Exam period is over.I noticed I felt at loss, empty after exam.I really to restructure my life back to life.I still have one matter yet to tell my mum.Sighs!Such a life in Singapore, the generation of people who are afraid of failure;dependent on goverment;have no specialized skill.There is no chance for them to obtain the true education for the next millenium.Life for me is not easy.

I wanted to watch movie, VanHelsing, but no one to accompany me.I decided to go to town alone.I can hide it well, but its there, and strangers can see it,still. I constantly feel alone, and need to do things to fill my time. I am afraid to tell people this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad way, and I may think I screwed up everything. And when I see smiles, that was when I am sad the most.Anyway, I just went to HMV , listening to music before heading back home for American Idol 3.

I feel alone even with myself
But does it better me
I'd like to tell you how i'm seeing now
But ruins everything

You try to judge me now/tomorrow's okay
You try to tell me now how i should feel
I don't feel like i should be here

I feel alone even with myself
Do you know what i mean
I can't explain those things that seem to repel me
They ruin everything

Your fears are working now/but i don't complain
I'm working hard to listen and that's okay