Who say I am free today?

Although, today supposed to be a free day for me because I had only 4 period today, I was superb busy today. I had to prepare lesson plan for this period because my mentor teacher was going for tournament. I was going to teach for those four period.

The topic : taxation.

The class gave me lesser hard time today when I was teaching. Perhaps the topic they are quite familiar with. I just said to myself , I could not be so perfectionist and expected everyone to listen to my lesson. At the end of the period, I should be happy as long as there was learning took place. I learnt to let go and do my part as educator.

After that, I went down to buy rojak and eat in staffroom so that i could simultaneously do my work while having my meal. I transferred all the students Social Studies project to Geography room, hence giving more space for my workspace. I marked the assignments, project works, tests and exercise books. I returned my form class report books, returned their primary school books and then taught the better class for three periods.

I was lucky enough to get attention and also have a interesting lesson - money exchange to engage their learning process, as well as the presence of the Ms Y. I did my best to ensure they learnt.

One of the band teachers, come to me suddenly. I knew it going somehow. Any teachers come to me, would have task for me, which made me fear of any visitors come to my table. He asked for my help since I was a mobile CCA teacher.

Mobile CC teacher means enter any CCA if the teachers were not make it for the CC they need to be presented. To me, it was quite unfair for me and Mr KO because the workload compared to other teachers were the same. I rather had one CCA to be in charge of. There was no justice at all for us. Who says we were idling around and do nothing. But who we are to voice our opinion. Mr KO even brought this to HOD CCA but he lost in the battle where we fought for our rights. We don't have rights at first place, anyway.

Then while doing work, My reporting officer, Mrs T came to my table and heard about me going overseas this weekend. She told me that I needed to ask permission from the managament because this was a MOE procedure for any civil servants so as to safeguard us. I was not aware about it since I only go overseas for one day. That includes going Kuala Lumpur or further, excluding Johor Bahru. I guessed I would keep myself quiet for any overseas activities, in future.

Then I had to go fo the shooting cca with Mr KO. I managed to collect the armoury keys from the Vice principal and range keys from General office. At most, the student leader, Kenneth guided us what to do during the range. He is nice enough to let us test the pistol and rifle to practise shooting.

It have been a long time I shot using pellet as well as a live round bullet. I was a good shooter, during army days and during secondary schools. But today, I missed a lot of shoot within the range on the scorecard. Mr Ko even score bull-eyes and within the ranges even though this was his first time handling weapon. Maybe I was not that young anymore. My heart beats so fast and caused the slight movement to aim the presice target. Hence unstablized the aim.

After Mr KO left, I spent my whole day marking the remaining exercise books. Time went by so slowly and I almost dozed off inside the range. It was so boring and warm. Luckily the range practice ended at 6pm.

I returned the keys to the vice-principal and then to the generak office. I was told that the geography room keys I drew, one of them was lost. I got panicked and knew that the keys I drew is two and passed to Miss C two keys too. YT told me that student took one key and was told to return to general office by today.

Tonight, walter is going to fetch me to go to Richard's home to discuss our entrepeneurship project on mid April. Before that, we went to Gek Poh to buy Mcdonald Meal for dinner. Once we reached there, Richard and his family welcomed us as well as his mega collection of manga figurines. Then we discussed about the strategy to do business/project at Jurong West.

The reason why I agreed to do the project which I considered the success of it can be negative, is I want to share my experience to my students the lessons to earn money in hard way as well as instill entrepeneurship abilities to the younger generations.

Then around 11pm, we went down and have a hearty chat. I just did not like to talk about my private life for I knew it was screwed up somewhere along the journey to my old friends. I already moved on fast and looked forward to better one. I liked to bury my mistakes and past deep down and forgot about it. Nothing much to talk about.

What's left actually the lessons learnt.

We went back home at 12.30 am.

Monday always bluey

It was raining heavily and I played sad love songs. What a way to start my monday. I decided to go to school eary but still, I was caught in the traffic jam and come on time for the assembly. We had the reading session at hall. Today I teach taxation to one of the class and the problem was I had a hard time teaching them, maybe my method of explaination was beyond understanding. I spend like an hour to do the notes for them

The class was rowdy and had no respect for me. I had to give so many silence pause to thsi class and I knew my limited capability today. It was not easy to teach when not being well-prepared. I hated last minutes work.

I was losing my mind but had to stay so positive because I did my best anyway. I must love my job and that wont fused my passion of educating the young generation.

I settled everything , bought rojak home and then have a early rest before preparing my lesson plan tommorow.

I must stay stronger.

My sister's birthday

I supposed to celebrate my sister's birthday today at new place at Carinhill plaze, near Heeren. At least I must give my sister a treat since I already started working. we cancelled it because she was not feelingw ell today.

Lucky for me, I had so much time, whole sunday to settle my school-related stuffs. My sunday was burnt by the working. Gone was my social life.

I need it.

300

I woke up late, I took a taxi to Orchard Road. I was late for meeting with lily and getting taxi at my area was difficult. I managed to get one after a long waiting and being patient. I met her at basic beauty shop at Heeren. It has been a long time we met up. We walked to cine leisure and settled down at Maestro Cafe. We had only one and half hours to catch up.

I order chocolate mint which I thought it was a good combination while lily had her usual hot drink. I decided to order brownies banana split. I always love brownies.


We did a catching up session while enjoying the dessert. When it was about the time, we went to cali gym and attended own classes. I had bodycombat while she had hip-hop classes. The class was packed as usual plus seeing those buffed bodied guys in gym, really made me so inferior. I hate it for my lack of discipline.


