American Idol
I go down , brave the rain and buy myself an unhealthy lunch that will last me till evening. I really hate staying at home; It gives me headache. I am going to watch much anticipated show: American Idol 4 finale. Carrie won for this season. The single, Inside your heaven by her is so aspiring. I am really sucker for such songs. Plus there are strong emotions of victory during that moments. It is beautiful. How I wish I have talent in singing.
I have not tell my mum about my intention of going to Bangkok next week.
I cannot sleep either because I am so worried about my results that will come out on 2nd of June next week. I cannot afford to fail anymore. I have no time to lose. Somehow I am not that positive anymore. And not young too.
Singapore is hardly a country that I have my own life and live to my best capabilities. Dream that I don't think it can be fulfilled in this country. Our mindset is just too safe and not risky. We don't dare to dream and don't dare to fail, then dream and fulfill it again.
Should I start planning to exit from Singapore? Or I just worry too much ? FUCK!
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