through the rain

I receive so many bad comments by ONLY One person. Thrilling! Anyway I needed to censor his comment because my blog is not thrashing low self-esteem comments on me. I have certain rights to do that since I own my personal journal. I was not going to be powerless and just let his non-stop comments flowed like waterfall. Gosh! talking about getting peace, who was the one who needed it most?

I was ok with him constantly insult me and my family including my father with his baseless thought.Now He was trying to hurt my pride and self-esteem by getting even and taking things out on others including me.Reality bites regarding his family and he was quick enough to use my weakness to pick a emotional fight. I could not expect myself to put a strong resistance to defend myself against his words.

Just a single word of "sorry" seem so hard to express.especially he holds on to his pride, which can be damaging to a relationship. Afterall, it was about my friendship with him. I realized that it is more important to keep his pride than aplogize to me. I was not worth it,according to him.

It's an eternal struggle as a human and as myself. to fall prey to my emotional indulgences and allow my insecurities and our attachment to desires to crush me. yet I would walk on bravely, and walk , not alone......through the rain