 12pm.

We walked there and I needed to settle some matter so that my students could sign off their can and went back home but due to poor management the organization where every guy knows. The time was delayed till 12.30pm.

Some of pupils asked for my being and wished me teacher's day greeting. I was blessed and honoured although I was working today.