Lag

I really lag behind my peers and yet I take things easy. Actually, inside my heart, I am worrying like hell. When I ask my mum for the money and she is on the phone with someone, she tell someone on the phone that my sis is actually envious When she gives monthly money to my mum, she delibrately tell my that this money sure give to me. I just roll eyes.

I realised from this point that I am really slacker and bummer. Let's look at the situation why I am different and slow from others ?

Everyone is given equal opportunity to do the course,however there is no guarantees that everyone will finish. Everyone will find the degree of difficulty in doing the course very difficult.

Hence, Our life's lessons are different from anybody's else and even if they are happened to be similar then we don't necessarily learn them at same time or in the same order.

Things do change in life and sometimes very quickly and radically. There are so many shallow influences that effect me continually. Hence, I need to transform my life.I just need a matter of understanding a few basic life principles and then putting them into practise.

I hate month of may. It is transitional period for me.

Or I do not comtemplate on what it is that i really want in life. I need to create my own world. And the world I refer simply to the conditions and circumstances in my life. In all truth, everything that has happened in my life I ahve in some way created. This may have been either intentionally or unintentionally. Consciously or unconsciously. And right now, I am creating my future. What make me feel so disappointed with my life?

I guess I praise myself for own good achievements but refuse to take responsibility for my actions when things go wrong.

I must create my life what I believe. Wish me luck.