On my own

Bad news for me.

I had to teach two class by myself because Mr 0 had to go for urgent leave because of home matters he needed to attend. No matter how much confident I was, I am still not prepared mentally yet for the class.

I did not have any proper skills and I felt unsure suddenly. I must do my own best to teach or else made fool of myself. Teaching is just like a drama and I am an actor with certain to convince the audience.

I taught the upper secondary class first and I got the stupid nick given by some guy which would be stuck onto me forever in school. I tried to teach them only but not manage the class well. Some of them did listen to me but some just did not bother much and this annoyed me.

Even one student sarcastically told me that she prefer Mr O to teach because he could settle those people well and when i taught the class, she did not understand at all so she better did her own work and waited for Mr O to come.

Seriously, the statement really affected me as it questioned my capability as a teacher. I am matured enough to take the criticism positively and accept it as something I would improve myself better.

I am only 2 days teacher , unlike Mr O who had been a teacher for years and he was the form teacher for that class. No matter what, it really bruised my ego today.

I had fun with lower secondary class. They asked too much personal questions which were not in syllabus with the teaching objective I need to do today. At least they listen to me and did their work.

I guessed that was the difference being in Express Stream and Normal Stream or I am just being stereotyped somehow.

I did my best today even without any skills to guide me