Breathe Again

Today I was drained by the working environment mentally.I struggle with the same problem: excessive emotional baggage. I am getting more bothered by the insecurities, unnecessary ones created by the students. I have depleting my "happy pills"

I had been succumbed to the weight of this burden, it gets too much to bear. I cannot find no further reason to keep up the fight. Life loses its lustre, I find the world unfair, my presence is meaningless. I put on a strong front, whereas I was quite vulnerable to get emotional scars.

Am I ready to let go? Whatever comments, opinions, insults created, I should just flip them behind and move on. Maybe Ms Yeo is right, don't let those affect your life too much. I should try not to take it personally or else it will just leave behind burden again.

I try.

Then I took a taxi to Queensway to meet Richard who was just back from SIR building to get his passport renewed. I saw his new passport - inside got big NRIC card. We shopped for the shoes, business shoes. Again, his taste is damn bad. Imagine wanting to buy Doc Marten's shoes to work.

Then we walked to the nearest MRT station and reflected on the KL trip last time.

I went to Cali Gym and trained for 2 hour class by Reno. I just hate going to cali gym because I am fat, my face is sagging and my skin are getting patchy. I had low self-esteem in cali gym. i alway choose the locker at any conrer, hide from the main walkway to showeroom. Fuck the show-offs.

Then Go home and good rest. Nothing exciting today except joing ABT class with all the babes.