Cleo Bachelor

When i told Derek that , I am interested in coming a model and I know I am joking about it. I never realise that he give me a call later and pass the number of this guy who own the talent/modelling agency which is still new in the industry. I am not even confident to admit that I look good.

Of course, I am intereested in participating ine Cleo's eligible bachelor contest. I know I am not that eligible actually. The participants are out and there is no familar face this year. I got so much flaws physically and I am not proud of having this flaws in the body . I have tummy and that is the sad part . I need discipline RIGHT now. Anyway, I can be one of the Eligible bachelor under right connection. Or I am too old for this thing .

Talking aging, I hate being old. Everyday I always come across old men and the images are that pleasing. Baldness, big tummy, wrinkled facial and slow motor reaction. I keep thinking when I come across these people. Are they taking care of themselves when they are young? Or I just sit and do nothing about slow the ageing process. Even I am at 40s, I still need to maintain 30s looks. But now, I look damn old at my young age.

Stress. Emotional turmoil. Anger. Stress AGAIN.

I must do more yoga to improve flexibilty and add lubricants to my joints. Derek tells me that Yoga can make one lose weight too. Anything to slow down the ageing process. I fear death as similar as getting old and senile. And ugly.

No matter what, I have two more weeks to get toned and flat stomach. No more chocolates and carbo.