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Preferably called as Esjay /
Born on 2nd of January 1977 in Singapore
/ Stands at
5'11/180cm / weighs 70kg
/
NTU Graduate / perfectionist / attention seeker / lost interest easily /
failure in life / legally dumb /
adventurer / fun seeker / vain / Adore
punk / quiet / love sports / tan / beach volley ball
/ anything related
to beach / sicko / hate cockroach / traveler /
love
Nasi Lemak / proud /
My Resolutions:
1) Pass , not score , my subjects
2) Get my body back to hunky shape
3) Earn money at least $600
4) Get closer to God
5) Find Hang-out Buddies
6) list go on............
It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes
[Guy Sebastian (Australian Idol Winner) - Angels Brought Me Here ]
Year 2004 is tommorow. And I m not feeling well. No one call me. Financial Instability. Crazy.Loneliness.Fever. I slept and slept hopefully I wil woke up next day...
7.45pm.... I woke up with splitting headache and bad cough...And I am in the mood of partying....Guess this is how i started my New Year..Stay at home and enjoyed with my Family..NOoooooooooooooooo
Cuz i realized i got
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend
'I am not a weak person... I can tell you that I have never had any fears and I will win this fight,
Words Of Inspiration from Anita Mui......She did not manage to win the battle though....such a strong character
Somehow she was contente to leave this world and realise how much close and true friend she had despite being a superstar status...how about me....i cun find any when i need one......i guess i m fated to be alone too.....
My loneliness is killing me
I must confess I still believe
When I'm not with you I lose my mind
Give me a sign
Hit me baby one more time
[BRitney Spear - baby, one more time]
4pm I went down to Orchard Takashimaya SC to meet Lily.She was totally changed....slimmer and better looking..awesome....Surpise...And She wore green attire....I accompany her to Condomia shop to help her buy some kinky gift for her boyfriend..well..she is kinda of shy going there alone......then we went to Lucky Plaza McDOnald to have a chat ..catching up with one another....She Bought me Brownie for my birthday....Yeah!!!
- We woke up at 9am, shower and took some picture
- We check out at 11am and had our dinner at Lot 10 S.c Food court.....
- we did last window-shopping...bought bubble gun at RM11.....
- We went to PuduRaya Bus station to wait for the bus...
- We reach Singapore at 7pm
- We had dinner at Bugis ..then went back home.......
- We took 1230am Transnational Bus to Kuala Lumpur ( cost RM20.50)
- Cun sleep during whole journey ............ I hate nighttime, it make me feel so lonely, moody, helpless...tried to reflect what i had undergo during 2003 ... :(
- Reached Kuala Lumpur at 5.30am...walked to Bukit Bintang Walk to search for hotel
- Argued with my fellow friend about last minute plan ( no booking of hotel) worse rained
- Search for hotel/motel ( only available ard check-out time) so we just had breakfast nearby ( Horrible Mee goreng Ayam and concentrated coffee at cost of RM6)
- Went to Coffee Bean cafe Opposite Regency Hotel to kill time)
- managed to get Our accomodation ( Pondok Lodge) Room cost $80 per night
- Slept for two hours
- had our lunch at Nasi Ayam Chee Meng Restaurant ( Nice)
- Walked to Puduraya Bus station to buy tix ( RM35) F***ing expensive and only available
- Go to KLCC by LRT, shopping a while ....then walked to Menara Tower..walked ard
- Walked back to Bukit Bintang walk for dinner....we had dinner at Fish and Co. ( mine is black pepper stingray meal at RM19.90)
- We showered and get ready to go for our adventure tour )
There's gotta be more to life
than chasing down every temporary high
to satisfy me.
Cuz the more that I'm
trippin' up thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure.
There's gotta be more...
than wanting more.
[Staccie Orrico- There's Gotta Be) More to life lyrics]
Sun, 28th December 2003
- Bunawar was not feeling well....so i end up slept till 12pm....
- We looked for Pharmacy to buy the medicine...then we had lunch at Johnny's restaurant
- Argue with waiter for wrong order....he gave me 3 plate of Garlic rice instead of one..Three of us were pissed off.... We had steamboat too...lucky other waitress are friendlier....
- We did some shopping , bought two tee and wallet chain ( RM70 ) from 77th Street
- I bought about 6 magazines
- We went back hotel, put our stuff and went to Subang jaya for a massage after body aches
- Spent about RM57.75 for full-body massage at Kursani...so so service.
- We had our Dinner in Teppanyaki Restaurant at Mid Valley MegaMall. super nice
- then we took taxi to our hotel, rest a while...
- we walked around at Jalan P Ramlee to check out the clubbing scene
- We went to Atmosphere Discotheque for RM40 ( they had Mardi Gras theme Under AFA society)
- We went back hom at 4am..pack up
- snorezzzzzz
TOh…I love the nightlife
I got to boogie in the disco' round oh yeah (2 times)
Please don't talk about love tonight
Please don't talk about sweet love
Please don't talk about begin true
And all the trouble we've been through
Ah, please don't talk about all of the plans
We had for fixin' this broken romance
I want to go where the people dance
I want some action…I want to live!
Jhorng Ren came and help me with registration...end up i was like so panick when i had more than expected failed subject...which I had never take before...come to my SENSE...now i know this subject is linked to the missing AUs i had been searching for.........*blink* *blink*
Met Mr Nice Guy, Assoc Professor Yeo Song Huat ...help me to register extra subject..guess i might get into two more semester then..sighs......stupid stupid esjay...no clubbing...no pubbing..no falling in love...no sleeping........Now waiting for 1pm..still counting....for just one subject......
Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent.-- Marilyn vos Savant
*Scream* I woke up late..........I quickly rushed to school after 1/2 hr of looking good *gulp* .why?I am going back to school.....yawns.....Luckily i manage to get one computer ...waiting for 1130am .....hope i get my ideal timetable...noisy...excitement...joy......anxiety.....chaotic.....All inside Damn Library 1...What 's so excited about registration of subject....must be boxing day huh?
Don't worry, don't worry, don't do it.
Be happy. Put a smile on your face.
Don't bring everybody down.
Don't worry. It will soon pass, whatever it is.
Don't worry, be happy.
I'm not worried, I'm happy...
I met Bunawar At Clementi McDonald's Rest. to discuss the KL trip....end up till 10.30pm......We were trying to persuade David to go with us ..At that time, we was at IMM Burger King Rest.............It will be very short trip anyway...sighs......
Never frown, even when you're sad, because you never know when someone is falling in love with your smile
I am going to start doing shitty thing ( plan timetable )
Seems things to be out of hand.....so much things to be done - family outing, timetable planning, KL trip, marketing planning.....argghh.. NTU system sucks, especially lazy people like me......*going bananas* *gasps for air* * shout * *F*** F*** F*** F*** F*** F*** *
So I went into a bar
Looking for sympathy
A little company
I tried to find a friend It's more easily said
It's always been the same
This type of modern life
Is not for me
This type of modern life
Is not for free
Thank God for giving me a chance to stay alive....I was nearly had a close shave with Death....The Bus was nearly banged into my car when i was about to make a right turn to PIE expressway near NTU....it is my fault actually....lucky for me, I made a fast speed and the bus-driver was streetwise enough to drive slow and manage to stop at time....i was so freaked...
Worse I had to drive to Orchard road which was congested with not only people but vehicles...somehow I wish I took a taxi ...well I m a bad and reckless driver .*grin* ...parked my car 'íllegally' at the private estate and managed to meet Terence , Nick, Desmon and David at Subway outlet at Shaw house....watch Scary Movie 3 ( one and half hour ONLY )
Scary Movie 3 is D most corny movie I had ever watch and those who are lonely, sad, stressed ought to watch this movie beacuse you end up laughing almost non-stop for whole one and half hour....it is lame and everyone likes tat
Then three of us had supper nearby and I sent them back home..... I reached home at 4am ..thanks to the damned pump attendant who was so busy enough not to pump my car..end up driving to other kiosk to have my damn car pumped...F***!
I receive few good friends sms today like Kailing, Brandon, Richard...Cheryl, brenda. Joe...derek...Jeff..and of couse Edmund ( His birthday is On christmas itself )..special kid huh....
Do you have an opinion?
A mind of your own?
I thought you were special
I thought you should know
But I've run out of patience
I've run out of comments
I'm tired of the violence
I couldn't care less
Just back from supper (infamous Nasi Lemak stall )at clementi Rd near NUS with Kien, terence and Nick.. earlier, I fetch kien from his house to go to IKEA , so as to meet Terence and Nick....while waiting for them, i end up buying one bulb, one glass jar and green glass pebbles at total cost of $18.30....plus $2.50 carpark fee...
Terence commented on my hairstyle - weird, punk and unsuitable - tat's me. At least I did get certain stares from the crowd.
Thank Goodness for my perservence to create such weblog...Never knew I had such patience and skill to do it - HTML, JavaSrcipt, Template,RSS, C++ ...i rather learnt japanese as language than those..
It is Sunny now...I should have gone tanning but still need to clear school thingy
From morning till afternoon..i was treated like a maid - buy groceries, did some cooking, cleaning up, washing dish, preparing food for guest, search for rojak around my neighbourhod, drive my mum to her friend house...guess i m high-class maid...'Mum, tireeeedddd, mum!' I cun even do anything related to my interest except domestic help ...well i m sincere helping my mum anyway
Then i drove to hall 13 at almost to 8pm to meet Hung Yong to ask abt my Final year project thingy..we chatted and chatted since Edmund wanted to meet at 11pm.He told me tat choose supervisor than the project itself...more worth...hmm....must listen to smartie..then we both climbed up to meet jhong ren, another good friend of mine. We had chat togther....then we went to meet my kaki, brandon....he is not in!!!
We went back to hung Yong's room to discuss abt Hui Hui birthday surpise party.Brandon came in..yeah we had so much things to ctach up but it almost 1030pm...
i rushed down to River Valley Rd with speed of 120km/ph to fetch Edmund...We had supper at Lau Pa Sat ..and we had chatted a while..Been a long time I have not meet him...still as stunning and charming plus classy guy....we headed to MAMBO JUMBO..at zouk ............gulp?!!
I felt damn awkward and serious out of place, due to total age difference and i hate Retro..then we went to Member's bar...also different environment compared on friday or saturday...these people are YOooooooooung......Plus these young gal seems to have 'i must get laid tonite'attitude..*wink* Edmund treated me orange juice.and wiggled around only .How to dance to retro music...I met my long friend, Barry..did some catching up....and the fabulous cheerleader from hall 14 - Eileen, Yvonne,Sarita,Ming Ming...Wow check ming ming out....trully gorgeous tat night......
at 2.30am....we went back hom..had a drink at 7-eleven......poke fun of each other..then i sent him home...i reach home nearly four.....
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