Depression
Today I am not in the mood for any activities. I am experience inevitable period of sadness. I feel more than just simple down. I think I am having depression, I am getting senstive to life circumstance around me, and that lead me into total despair.
Suddenly, I just feel sad, empty and perhaps worthless. These feelings really distorts my thought and expericence, making life meaningless and hopeless somehow.
My mood goes haywire, like a rollercoaster ride this week. I try hard to beat depression on my own, which I should not try to but I just cannot find anyone suitable to help break through this state,
I am not thinking of suicides YET.
I have been a positive thinker this while. But somewhere along the path, I fall into the trap of expecting too much and becoming disappointed easily. Plus, I have been a good listener to the negative thought about life these few days.
I have been a good friend to everyone.I can sometimes tolerate more from them than we really should. In an attempt to hang on to the few friends I have, we let the good times overshadow the bad, in the hopes that the annoying tendencies of lbeing pessimistic are just a passing phase.
But the problem is that, in doing so, you end up letting the person take me to whirlwind journey of negativity and annoy you on a constant basis. Is that what friendship is all about? I think not. I am not as lucky as they are but what stands out is my optimism in life. I do needs friends who make me feel good abou myself. I am not collecting praises and attention.
I just don't want their problems are becoming mine. I am not being selfish but I can help as much as I can and within my scope.
I am depressed enough.
I really want to protect my friendship and be loyal to it, but friendships should not be disruptive to my lifestyle, Life is short.
If one make a molehill out of mountain, one really need to look within himself/herself that there are people who are less unfortunate than them. We should be blessed with who we are and accept the challenges of life to be integral of life.
Move on.
Suddenly, I just feel sad, empty and perhaps worthless. These feelings really distorts my thought and expericence, making life meaningless and hopeless somehow.
My mood goes haywire, like a rollercoaster ride this week. I try hard to beat depression on my own, which I should not try to but I just cannot find anyone suitable to help break through this state,
I am not thinking of suicides YET.
I have been a positive thinker this while. But somewhere along the path, I fall into the trap of expecting too much and becoming disappointed easily. Plus, I have been a good listener to the negative thought about life these few days.
I have been a good friend to everyone.I can sometimes tolerate more from them than we really should. In an attempt to hang on to the few friends I have, we let the good times overshadow the bad, in the hopes that the annoying tendencies of lbeing pessimistic are just a passing phase.
But the problem is that, in doing so, you end up letting the person take me to whirlwind journey of negativity and annoy you on a constant basis. Is that what friendship is all about? I think not. I am not as lucky as they are but what stands out is my optimism in life. I do needs friends who make me feel good abou myself. I am not collecting praises and attention.
I just don't want their problems are becoming mine. I am not being selfish but I can help as much as I can and within my scope.
I am depressed enough.
I really want to protect my friendship and be loyal to it, but friendships should not be disruptive to my lifestyle, Life is short.
If one make a molehill out of mountain, one really need to look within himself/herself that there are people who are less unfortunate than them. We should be blessed with who we are and accept the challenges of life to be integral of life.
Move on.
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