sick

Being sick is horrible.Horrible!I cannot begin to stand the pains of prolonged illness. I can barely tolerate short spells of illness with which I ahve forced to deal now. I am stubborn enough not to go for a visit to doctor last tuesday.

The day start to benign enough.

I just take some leftover pills I bought long time ago ,and I am not sure the expiry status of the medicines. At least it give me temporary relief to my illness.

When you are sick, the more closer you are to God. I can be so ungrateful when I only remember God when I am experiencing near-death illness but not when I am in pink of health. Tinge of regrets. Yes. I am losing myself. I hate it.

I start to think of my parents, my family, my friends and my relatives and mostly my life. Tears just flows from the sides of my eyes. Joking. I am such in pain and fatigue to think of all these craps except missing God. Maybe has better plan for me to get sick on this period.

Time to sleep and recuperate again.