Being a prisoner of my own mind,vainly struggling against the despair,anguish and hopelessness that assails me,Imagine being young, attractive,feeling good while I secretly carry heavy burden;despite the evidence of contrary,I felt so worthless.Imagine.....why is there so much pain,suffering and sorrow?

My heart ached because of cruel things said or done to me by friends,the purpose of that pain is to make me of suffering their careless words and deeds cause me to experience.i could not act with compassion to help remove my anguish.My friend told me that while doing haircut for him,his sister accidently cut her finger.I was bluntly said that there was not much skill to do a haircut.He blasted me by saying that with no skill involved will make his hairstyle turn out to be mine - horrible and uneven.Suddenly he said that he saw a big hole on my hair, like i was either accidently cut too deep or I went bald...soon.

I really got pissed.True enough,nothing much skill is needed when doing haircut for guys ( of course it will be different for ladies as there are varieties of hairstyle).I only do haircut for thsoe who want neat and short hairstyle, using proper tools like electric shaver and a scissor.I even did my own haircut myself and I think I did quite well in shaping my hairstyle.And what really pissed me off that he dare to say he saw a obvious hole on my head under dark place whereas usually he did not notice it on daylight or few weeks.Such understatment just to hurt my pride.Ridiculous! Even if I went bald, I rushed to Yun Nam haircare centre to help me solve the problem.If he did that to feel good, he succeeded. I was crushed by feeling pain which i did not submitted to it.

I went to hall 9 study room with Terence ( his suggestion) - I hate studying in hall study room because I am not the resident of hall.I Just felt awkward, that's all. While I was studying, Terence told me that there is a guy who really look like me from a distance was at study room now.I was curious who the hell he is.Surpised, It was Dawn's boyfriend.How possible can I be look like him?(Maybe a bit) He looks better looking and hunkier than me.He reminds Terence of younger version of me.Anyway, I stressed that he is better looking than me.

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