Courage

Today, I decide to go to school and check my final result. Yes, I pluck my courage to really go to school and use library terminal to check the result.the feeling fear is very intense and strong.Lincoln calls me to check my result fast so that he can help me find the job opening. He even wants to help me to check for me. This kind of event , I rather do it myself.

I am so worried about failure because I cannot afford to lose anymore time.

Butterflies in my stomach when I start keying my matric number and password. I try minimise the window screen but suddenly it just caught me off guard and the result pop in front of me.

Speechless.

Finally, I graduate. No tears of happiness but my haertbeat pause for awhile. Somehow, the day seems so bright and cheerful. I feel so relieved and lighter. It is a mixed feeling somehow. Nevertheless I am grateful and thankful for God.

New Chapter of my life.I finally get out of NTU.

I go back home but my mum is not around for me to sharemy happiness. Tonight I rather stay at home to recall back my years of study in NTU.

My mum enter my room and ask whether I want dinner. I just tell her that I graduate. She smiles. And that is the first time, she smiles so beautifully. A smile I can tell that she is proud of me today. Seeing her so happy nearly makes me moved to tears. She gives me a peck and then call my sister to inform my result.

She asks me about my classfication which I am not that proud of. She is upper class honours graduate unlike me. I tell my mother I just graduate and becoming a tecaher is just a sideline for my future at the moment.

I am blessed. I bet my mum tells my aunties regarding this.