High Teas

Today I had two invigilation for express class. Before going to second invigilation, my HOD told me that the principal wanted to see me because there was a case of parent complaint(AGAIN). I kept telling HOD and Principal that I did my best without any guidance from anyone to teach. I just being rationale even though I will lose in this kind of conversation.

At least I lost gracefully.

Kenneth and I had lunch outside before going back home

I drove to the Vivocity and parked my car there. There was a high-tea organised by the SWBC where most of the teachers would be attending. Kenneth, me, Agnes, Bi Jun and Yee Teng sat in one table. I did not know Agnes love taking photos too. We both were such cam whores. Kenneth brought a big SLR camera - bigger than mine by far. He is such a professional photographer, he seems look like one.

After tha gathering, Agnes, Bi Jun and I went to raffles place to meet Joanna. We parked the car at Golden Shoes car park. On the way there, we bumped into Khusni.Then we went to the Mind's cafe to make a booking , then walked to central to have a dinner.

We decided on having Manhattan Fish Market. I remembere having that in midValley mall in Kuala lumpur about more than 8 years ago.Three of us except Agnes ordered fish and chips set while Agnes ordered soem baked rice with dory fish. Surpisingly, I could not finish the food at all. Then at 7.30pm, we walked back to minds cafe. They still ordered finger foods. These girls could really eat alot. I had fun with them. we played taboo, granny's apples, 6 to 6 and more.

I found people who loved going to minds' cafe.

Then I drove them back home. I was surpised that they stayed quite far from the school, except Agnes.

One day fulfilled.

Down with sickness

I officially rest at home.

How I spend My saturday

Today I spent whole day at home. I get restless and listless.
Time wasted watching HBO and Starworld Channel.

Falling sick is a waste of time.

How I love the rain

I got a sweet dessert from a babe in my office. How thoughful of her. After a talk about dyslexia which I was so interested in, I went back home with intention of washing the car. Once I step into the house, it rained so heavily.

There goes my goal for today.

I start to laze around, relax myself since my whole body ached quite bad. I could not even lift up my arms. I read the blog of the students about having preference of my mentor teacher to teach instead of me.

Frankly, it did affect me a little bit but I need to rationalise myself too. I did not have much experience than her. I did my best to be a better educator, to achieve both party objective in school. I also want to walk together with them throughout the learning journey.

I think the most important quality for a teacher is not his qualifications, his knowledge, etc. but his ability to motivate his pupils. To inflame some kind of enthusiasm or passion in somebody is a wonderful gift to give that person, and even humanity.

Mere words would not bring me down , even my dream. In the end, I cannot please everyone all the time. I don't get any performance benefits from them anyway.

In few weeks, it will be quite relaxing for me, therefore I have spare time for intensive training.

I love my ipod nano
Colour - Lime green( no wrong in guessing the colour anyway)

Breathe Again

Today I was drained by the working environment mentally.I struggle with the same problem: excessive emotional baggage. I am getting more bothered by the insecurities, unnecessary ones created by the students. I have depleting my "happy pills"

I had been succumbed to the weight of this burden, it gets too much to bear. I cannot find no further reason to keep up the fight. Life loses its lustre, I find the world unfair, my presence is meaningless. I put on a strong front, whereas I was quite vulnerable to get emotional scars.

Am I ready to let go? Whatever comments, opinions, insults created, I should just flip them behind and move on. Maybe Ms Yeo is right, don't let those affect your life too much. I should try not to take it personally or else it will just leave behind burden again.

I try.

Then I took a taxi to Queensway to meet Richard who was just back from SIR building to get his passport renewed. I saw his new passport - inside got big NRIC card. We shopped for the shoes, business shoes. Again, his taste is damn bad. Imagine wanting to buy Doc Marten's shoes to work.

Then we walked to the nearest MRT station and reflected on the KL trip last time.

I went to Cali Gym and trained for 2 hour class by Reno. I just hate going to cali gym because I am fat, my face is sagging and my skin are getting patchy. I had low self-esteem in cali gym. i alway choose the locker at any conrer, hide from the main walkway to showeroom. Fuck the show-offs.

Then Go home and good rest. Nothing exciting today except joing ABT class with all the babes.

Monday Blues

After work, I just hate when lesson being dragged after 2pm. I quickly rush home, park the car and quickly hailed the taxi to LTA office at Sin Ming Road, which I was not sure myself. It cost me $15 to go to office and get enquiries that I do not need t pay road tax because I used Giro to pay. They only deducted the tax on the expired date, which was on wednesday. I can still use the tax within one week.

I should have called. The rain poured so heavily and small umbrella cannot keep my big size dry. I took bus 130 to Ang Mo Kio central

Ang Mo kio left bitter sweet memories for me. When I used to work in Kulicke and Soffa Engineering company, I always hung out at the Ang Mo Kio central to have lunch or shopping. Anyway, it was not fond memories there anyway.

Then I took a MRT to orchard. Walking along the orchard road under light drizzle. Despite feeling lonely, I did my one ME time and just enjoy it alone. Seeing people around happy and cheerful. I smiled for the goodness God gave me. Walking along the Orchard did reflect on my memories.

Those thoughts always make me hate the aging process - getting older.

I took a bus at Heeren to have dinner at Banquet foodcourt at China Square. I always go for Chicken rice there again. Then I walked to the Cali gym for my intensive 3 hr regime,

I want to be in size 1.

Skinny.

It's over

It is really over.

My PC crashed and all the datas are gone just like that. All my pictures, my precious ones just gone, forever. I feel like losing my life for nothing.

One thing lead to another.

I just have no mood to do anything now. I guess it is God's will to help simplify my life much easier and cleanier. All those porn, dirty email or documents or anything related to immorality, are just vanished. My PC is as clean as a virgin.

I need to move on and start downloading software and drivers to make my pc workable. I cannot even use mys canner to do my paper setting.

I m so fed up.

The kutus plague

Today, the girls in my class complaint about some girls who had headlices and now spread to others. It became an urgent matter when one of the girl's parent called to ask for the status. Actually, I thought it was not a serious matter so I let it be.

I kept questioning to myself why i got such unexpected events everytime. Did it make me wiser and well-prepared for the future? Or in negative perspective,was I being ill-luck?

Today, my mentor was on urgent leave, and again had to prepare the lesson last minute again. Luckily it was not that bad as I did some revision with them.

Somehow, I really got monday blues. YT just got the letter from MOE about him turning permanent education officer. But I still had not gotten it.

Worried.

Then gossip about me by some fools to my friends re-surfaced again. I wondered that am I worth talk-about? I had so much other things to worry about.

Be strong

Celebration at Aoen Tebrau Mall