Lily and I did a short weight training session before going home.


I waited for Walter to fetch me to then fetch Richard to go watch movies at Vivocity. I tried to use my Tibo GPS system while on his car. Since Wlater was late to fetch us and reaching to vivo at 10.30 and tried our luck to get the tickets for movie 300, almost impossible. True enough, we decided not to buy te tickets since the seats available were terrible.


We decided to go back to Jurong Point to watch 300. On the way there, the road was filled fallen dried leaves, seeing them dancing on the expressway was beautiful sight. Strangely, the leaves were everywhere from Clementi to Jurong.

We managed to get the ticket due to good seats. We bought three set of seafood platter from Long John silver restaurant. We decide to have our meal under the block across the road before the movie. I did not want to have mine at LJS because I saw my student and his family there.

At 12.05am, we watched the movie 300. My expectation of that movie was diappointing actually despite the great cinematography. Too many hot bods, chippendales, breasts, homoerotic , weird animal-like fuck and exaggerating scenes between 300 spartans and persian army made the movie weird. At least I know the idea of what to wear for Halloween - spartan warrior.

Then after movie, we started to critic the movies as usual while going to Boon Lay market for Nasi Lemak supper. We went to the usual spot at Jurong for meal and discuss about future overseas trip and entrepenuership project.

We went back at 5am.

New CCA

I was busy with heritage project, I need to mark and put up the banner and posters around the school. Plus, I was forced to stay back to follow the students for shooting range, Only at night, I started to be free. I was so drained and tired. I am losing insanity but I need to stay motivated and optimistic. Challenges are everywhere and everytime. Perhaps, there is rainbow after fierce storm,. I hope for that.

Life worsen

On Thursday, My mentor teacher on MC again, informed me again last minute. Just prepare what is necessary to cover up what suppose to be done at minimum. I stay until 3.30pm for lesson. I need to chase and check the files of the students because it annual check for the HOD.

Meet a parents session

Today, my mentor teacher was on MC. She informed through sms early morning about it,hence I need to prepare lesson plan at last minute.

Today was a long day, everything screwed badly. Plus in evening, there is meet-a-parent session. I was just beginning teacher and two permanent ones was not around.

Meeting parents who demand an explanation for their children's failure is not an easy feat. They question and doubt my ability as a teacher , which they condemned me to the limit, where I cannot even stand up after being pushed down. It was really a stressful and un motivating period.

Rushing after the contact time with vice principal and then took the report books to be submitted to the parents. Luckily, I have YT by my side to help me, in case they need translator.

The session ended almost 9pm.

Death of my auntie - a strong woman

My elder auntie just passed away ; She lost her combat against cancer. And my whole day which I planned for doing school work gone by visiting the family. Seeing my mum ( who is the favourite sibling of my elder uncle [her elder brother] cried during the ceremony, made me want to cry but I cannot, because I needed to show less emotion that time. My cousin did not even show any during the ceremony, even though she is his mother. Everyone was somehow disappointed with him for not being filial, loving and show concern and care when she is alive and sickly. It is true that people will not appreciate what they have until they have lost them completely. This I will not deny because it is for real.I should be appreciate everything that I have – my parents, my family, my friends and you perhaps before they are gone for good or I am gone. When I observed the burial ceremony, nothing last forever except death. Everyone pursue happiness where it supposed to be in our life.

Stealing in Class: Damn that thief

Nothing much today but to teach this class on utilities bill. They did not give much a headache today to me. I did my best and I hope that there was a learning from the students.

On the last two period, my mentor teacher gave some worksheet to revise on the mathematical practical solution from ten years series.Suddenly, one student informed us that he lost his calculator in class. It was just a matter of shortest time, he put on his table and it gone. My mentor told the class that those who had taken the calculator to play prank was to return it immediately because the coast of the calculator is not cheap.

Since no one admitted to it, she decided to call the discipline master to the class. Meanwhile, she gone to look for him, I kept on the watch out for any movement. Then, the form teacher, discipline master and she came and told the class that we need conduct a spot check on the individual's bag
(1) To ensure the innocence of each of the pupil
(2) To retrieve the calculator again( Duh!)

Few of them felt defensive about the whole situation, as if they were the suspect. It was not fun being treated like a criminal when one did not do anything wrong. I had been there and doen that. Being wrongly accused of stealing something during the class by other peers can be very nasty especially when I was easily bullied and naive during my secondary school.

I know that if you haven't done anything wrong so you have nothing to be ashamed of.

I checked their bags throughly and be careful with female students's bag in case I might robbed their privacy somehow. Three of us found nothing at all, although we knew the calculator was really still in the premise. We really found it unacceptable not to find the calculator.

I even suggested to ask the students to empty their school uniform's pocket just to play safe.

The form teacher said to them that they should know that the class was like that, they should be extra careful with their personal items and she would decide that she might not give them a treat for the promise by them was being breached.

The calculator was gone and nothing we could do much to get it back.

I went back home and took a long nap because I was really very tired and losing vitality. I woke up and have a dinner before my friend called me for a dinner. Actually I wanted to go to the Sheng Shiong Supermarket to buy some grocery. I can cook my own meal this week.

I fetched Walter and then drove to Sheng Shiong Sueprmarket and did my grocery shopping. then Walter packed mee rebus and then went to Richard's home to chill out at nearby block. We talked and had dinner untill 10.30pm.

I sent Walter home.

I did not achieved much today. I wasted time taking a long nap.

I need Vitality